I want to share my most recent experience with the Spirit Molecule, and the profound effect it has had on me.

After cleaning up my apartment, I set about preparing the chill-room. Lights were dimmed and incense was lit, then music was put on. Pink Floyd's "Echoes" would be the mood. This trip would be the most rewarding one I've ever experienced, thanks mostly to the music.

Just some quick background: I was in quite a slump emotionally - my depression had re-emerged, just as it always does. It usually lasts for the better half of a year. I'd destroyed a relationships with a close girl who I really liked, money was low, people, family... As an unemployed and a starving college student, I had even lost all enthusiasm for studying, and my grades were going to shit (I should say "are", since there's only a month left of class and there's not much that can be done at this point). Needless to say, a lot of things were weighing heavy in my mind.

I loaded ~60mg of DMT between layers of blue lotus petals, and went about consuming the mix. This trip seemed to be more introspective, as the visuals, while amazing, were the weakest I'd experience with the spice thus far. Just as the vocals emerged in "Echoes", I was sent into hyperspace. Nothing made any sense, and I was absorbed into an infinite sea of geometric patterns of red and gold and green. I opened my eyes to see that my room was transformed into patterns of moving shapes, and directly across from me was an entity projecting from some distant wall. Its presence was clearly feminine, though it had no set shape. It was with this entity that I discussed my life.

We talked about why things were the way they were, and what I'd have to do to change. I talked about how I can't form personal relationship with people, and how I can't bring myself to be social enough to do anything about it. She explained to me how I'm not dependent on anyone anymore, and only I had the power to change my life - no one would offer me the chance to change things. This was especially true because I moved away from my family and friends, but the impact of that fact hadn't really affected me yet. Hearing it from third person really made the situation solid, but this didn't bother me at the time because of how profound that realization was.

When I came out of the color void, the whale songs in "Echoes" were just ending. All the visuals I experienced during the trip were gone, but I was still carrying on the conversation internally. I couldn't feel any emotions, which helped because my thoughts were crystal clear. I could feel the effects wearing off just as the song was climaxing towards the second set of vocals (in my opinion, this is one of the most profoundly beautiful musical ideas ever expressed). I felt sad about that, but at the same time the internal character stressed that I was the same person coming out of the DMT void as I was coming into it, and any realizations made during the trip were just as true after the fact. Just as the vocals came back in, I felt a rush of energy through my body - this was one of the most profoundly happy moments of my life. The timing with the music could not have been more perfect.

After the song was over, I got up and felt totally enlightened in a way I haven't felt in years. My mind felt so clear I didn't know what to make of it. I wanted to go out and be with people - this is something totally opposite my personality. I wanted to crack open my microbiology textbooks and read them again. I wanted to see my family and friends, not because I was sad or lonely or necessarily longing for them, but because I loved them so much.

One of the things I realized during the trip was that I am overweight. It didn't really bother me until the trip, when I realized one of my problems was my self-conscienceness stemming from that fact. Since then I've found the enthusiasm to start working out again. I've also become more social and open with people. Since then I've made new friends - people who I'm certain I would have never even spoken to if I hadn't had the experience. I've also found the motivation to start studying again. I've even picked up my violin for the first time in months, and found the music that came out of it ravishing; I've decided to keep it up and return to my former musical status. (Ysaye, watch yourself... here I come again!)

I can say certainly that the depression I had fallen into is totally gone thanks to the Spirit Molecule. How long it will last, I have no idea, but I haven't felt this happy to be simply alive in a while, and this is weeks after the fact. I believe the chemical to be a potent antidepressant and therapeutic medicine, especially if one is in the right state of mind. Not to mention the fact that DMT is easily made in the home, costs next to nothing, and completely without side effects or threat of death from overdosing if one is intelligent and/or responsible.

Honestly, one of the things that interested me to the spice in the first place was its purported antidepressant properties, but after trying it a few times and only experiencing interesting visuals, I'd lost hope of it helping my mental health. Today I'm a different man. Today I'm alive. And I have this community to thank, aside, of course, from the Spirit Molecule itself.

Thanks to everyone who helps make this site such a haven for learners and teachers of the magic spice.

Right on, man. That's awesome. Be true to your revelations.

Good shit brotha welcome back!

indeed...welcome

That's great news!

It cured SWIM too, 5 months ago, and he's still going strong. He started slipping back into negativity and lethargy at one point recently, after having not smoked any for a month, so blasted off and was back on a positive, motivated path again after that.

He uses it that way- if he ever feel shimself slipping into a bad mindset, he has a session. These sessions are becoming increasingly infrequent and he suspects that eventually he won't need them at all.

SWIM wonders if it might be that his problem is that he gets bored easily, he was made to be an adventurer not a drone. And of course you realise what you're doing wrong. Strangely, it doesn't seem to work for some people. It would be great if there could be clinical trials to test why it works for some and not others- perhaps it's the reason for your depression that dictates whether it'll work or not?

I also think that echoes is one of the best musical compositions of all time. Nice report

That's likely the case. There are a number of chemical and protein abnormalities that have associated with depression, and there is no known single cause, though it's probably a problem with building certain classes of neurotransmitter receptors. That being the case, I recently found this article posted in the forums. If only our politicians would pull their heads out of their asses, they'd realize the valid medicinal potential and remove DMT from schedule 1 so that it can be broadly available for research. It's a damned shame.

Thanks, everyone, for your replies. This community is so amazing, it's beyond words.

Thankyou for sharing Nzym, Im so glad to hear all the beautiful effects which the spirit molecule can bestow being experienced fully. Your post is a beacon to others who may be in a dark place.

May the light of love guide us all.

After SWIM's first time with the spice, the experience and ASTOUNDING afterglow made an already positive soul reach even 'higher'... I'm incredibly glad to hear that you were able to use such feeling to better your life, presently and [presumably] in the future.

What us swimmers have here is an incredible tool to be used in our unique way to benefit us beyond our wildest dreams. Happy to hear another soul tap into it... as always... respect!!

Great post... I competely relate to your story.

Hey Nzym me too ! ... since Nov 2005, I've been 'cured' !... at age 39 and 11 months ... I retired from the rat race, and I followed my heart that was just filled with the revelations of dmt !

Like Jesus, Buddah and so many have said, thankfully there are just a few simple Universal Principles to live by so you can affirm the Truth, and stay 'cured' - make up your own catch-phrase to make it more conscious, every moment - try it .

Easy notions like;

If it doesn't promote health and happiness, don't do it.

make/give more Love, make/give more life (too all species), and look out for the little ones (all species...) This is the ONLY meta-reason we are here ... bearing life to make more life, to evolve more life

You are what you eat and what you throw away ... food and thought are 'fodder' for the soul to chew on - so eat-high-Chi foods and turn off the TV !

'reap just what your sow' so make it only seeds of happiness that spill from your heart.

Have a Beingasm today !
Dmt is Poly-strippa for the ego - a paint-remover of an anti-depressant !... so we can all find the miracles of just Being ! And dmt shows us so many 'lessons' from so many life times, how could we do anything useful with our miraculous-selves if we didn't have a tool like dmt !..!? A key for enlightenment !...