Firstly, I would like to express my gratitude and appreciation to everyone positively contributing to the nexus, I have learned a good amount over the last few months. If information holds high value in the gift economy, then the nexus is where the rich come to share their wealth.

So, an introductory introduction from my trip journal.

Foreverness
is found in the place I least expected it, in a release of a breath
full of everything & nothing.

Just had everything blown, if ever there was an Everest of a hit, it feels like I just climbed up it, took it in one go and jumped off into the unknown with only a parachute of love in case the ride got bumpy.

Details cascade
into feelings,
feelings cascade
into being,

and when being becomes a full spectrum of energy, of colours, of vibrational power, it seems I have arrived, but yet it feels more like a return. A passing thought comes and goes in the minutest fragment of time,
will I ever return?
To where?
The question no longer exists as the I just exploded into an unknown language of shapes and colour.
Enter.....bliss
But bliss sells it short, it's way more than just a feeling, or even a state of being.
Bliss, Love, Beauty, all wrapped into one orgasmic energy bouncy ball that moves swiftly from the crown jewel castle and bursts out the top of my head leaving the I non existent.
What follows is everything and nothing, total non duality, pure consciousness, the kind of 10 minutes that has a bigger impact than the past 10 years. ( no doubt many of you can somewhat relate, maybe? So I will save further diary dribble)

Then, after an unknown time you return to see your body...

But you are not it.

It is only an image appearing from pure consciousness!

An equal image...

The dude sat crossed legged

The pillow

The lighter

all are one and the same.

More time passes, who knows how long and then finally, the return of the I.


I am sitting

I am hearing music and no longer AM music, and so on, seemingly

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Into what I'm going to call base ignorance, from where I currently write.

And then a massive laugh and a grabbing of my hand over my mouth as if to contain a secret of the universe.

Giggles of astonishment, followed by yawns. An oxygen deprived brain maybe?

Final thoughts:

Happy to have gotten to the bottom of the rabbit hole and discovered a map for the potential true whereabouts of the true rabbit hole!? / Fuck me.

The return to life, will be before death, through courages exploration.