Life goes one way and it's all you.
Pretty mind bending thought if you ask me, that no matter what, it will go one way. Your life will be one line.
This is a bit of a side note but I must mention that sometimes I get this hunch that 'they' didn't know how it was going to go, how it was going to be, how it was going to turn out- but then 'they' get to see. Because we show them, it is happening to us
We are it! It's all us. It seems so obvious sometimes, and it's not enough just to read it but you must feel it as well, and then apply it to your own life. You are the observer, the one experiencing it, YOU are the projection. I completely have no doubt in my mind that some people truly are connected to some insects or alien, or feel they are possessed, or feel there's a dead black woman in side of them (holy shit that is extremely creepy i'm stoned), it is possible because YOU are it, and YOU are doing it, some of us are extremely powerful. --->I was going to say all of us but this is not true, there are levels, levels that exceed what your income is or your status. It's human strength level on some scale we haven't even delved into it- I would like to. And some of us are creepily on the exact same wave length. There are certain people on here who vibrate so close to my inner frequency that once again, I am sometimes left shivering in my bed on my laptop after reading some things. Laughing in awe with my eyes half shut, completely red, completely chinked out and so shaken at how any of this is possible. It really does seem like a cosmic joke. It's all so true, how connected we all are, in this interconnected web. It truly is a miracle. Something else i've been journaling about lately is how desperately I yearn to be amongst the souls similar to myself. Where with nothing but ourselves and the blending of our consciousness was type of miracles and wonder we can create amongst ourselves. Using our souls, our passion. But most of all to see what it means to look into the eyes of another person who is similar to me..
Some people think they're God, maybe they are it. There are so many nasty people who exist out there and most people on this forum strike me as compassionate, genuine, true - maybe Gods ARE amongst us. We don't know! There is always the classic debate of is all of this happening externally from us or is it just ourselves? and it does tend to get hostile. The ones who fire back with IT IS ALL YOU!!!!! - well doesn't that make you God then?? Hmmm... it's all so interesting.
The one's who know. Why is itt???? That only some experience the Godhead? It happened to me. And this is happening right now. I am writing this? For what purpose? I spend so much time on here browsing and reading. It would be funny to take a screen shot but I have 70 tabs strewn across the top of this internet page. X3 other windows with the same thing. It's all nexus. I have created a compilation called "The Beginning 3" and it's about 200 pages so far. It's all influenced from this. This process I endured when my mind opened and unlocked from marijuana. Then again with LSD. Then again with psilocybin. Leading me into the thing molecule that later found me.
This is perhaps going to sound strange but I feel as if I am it. And you guys too, the ones similar to us, I can pick people like you guys out so easily. It's a rare and important thing, I will be completely honest. I think I am onto something and have thoughts lately about cracking a code. Sometimes I think I could be crazy but then I realize something else - that first of all, crazy IS truth in a sense - At least closer to it. And second of all I feel these thoughts cracking into me when I am at my healthiest peak. I am always very healthy but when I am fasting or eating only clean foods, daily hourly yoga, hour plus walks, etcetc. This is why I consider them somewhat true, my intuition leads my towards that. Who knows, perhaps yes entirely delusional, but like I said, who who who knows? This life is a big struggle, I'm just trying to figure it out. It was kind of sad, on my second shroom trip which did not match the first at all - I kept quietly repeating to myself "I'm just trying to understand". I was on the beach alone and it became dark by now, I looked towards the city lights and thought about how much commotion and chaos is occurring down there and how I am so not a part of it....here I am, so alone just trying to understand. I've gone so off topic but I guess marijuana can do that to you can't it.
I experienced the divine using the mushroom back in June of this year and I have thought of the experience every single day since it has passed. That and a few other experiences have changed my life forever. It brought me home, it showed my things that defy explanation. I saw my version of the 'them'. Honestly, I think we each have our own representation, as 'THEY' can take on any form thats appropriate for you. Whatever you ARE. I was pretty shocked at how it was for me. I am Italian and it was literally a bearded man. And a woman holding a baby that had like a cape on her head, almost squiggling lines, saw him in carpets, manifesting from objects on the floor, she was in my vision open and closed eyes. I mean seriously? There were electrical shocks going up and down my legs, my arms and hands were pointing up in the air making these dramatic Walt Disney Movies movements. It looked like a cartoon but real. I Was the hUMAN! IT WAS ALL ME! it's US! They love us. Reading other peoples experiences similar to mine we are onto something.
The most dramatic thought I have lately that I keep writing on my journals, and papers, and whatever is sometime in front of me is "I am." It makes me shudder no matter how simple it may seem. Even sober I can be left completely flabbergasted about being alive - and in the raw presnt moment.
I am going to post this now, maybe I will get a response that would make me so so so happy. Also having a full membership would make me so happy. Please excuse the english and grammar I do my best with how I can. I want to contribute. I love you guys so much, and think about you guys all the time.