Since I've been a part of this community my definition of myself, or my ego, has changed. I would say it's for the better as I feel more complete experiencing what I have.

Now, evolution of one's self is constant. It will never end, so far as I know, until you reach the zenith of being. I can't say I've been to the point of complete oneness yet but I think a few of you have through the help of DMT and other entheogens. What goes on during that and after that I'm not sure of...

But, for now I think it's fun to be able to label myself this or that. It's something for my ego to indulge in at the moment, which seems to be what existence here on Earth is about for humans, especially in certain areas like America. I acknowledge and accept this as being "the way it is". I do try to keep my ego in check though

So, what defines Aviator at the moment?

I recognize that there are very odd things in this world that the general public seems to not take seriously, as far as I know... our bodies, plants, ghosts, aliens, entities, solar systems, galaxies, stars, black holes, super novas, higher dimensions, extreme high technologies (Anyone seeing Her? I can't wait!), consciousness, creativity, and much much more.

These things are utterly mind blowing. It's almost beyond me why people don't practically worship these things.

I want to live so that I can find out what these things really are. So, I take care of my body extremely well. I workout at a professional level and go about it in the most rational way possible. I leave most of my ego at the door and plow through my workouts efficiently day in and day out.

I take my hygiene very seriously as well as I know consistent upkeep over a long period of time is the key to preventing most illnesses.

This body is the only thing that is keeping me here in this reality. I see it as my personal temple and real part of what I am. I build it bigger, make it stronger, and keep it clean.

But, If I am to die sooner than I'd like I accept it. I won't question it. I'll listen for the carrier wave. I'll let the thought of, "I'm ready. Take me away.", strip me of everything that I am. I'm not sure where I'll go. All I know is that I'll go.

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I see myself as one with the Earth. It's like my mother in a way. I also see myself as one with the Earth's parent, the massive star the exploded releasing the elements that created the Earth. This keeps going on. I see myself as one with the physical universe. I am not disconnect from it in anyway. I am it and it is me.

I was actually coming down from an acid trip the other day and watched a movie about the universe and us. There was a part that showed gas clouds with stars in it and I said to my friend, "I wish I were there." Then it dawned on me that I AM THERE. I felt like I had said the silliest thing by saying that. I guess what I really should have said was, "I wish I had a better view of this place that we live in."

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I don't try to fight the culture that is at the moment. Although, I don't agree with a lot of what is going on right now in the world. I know there is suffering, sickness, hunger, and just plain sh*t all around me. All of it breaks my heart. There is a sense of it that doesn't leave me. I don't think it ever will.

I want to help. That's why I play the game that is capitalism. I think to myself, "If I can make it big I can make a difference." And, so I try. I do it for myself and for the help that I can bring to others.

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Entheogens have become an important component of my life and there's no turning back. The impossible geometry and objects are infinitely impressive but what has left the greatest mark on me is the impossible emotions that are felt. Peace... utter completeness. Peace in its purest form. I've never felt it until I discovered entheogens. Love... absolute and infinite. Thinking about these things brings tears to my eyes. I wish we could all feel these things. Just knowing that these emotions exist is life changing.

I haven't traveled very far yet. I've smoked DMT and or changa maybe 60 times but only truly broke through 4 or 5 times.

The journey is now permanently a part of what I am.

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So, these are a few facets of what makes me what I am. I could babble on but I'm interested in what other people think they are.

I guess if you're bored and like writing about this stuff I'll have a read