It's been a year since my first DMT experience and not a day has gone by where I don't think back on it. To say it's had an immense impact on my life would be an understatement. It was incredibly confusing, scary, traumatising, yet at the same time the most amazing and infinitely fascinating thing I've ever experienced.

I took 50mg whilst in an extremely nervous mindset and it really sent me over the top; I could just barely keep myself from panicking. In case anyone's interested, here's the trip report I wrote a few days after:

https://www.dmt-nexus.me...spx?g=posts&m=411788

Naturally, I want to revisit this realm and have been preparing myself for a second trip for a year now. The fear is still there, however. I know this comes naturally and is all part of the experience but I feel like going into the trip whilst nervous is just gonna amplify the negative emotions. This is all pre-flight anxiety, I'm at a good point in my life just like I was the first time, in a good setting with people I trust and care about.

I guess where I'm going with this is that I could definitely use some advice on how to prepare for a second trip after a traumatic first one. In hindsight, 50mg was way too much for a first time and I plan to drastically cut the dosage. I have a very active third eye naturally and 50mg just sent it into overdrive. I tried meditation the first time but it did nothing to ease my anxiety as that feeling of inevitability that came from knowing I'm not gonna back out no matter what was just too overpowering.

So yeah, tips, advice, ways of thinking... It's all welcome. I imagine that from the general tone of this post it might sound like I shouldn't go back for a second time or perhaps am viewing this situation in an irresponsible manner, but that's absolutely not the case. There's a reason why I've waited for a year to even consider trying it again; it's beaten me into submission and gained the respect it demands tenfold. I'm dead set on a second attempt, be it sooner or later.

Thanks in advance everybody.

I'm also very interested in your views on alcohol. From what I've read, everyone recommends against it but there's not much to calm the nerves like a good glass of wine. Naturally I'd leave it at that and not get shitfaced drunk. Surely one glass can't impact such a powerful trip too much, and if it helps with the anxiety then it's gotta be worth it?