feel free to read this but honestly its not worth it. I was uneducated about the substance and treated it like any other recreational drug.
About 2 months back I got my hands on some pure dmt. The only psychedelic experience I had ever had prior was about 1.5g of mushrooms so I had no idea what I was getting myself into
. I had a normal day and nothing was bothering me so I decided it was time to try dmt. I didn't have a scale so I sandwiched a tiny amount in some cannabis (I was aware of how potent it is) and then relaxed a bit until I felt that I was ready. I took the biggest hit I could so none would be wasted. around 20 seconds in my room was instantly filled with smoke or what looked like fog. Everything in my room was alive and moving, I felt my chair trying to jump out from under me. This at first startled me but I wasn't scared, it just took me by surprise. I tried closing my eyes and got NO visuals at all. So I just sat and observed my surroundings sway back and forth until the trip was over. I wasn't disappointed but it wasn't exactly what I was expecting.
About a week later I decided I would try smoking a higher dose than I had earlier. So the same routine happened again, normal day, relaxing before hand, except this time I LOADED the bowl until I couldn't see any cannabis under the yellowish crystals. So I took a huge hit, except this time something felt different. I want even able to count to 6 before I didn't know who I was anymore. I didn't know where I was. when I had taken the hit I was sitting on my floor but somehow I had turned my lights off and gotten in bed. It was the oddest feeling I had ever felt. I wasnt myself anymore I felt as if I was just energy, my body didnt exist yet I was still laying in my bed (it was moving like a wave) in my room (it was warping around). Then I heard music. No words can describe the music I heard. On this trip I barely got any visual hallucinations, it was more hallucinations in my soul / body. I felt as if beings were examining me and prodding me with instruments. It didnt hurt but I knew it was happening. By now I had figured out who I was and where I was (also i remembered I had smoked dmt). I just layed in my bed trying to figure out what had just happened.
I cant say it was horrifying or amazing. I have a mixed opinion and I dont know why it kicked my ass like that. At the time it was a pretty scary experience but I know it happened for a reason. I probably shouldnt have gotten up and turned my lights off.
I still cant even fully describe the feeling of not being anymore. I was alive but not existing at the same time.