So this is really my first post on the nexus, iv asked some questions on extractions and found the members on here to be very informative and helpful. So thank you all for being as opened minded and genuine, it is a pleasure to be a part of the nexus, an I hope to share my experiences in hopes to give as much as Receive from being a part of the nexus.
Thanks
I was talking with my friend who I hadn't seen in a very long time. After catching up on the normal life experiences, our conversation shifted toward the mind and alternate states of consciousness. He had heard alittle about DMT and what it is an does. I took a year and filled it with as many possible drugs as I could do. I didn't work and had just come into a bunch of money. Ended up playing around and was very naive and with a strong sense of invincibility. I wound myself up spiraling rapidly down the hole of dark and twisted depths of methamphetimines. I was a drug bottomless pit, dropped over 500 hits of LSD + I can't even count how much MDMA, adderal, cocain, and well if I were to ramble off my list it would take to long. Let's just say I have never touched heroine or pcp, other then that I have done probably way to much of it what ever it is.
I was explaining to my friend my experiences and history with the mind and altered states there within. And got on the question of how I pull myself back out of the hole I nearly buried myself in, psychologically speaking. I then went on and told him that DMT actually was what showed me how and why to stop and get away from the meth. He replied asking "do you think that a separate entity showed you something or was it just more in tune with yourself?"
I replied, "I would say alittle of both, entity and in tune". One night me and my friend who I did most of my drugs with, which actually just happens to have my same first and middle name as me. Anyway this is toward the end of my meth escapades, but to me I did not know that yet. We decide to drop some acid so we both took 3 and a half tabs and drove into the mountains where we always liked to go to do our drugs since it was only 15 minutes away from the entrance. The police didn't bother to come out on those roads and winding through the mountain unless called for an emergency. You can drive for a couple hours winding around 1 lane roads with hundred foot cliffs on one side and tall rock walls on the other. It takes you all the way through the mountains and pops you out onto the PCH highway running along the beach. We took a couple friends with us, there were many little secret pull offs and cliffs to walk to once in the mountains.
It was night time and I had brought my two green laser lights with me. I had a power converter with me so I plugged them into the car. It was really foggy out and by the time we got out there the acid was kicking in strong, we played with the lasers bending and blowing our minds. The lasers were the kind of lasers you screw up to the ceiling and it blasts out spinning patters like on a dance floor. needless to say it was breathtaking. We drove back down the mountain to A friends house.
It was a huge house on a lake. They had a pontoon boat in which we went and smoked some weed and played with emergency glow sticks and listened to music. I remember this very vividly, boats would pass us and I was watching them. As I watched I decided to play around with it alittle, I stopped the lights on the boat and froze them like as if I was freezing time. Then I would reverse the boats and watch them ride right back to where they were. Next I lifted the lights out on the water and started making them fly all around the sky as I watched them swirls and trace behind themselves. After hanging out on the boat I go inside and hook up my lasers and start playing with them again. Her living room was circular shape and probably the size of 25ftx25ft with over 20 foot ceilings and a balcony over top. They have super reflective marble floors and mirrors everywhere including the ceiling. I went into a trance kinda mode. I was sitting in a third person perspective looking at myself doing all these things with the lights all the while in this weird zone, nobody could talk to me, I didn't respond to anyone I didn't hear them I was gone. I then had an idea, I went into their bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror for awhile and then smiled. Looked myself in the eyes, saluted myself and said good bye, out loud. Went out and found my friend and told him we needed to go. Me him and Anothet friend, got in her car and drove to his car where I had my pookie and DMT. For those of you who do not know what a pook is, it is a glass pipe with a bulb at the end for smoking without direct flame contact. The DMT was pure stuff, clean clear crystals, not a taint to them it was beautiful. We got to the car and all got in. Then drove into the mountains to a spot we called sleepy hollow. We named it that's because it ran along the foothill of the mountains and trees over hanged the road looking like driving through a tunnel. At the end of the road there was a pull off up a hill on the right where we parked the car. It was away from view of cars if they came. I pulled the pookie and the DMT out and held it, my friends stared at me. I told my friend in the back to get out, I didn't want her in the car. She didn't want to get out so I ended up screaming at her in a almost demonish deep dark metal voice to get the fuck out of the car!! She probably pissed herself but left. I asked my other friend to leave also, he went willingly.
Now I'm sitting in this 2006 Nissan versa with a pook in my left hand and the Baggy of DMT in my right..I and looking at it trying to think how much I need to put in. I end up just dumping half the bag in, which was a lot, I had a gram of the stuff. I have the pipe full and lighter in hand starring at it for a few seconds,,do some deep slow breaths to expand my lungs.
I now have my lungs full to capacity of DMT, I don't even have time to put the pipe down. I don't remember exhaling.
Now imagine a feeling of every bodily fluid that your body can create, coming out of you at once. Piss,puke,shit,blood, tears, sweat Ect... You are being being smooshed and spun around in what feels like the inside of a throat with the muscles pulsating you around and not a inch of air between you and these smooshy muscle things. Visually geometric shapes and colors beyond what I have ever experience before. The feeling was probably the most awkward weird feeling imaginable times a lot more...and the more you try and fight it the more awkward and weird it gets until you finally give up and let go..
Once I let go, beneath me opened up and I starting falling in a endless black obis with no bottom. Out of nowhere while falling I see a little white box coming up from under me. It gets bigger and bigger as I get closer. I crash into this pure white radiating room where there is just my mind and the room, then a geometric tower looking thing comes up from the ground, it unfolds and opens up like a cabinet. Inside and all over it there are hooks with keys, hundreds and hundreds of white keys. I seem to know exactly which one I needed to grab because I walked right over picked one up and slid it into the slot at the top and turned. The key cabinet lowered back down and disappeared. The next thing I know I am in intercourse with this being, for what seems like eternity. Which in all reality there was no such thing as meaningless concepts of time and space, I was in a realm of infiniincy with no bownds. While having sex in eternity with this being, I had visions of my life...i was at a fork in my life with two different paths to take. One was to stay in the meth and continue along that path, and the other gave me visions of leaving the meth and taking this girl who I loved and hadn't been a part of my addiction, and go. Leave everything and everyone and leave. I watched both of these paths of my future and decided to leave the life I had been living and take the girl I love and go. As the visions disappeared I started to climax, I came and as soon as I did the white room poofed and I started falling in down the black obis again. Started to see a little spec in the far distance,,,that spec was the earth and I was zooming toward it. Fell straight back into my body and awoke.
I started out in the passenger seat and woke up with my head underneath the break pedal, my leg outside the window, my other leg and one arm twisting in and through the steering wheel and my voice making what sounded like groaning baby sounds before they can talk.