ichisan wrote:I have now enjoyed the spice 4 times. I have a problem. I keep going to the same place. I went to a place and I can feel that "something" wants me to go back there. I am really wanting to explore. I have found that even at low dosages I immediately feel "there" and am drawn to it. It feels like being in the presence of god. I need to break the chain.
Perhaps you have something to learn "there" which you haven't yet. For me, being in the presence of god/nature is one of the ultimate places to be in DMT space, and happens to me rarely. If you keep going back to god/nature, ask it if you can do anything for him/her/it, if it has something to show/share with you, or any other question.
DMT is a conduit, to your subconscious and/or some other plane of existence. It is all subjective, learn and take what you can from the experience, keep that which resonates in your heart.
What, you ask, was the beginning of it all?
And it is this...
Existence that multiplied itself
For sheer delight of being
And plunged into numberless trillions of forms
So that it might
Find
Itself
Innumerably.
-Sri Aubobindo
Saidin is a fictional character, and only exists in the collective unconscious. Therefore, we both do and do not exist. Everything is made up as we go along, and none of it is real.