Plaid overlay on a black background. I don't get the vibrant colors that I hear about, or I haven't yet. Everyone describes the kaleidoscope, but I haven't experienced these facet-ridden, glittering colors. When I closed my eyes, there was a very deep, soul-shaking vibration happening. The infinite "background" was a swirling yellow, and within it there were clusters of black and white shapes. There were different "planes" of the background in that the clusters looked wallpapered on, facing different directions. However, there were no divisions to indicate where they would hang. Every cluster had a being associated with it, and they all turned their heads to see me as I floated by, eyes wide. I can't tell if they were dressed in white body suits, or if they were themselves pure white on the surface, with areas of their faces black. The eyes were large. More and more of this vibration noise, I hear high pitched squeaks happening from some points of my present atmosphere.
I was just confused and nervous as I floated wildly through this dreamscape. If I would have possessed a body, its 4 or 6 arms would have been swirling around on my torso, trying to grab a hold of anything for orientation purposes. I was moving backward, emerging from the mouths of beings that were surfaced by rapidly interchanging black and white stripes. Mayan carvings coming to life, the mouths open wide as they faded into the distance.
Finally, things began to change around and I saw the floors and walls and ceilings constructed out of yellow balls that would, here, be about 8" wide. But here they were, connecting and making themselves into support structures. They spanned out as far as I could see, and as soon as I realized this, my "essence" was traveling again. My head (where it would have been) poked into one of the rooms formed by this... yellow.
I feel/hear the question, "What do you want?" The idea of being a mother flashed into my head, but it was too fast for me to say it. All I could think was that I didn't know what I wanted. So, "I don't know" is what I thought in response. The question and exchange was devoid of emotion, it was very clinical. I was pulled out of this room by a rapid force, and it scared me so I resisted a little. I felt shaken into submission, and then my "essence" started flopping around, to and fro. I was being inspected. Every bit of me
was being looked at and looked through, torn down for parts. I can only liken the perceived motion of my "body" to a spider rolling up his prey, turning it every way it can. This is from the motion only, you understand. The feeling was more inquisitive. I didn't feel endangered, just confused.
While all of this was going on, I felt tiny points touching me, like a hundred little fingers attached to this mass of arms. Robotic, I suppose, but an organic robot. I heard a screeching "RELAX RELAX RELAX" like a death metal
vocalist screaming on the inhale, so I obeyed it. Once I did I felt myself spread out like a warm liquid goo and traveling quickly into a tunnel of sorts. I say tunnel, but it was like many flat discs were lined up, and they were rotating. Each disc had a hole that was meant for me, and the rotation rates were such that when I approached a disc, the hole was there for me to slide through and then it continued on.
Finally, I had the wits to look around a bit and I was getting nervous again. I turned my head to gaze straight up (I was traveling on my back through the air, feet first.) and I saw that the space between the discs were actually what I interpreted to be planes of existence. When my eyes made it to the position of staring straight ahead, I saw into a room but all I can remember was a chair. It was the back of a chair. I even saw the label of the maker on the back, kind of on a support under the seat. I made out nothing else of the room, and even though the tunnel I was in was infinite, I popped out into one of the planes. With the speed I was at, I was able to keep up with a large group of ribbons. These ribbons were growing and exploding outward, constantly intertwining. I was riding beside the crest of this gorgeous color wave, the strands only differentiated by their transparency and various patterns. Overall, the color scheme involved violet, deep pink, and a few reds. There were smaller instances of greens and blues, but not nearly as much.
Then, I opened my eyes and everything was stricken with layers of these colors. The very air was made of the ribbons I was following, leading me to wonder about the scale of the world that I was involved in. Again, I closed my eyes. I don't remember exactly what happened here, but I remember hearing very slight whispers, and my hands were brought together. The weight of what I was hearing and feeling were causing my head to become heavy so that I had to rest it on my hands.
I just kept feeling waves of love and hate and pressure and relief and joy and bereavement... from everyone. The impression was everyone. I didn't know if it was everyone in the room, everyone in the world, everyone I know... but it made me weep. I felt forgiven and taught and humble and loved, and there was a white light presence beside and behind me on my left side. This presence was there for my first experience, too, though I didn't see anything of the light during that time.
A couple of times during the initial yellow phase, I opened my eyes in confusion, and everything was lit as though a large blacklight were illuminating the room. There were stripes of color on the floor, and when I would gaze around the room, the still forms of my friends were radiating their own stripes. Red or violet in the center, with the colors of the rainbow spanning out to their sides. Each time I opened my eyes I would take a deep breath and rub my thighs before turning my head slowly from side to side.
Apparently, my initial blast off was uncomfortable in spirit and physical body because I was cringing away from the noise of their dog who suddenly started acting up and digging in things. I don't know if she was already riled up or got riled up when I was blasted around. They calmed her and it allowed me to calm myself.