From the start I want to say that I'll try to get into the details in chronological order, but at one point I'll lose count and at the end I'll start to write my thoughts at random, just how they enter my mind.

I'm not getting into details as from where I got the DMT because it just doesn't matter, so here it goes.

My experience I have to say it very different from the rest of the world, because it did not happened as I expected or as other peoples did.

I as very nervous and i decided to relax a bit in my bed and meditate on the experience that will about to happen. My heart was pumping at an alarm rate but I managed to keep calm, so after a while I started to prepare.

I prepared the DMT in a 2L plastic bottle which I cutted the bottom and wrapped a sheet of tinfoil with the DMT in the middle and pinch a small hole near the bottle cap so that the air can get through, that’s where I inhaled the cloud also.

So I burned the bottom and in a few seconds the bottle was filled with white cloud, I inhaled all of it in one go, then relaxed on a pillow.

In just a few seconds the first symptoms started to appear, the background noise in my room, from the fridge and from my PC were fading away, all I could hear was a kind of buzzing that was all over my head.

My whole body was started to vibrate, especially my head and in particular my face. I was feeling like in a roller coaster, everything started spinning, my body became light and I got the impression that I was floating.

I appeared in a very big room with walls that had a texture filled with geometric patterns that were constantly changing and morphing, but those geometric patterns were very tiny so I couldn't distinguish very much of them. I got the feeling that I was on a stretcher and moved from one room to another.

I didn't see any entities of some kind of objects or anything like that, I just was in “that place” otherwise I can not explain.

Here it gets extremely complicated to explain “that place”, the only method that I can give a signification to it, is I was just that I was there in my mind, simple as that.

I was expecting to meet entities and to communicate to someone but the only one was in fact me, my thoughts of my higher being I should say.

Suddenly the visions stopped morphing, but moved slightly and I was hearing voices, my voices, different thoughts, laughter, small talk, that seemed all a joke. In fact I was entering my mind and here its getting very complicated to explain.

I was getting the feeling that this whole life experience is me, build by my thoughts, that I couldn't die, there was no point to it. I was asking myself, what if I were to kill myself, that thought was not possible in “that place”, I guess my ego couldn't make sense of it but then again I was ego less.

To put this simply, that place was me and there was from the beginning, the life I knew as a lie and kept saying: now I understand. I felt that I was GOD, I created this world, this life, everyone I knew was in fact me but in different circumstances and different versions.

I thought that I’ll get some answers in there, but I couldn't because I knew them all in that state, everything was me, my creation, I am immortal. But I kept asking..what will happen if I die, I will be in “that place” forever ? This thought is scaring me big time, because I don’t want to end up alone with just my thoughts.

I guess in the normal state of consciousness, my brain does not have the capacity to understand the truth, just in the state of DMT you can understand it.

Experts say that you have to take 3 hits to break through but in my case one big toke was enough to get to “that place” and it is funny because once I get to “that place” there is no need for extra hit, it just didn't mattered, it seemed pointless.

And I know this is true from past experience with mushrooms, very big dose (7 big ones, fresh and very potent) which lasted 5-6 hours. Same thing, I was stuck in “that place” which seemed like an eternity. After comedown from them I didn't knew who I was, all my memories faded away, If my girlfriend wasn't around I wanted to jump out the balcony, I was lost….

Another very odd thing while I was on mushrooms, especially at comedown, my girlfriend was trying to feed me, she was stuffing food in my mouth, but it just felt weird for me, it didn't’ make sense, it was not natural. I was seeing her in still frames just like you pause a video, and felt almost above my body and my vision was just like in lucid dreams or OBE’s (which I have them regularly). Anyway after lots of sleep and rest I was back to normal, my ego started to take its place back in my mind.

As a kid I was asking myself, who I am, why I experience this life only through my eyes, what is the point to life and I was hoping to get answers from DMT but I was very wrong. I think nobody can help me and again this thought is very scary to me but I have no choice but to continue my life and hope when I die that I can get some answers.

I know that what I see, taste, touch, feel, all the emotions are just an illusion, nothing is real, I know this for a fact. Till my body is alive I’m stuck in it and can’t do anything about only to wait, my ego loves this life and I respect that.

This question will haunt me to my entire life, there is no escape.

I will try salvia next, because I’m done with DMT, no answers there.

Till next time !

Sup el3ctr1c4l.

I think i know exactley what your are saying or what you have expirienced. My expiriences where different in many ways and that is only natural but at the same time exactley the same (i think - judging from words and descriptions you used) as yours as in what was ˝final˝ understanding. I realize little by little with each trip that perhaps what we really are is not only stranger than strange but insanley beautifull, ugly, spectacular, boring, outhere, inhere, everything, nothing, everywhere and nowhere...and dont forget the inherit eternal loneliness that i expirience in that state of ˝mind˝ and ˝realm˝.

How do you/we/it deal with that???

We create game caled life???

Makes sense to me.

Here we are not alone anymore. We can be ignorant about our real ˝identity˝ and ˝existence˝. Here we can ˝die˝ and be ˝born˝. Live everything like its brand new again.

Being eternal, omniscient and lonley is so painful, depressing and boring...mere human language cant even begin to describe how and what this is.

Looking at this from my human perspective it is so tragic and at the same time i am so greatfull for this miracle illusion of life...

love you all

There is only Brahma.

I have felt this exact feeling before. It was on was on my first dose of mushrooms back when I was around 16. I lost touch with this reality and came to the conclusion that the entire world has been me all along. Every experience I have ever had was just me. Like it was all in my head.

