After a few months of holding on to four doses of 35 mg each of dmt, i decided to dive in today.

I woke up early this morning and after stopping to visit with my grandmother i went to the house, picked up my oil burner and one dose of DMT and decided to head to the park.

The day was warm, and slightly muggy, but other than that it was vejury nice outside. The park i chose wasnt very secluded, being only about 2 minutes from my house, but it was pretty much devoid of people, and it is a location i am very comfortable with, so it seemed as good as any. Apart from the supplies needed for the journey i also grabbed a small hand drum, two bottles of water and a bag of popcorn, just in case

It was about 9:00 am when i arrived at the park. I stepped from my truch and decided to leave my cell phone in the glove compartment to avoid any unwanted calls. I made my way into the middle of the park and found a nice pine tree with plenty of shade to plop myself under. I closed my eyes and practiced some deep breathing and meditation for about 30 min, until i found myself in a complete state of contentment. I opened my eyes and produced the L shaped oil burner from my pocket, the 35 mg dose already loaded.

Before i get started let me say this. I take medication daily for parinoid schizophrenia, 200mg seroquel once a day before bed. I have been taking this medication for about a year and a half now. I fully understood/understand the danger tryps (especially one like DMT)can have on a fragile mental state, and i took this into deep consideration before partaking in this substance. I also take Kratom on a regular basis for mood enhancment and the energy push i recieve from it. I abstained from these two substances (the only things i take on a regular basis)for three days prior to this experiment.

ok, back to the meaty beaty big and bouncy part....

I looked around the park, to see if there were any people out for a stroll, and there were. A lady and her dog walked about 100 yards passed me. I closed my eyes and began the breathing technique again for around ten minutes until she was out of site. I also noticed some construction equiptment in the forground, but dimissed it.I lookd at the oil burner and the small yellow pile sitting in it and decided i would melt the DMT a litle in the oil burner and coat the ball with the liquid so as to make burning it easier, and so as not too worry so much about sucking in a big ball of that hot yellow fluid. It had been years since ive used an oil burner, and was a little rusty, i have to admit. The DMT liquified in almost an instant after putting the flame to the ball. I twirled my pipe a little and waited a minute. The oil burner was now covered in a almost clear film, with just a little bit of a brown showing through. I held the lighter to the ball until it filled with a dense cloud of billowing smoke and then inhaled slowly, but deeply. As i exhaled, i was aware of the feeling that my body had dropped aboutafoot down into the ground, and the mushrooms that dotted the landscape all seemed to be connected in some strange geometric pattern that was not visible with my eyes, but i was still somehow seeing it. I began heating the ball again, this time with noticible difficulty. As i was heating the ball the second time, the possibiliy that i had just smoked a universe entered my mind, and as it did, i was sure i could see the life i was heating in my oil burner billowing around in the smoke. Not sure how else to describe it. I giggled to myself at this and took another slow deep inhale. I felt myself drop another foot into the ground, and i had this strange sense that a garden gnome statue had somehow inhabbited my body. I looked out across the park and it seemed like the grass went on for infinity. There was no sign of the playground, or the construction equiptment, only an endless field in front of me. I felt a huge grin streak across my face as i noticed the colored lines flashing through my field of vision. At that moment i suddenley realized i had yet to exhale, and for a second i was in disbelief that i had held my breath for what seemed like an hour. As i exhaled this second hit the coughing began. My chest felt like it exploded as i dispelled the smoke from my lungs, but in a pleasant way. My head was spinning, and the roots and pine needles under me looked as if they were placed there, just for me, in preperation of my experience. My gag reflex kicked in and i chocked a little on my cough. I could sense the mycelium growing under thr ground where i was sitting and almost felt as if the mushrooms were spreading out under me to see what was going. In between coughs i would get these waves of serentiy, peace, relaxation, joy through my body and then ....COUGH COUGH! My vision was blurred by the tears in my eyes from coughing, but i couldnt remeber what i should do about it. I closed my eyes. The closed eye visuals were predominaltey blue and pink, and consisted of lines intersecting with eachother in spider web type patterns. And with one more cough it was over. I was suddenly aware that i was no longer 2 feet in the ground, and the playground was in full view right in front of me. I was still overcome by a feeling of total elation, and this persisted for a another good 30 minutes. I stood up during this part of the experience and glanced around. Everything seemed to be exactally where it should be, even when it was out of place. Even the construction equiptment had taken on a very natural ambience. I was still coughing when ever i would breath deep, and to me this seemed to be the only real negative to the experience, but one that could be attributed to the years of abuse i have done to my lungs and not to the substance at hand. The remainder of the day was absolutley relaxing and was spent with family. It occured to me several times through out the afternoon that these residual effects were more effective in easing deppression and annxiety without causing intoxication than most of the medications i had tried.

This was a most pleasant experience and one that will be repeated many times i'm sure. In retrospect, i may have not "broke through", but to be honest, i didnt really care to my first time. I began with a somwhat diminished dose for this specific reason, to test the waters a bit. I must say that now ive gotten my feet wet, i'm deffinatley ready to dive right in next time.

Thanks for reading my first experience with smoked DMT. there will be more to come

The subject came from a song that ran through my mind on the drive home....ashes to ashes by bowie

Sounds like it would have been pure magic without the cough. Can't wait to hear how your future endeavors go.

That sounds awesome, friend, but you do know that song is about Bowie's struggle with gaining independence from cocaine, and heroin.
That's the valuable friend he's "stuck with".
That whole Scary Monsters album chronicles his journey out of addiction, one of my fave albums by a gave musician.

Sounds like a really great experience! I hope to do go for a breakthrough dose while on a hike here sometime soon.

I'll be taking a vacation out to Sedona, AZ in about a month or so. I think that's probably a good place to give it a go.

Looking forward to reading your future reports! If I could make any suggestion, it might be to break up the experience into a couple of paragraphs. The large block of text made it just a little more difficult to read/keep my place.

I'm not saying it isn't safe (this is a genuine question), but is it regarded as safe/best practice to smoke DMT on one's own? My impression was that it was best to have a sitter... In fact it seemed to me (subjective, obv) potentially quite dangerous to not have a sitter.

Did I get the wrong impression?

I prefer to smoke it alone. I feel completely safe doing it alone. Salvia on the other hand is something that I would always recommend a sitter for because of the unconscious motions one can have under its spell.

yeah, i knew what the song was about, but the line just seemed so fitting in the car ride home. and yes, scary monsters=awesome.

thanks for the advice LaoTzu, i will make sure i maike good use of it on future reports.

I'm pretty experienced on tripping alone, and have ussually found i prefer it most times. I made sure i was in a pretty safe location, even if i did happen to "flip out". Not saying this is the safest thing to do, but just something i've grown accustomed to.