Hi again, Apoc. My apologies for misinterpreting your title post. I have recently done some insights myself, and realised some interesting points, and thought these words might be of use as they have been for me.....
The good news is that the pleasure you seek externally although brief, gives you a taste of the true happiness that is ALWAYS inside you. When you try and seek it out externally you only get brief glimpses, and this leads to more searching, and this can be addictive.
Seeking happiness through pleasure is a slippery path that is strewn with Wrecks and accidents. You are already complete and fulfilled but may at times forget this, so you have been searching it out externally, and have got lost on a path that takes you away from yourself where happiness resides, and into the dangerzone of conditional happiness ( i'll only be happy when i get this, that, etc).
I believe that we are divine beings existing on planet earth as human beings. We have defined our world through words such as yes and no, and attached labels such as good and bad, and made our world a tangiable one. We therefore have defined our own limits and freedoms. There is only NOW, nothing else. Your duty is therefore to respond fully to the moment. There are no problems, only situations. Because we are already Divine, there is no need to try and achieve anything, or better ourselves. The simplest life is therefore the best. Anything else means disconnection from our true nature, and suffering.
You are not a loser, because you can never lose your divine essence, however you can perhaps be distracted from it: That is because of your external seeking. I'm sure you realise that because you are a divine being who is already fulfilled and complete, that you do not need to seek anything out and simply need to just "be".
( I earlier made the mistake of mentioning self improvement as being something positive, but i now understand that when we "self improve", we are only doing so to try and seek our divine selves who are already complete, etc. So we are actually running away from ourselves to discover ourselves, leaving happiness to become unhappy to find happiness again!!...
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"Eat your vegetables and do as you're told, or you won't be going to the funfair!"