This leads me to believe that we are all part of a universal consciousness. We experience ourselves as individuals, but it might just be an illusion.



Makes sense to me as well. I think that we are all travelers on our way to figure this whole thing out. Little by little we find answers and clues to lead us in the right direction. I for one feel like I have been doing this for many lifetimes, but I am just recently headed down the right path.

Travel Well

So I'm not the only one Brings warmth to my heart hearing that, I thought I was going crazy.

I feel you man, I feel the same way about life, especially at the end of your post. I often get pissed of being stuck in this body and want to leave it. I don't like being limited by my senses, like you said, the reality we perceive is not the real one of course, because our senses filter the real one out. Consider yourself lucky to be able to get out of body experiences frequently I've been trying without success. If I could make one suggestion humbly I would suggest not mixing DMT with any other drugs IMO.

Re: feeling as though you are God.

Quantum Mechanics has proven that reality is entirely subjective. The difficulty in comprehending this, for most, appears to be the illusion that each of us are separate.

By it's very definition, the Universe (or God) is all that is, and everything that is in it, is part of it.

When taking DMT we are removed from the "self". What is the self? The self before these experiences is the ego. But we are unaware of how deeply imprinted the ego is. Removing the "self" from the physical self, allows the consciousness to connect to something beyond the sensations and beyond the ego. We call this the universal consciousness or "The Ultimate Truth." Once we go beyond the ego, we come to a state of growing conscious awareness and move through Dimensions of consciousness at stages. With each stage comes growing awareness, compassion and a closer step to enlightenment. However, with this growing conscious awareness, it takes the body and conscious mind some time to evolve.

As psychedelic users, we enter such heightened states of consciousness without the correct proceeds. I will use meditation as an example. Through meditation, we can actively grow and expand our consciousness by learning to control our thoughts, and once we completely come to a focus, we begin to see and experience similar things to that of an OBE or DMT trip, which allows the expansion of consciousness. however, this takes a lot of time and effort, and so our body and mind are progressively evolving with your own evolving state of consciousness. BUT what if the psychedelic experience takes you into a 6th dimensional state of consciousness, when you as a physical body and mind, are still only evolved into a 3rd dimensional being? Then you come back, with a 6th dimensional state of conscious awareness, but are "trapped" in a 3rd dimensional being. As a result, the body and mind need to evolve deeper into states of consciousness and become more readily prepared. Thus we cannot maintain the egoless state, as we are not evolved enough physically and mentally, to maintain it. With the evolving body, and a deteriorating conscious mind, we show symptoms similar to those i have read in this post. We feel sad, suicidal and have uncontrollable thoughts. IMO, i believe it is our ego attempting to fight back. To bring us back down into the 3rd dimensions of consciousness, and our physical body and mind attempting to evolve at a far too increased pace

. I dunno, i just got on a rant. But, i suffer from depression, and i just feel that after the DMT experience, i am left questioning and depressed. But when i begin to accept the experience and control my thoughts, that is when the true lessons are learned.

Have you watched what the blep to we know?

I forgot to mention, on my mushrooms and DMT trips I've seen many of these faces witch is very strange. Have anyone seen them also ?

I found that small doses of weed helps me remember the DMT trip much better. Anyone experiences this ?

I also found out that I no longer enjoy weed like I use to, now it puts me in that DMT frame of mind, like I am one with everything.

I also see these kinds of faces with DMT and I guess everything that I see with DMT is so exaggerated visually and emotionally like these faces or clowns.If something is beauty,ugly,angry,happy,sexy in hyperspace, seems like it has to be the most whatever it is to me.

I usually smoke DMT with weed but I didn't realize if it helps to remember.And there are not much similarities with DMT state and weed state for me.I always love to smoke good quality weed and I guess I'll always love but I see the weed in a different class since I ever tried psychedelics.I only smoke weed for joy and bliss thereafter and definitely don't try to breakthrough with weed anymore,there are other things for that.

Indeed, realism is dead.
http://www.newscientist....cle/dn20600#.UzP30RL4Lc1
http://physicsworld.com/...-says-goodbye-to-reality

perhaps your quest for answers has you missing the experience? Maybe thats your answer?

There are no answers, is my view.

Seeking answers is a very 2d linear path to go down. Any answer you get just creates more questions. There is only experiences. When you move into 3d and 4d spaces "answers" become something else entirley.

This is me EXACTLY. Weed helps me remember SO much of my trip. Slows it down a lot.

I also don't enjoy weed anymore really. I used to try to stay baked as long as I was awake.

Now weed just feels... weak. DMT and Mushrooms did this to weed. Mushrooms mostly.

I pretty much ONLY smoke weed when I do shrooms/dmt.


Also to the OP - be careful with Salvia. It has a force behind it that can move you or control your body. I'd do it with a trip sitter. I can eat 10 grams of Golden Teacher, with newpept, weed, a bottle of robotussin, and a bottle or orange juice and be fine. Maybe just suffer from extreme thought loops.

But Salvia is a COMPLETELY different psychedelic from DMT and mushies. I've never had DMT or Mushies make me do something I didn't want to or make me lose complete control.

The guardian is narasimha, I have been told, by a friend of Indian heritage. I have seen that face very often!

I guess you are right, I was seeking answers but all I got was complete terror.
Next time I'll just to go with the flow and try not to think to deeply, or not at all.

I think DMT has much to do with lucid dreaming and OBEs, I've had them frequently after a DMT trip, I guess it disrupts the serotonin in the brain or something. Also right before the lucid dream starts and I became conscious, I seem to flow though a tunnel, similar to what I've experience with that large dose of shrooms.