So I have recently broke my two and half years of soberness. Here it is..
I have had some salvia leaf for a long time now... I decided to lock it up in a box... and wait... I waited for six months until I got that calling deep inside my head that you all know very well about...
Before I get into it... here is some good vibes to listen to while you read my story...
http://www.listenonrepeat.com/watch/?v=gVRDJC7_R8ESo I got the calling... some sort of outer inner dimensional thirst to destroy reality...
So I went and got the salvia leaf and headed into my garage...
It was around three to four am in the morning... The only lighting was the street light ahead of me some 100 feet and the light in my garage... I left the garage door wide open to allow the morning nature sounds to come in...
This time was very different... There was no fear of what was going to happen... I loaded the pipe up and began to smoke very casually...
As I smoked... It was beautiful sight to behold... My garage and all the objects I could see and feel around me start to morph slowly and transform into something else... Slowly taking shape into something else to the point where before I could even realize it... I was no longer in my garage...
I was in some sort of huge Tee pee... maybe 35 feet tall and some 40 feet wide... I am only guessing... there were these geometric, abstract stories on the walls that were telling tales while the experience was happening... I cant even describe those...
I was looking around... lost in these stories when I heard a loud cough... What I then put my attention on did not scare me... It was those who I have described before in other experiences... The alien African jungle men...
Keep in mind these guys are approximately ten feet tall... They are huge even while they were siting down Indian style in front of me... They wore these amazing color red robes... They were smoking out of a pipe...
I was not afraid... I have met them before... I knew them... I said hello to them... The trip took a sudden dark turn but very enlightening...
They looked at me with a smile while coughing and said to me all together at the same time...
Ha...ha...ha... Mike.... take a look at this...
The one in the middle took a huge inhale of his pipe and blew these being out of his mouth in front of me...
There was no fear at this point... But I began to become afraid when this being blew into my face...
It was very dark... It was a mix of the colors red,black,brown,and purple... I remebe really staring at the center of the being...
It looked like its heart... It was very dark... it was eating itself... There were all these gruesome images morphing in it... I can remember one being some sort of lizard creature with spikes eating a human being... There were these veins in to moving this black dirt like liquid around and about the being...
At first I thought it was something foreign... but I began to look deeper into the heart of this beast... I began to realize that this was a reflection of me... A projection of everything I hate and feel sorry for and just the hopelessness that is at the core of my being...
The being quickly vanished like smoke... and ill always remember this...
As everything was beginning to fall apart back to reality... the middle one said to me...
Mike... Your world is burning... So smile...
I quickly came back and was listening to a song and the lyrics really reminded me and slammed into my heart about this experience. It is a song by modest mouse and the lines go...
Everyone's a building burning
With no one to put the fire out.
Standing at the window looking out,
Waiting for time to burn us down.
So smile nexus... smile and smile and dance...