REPORT

PRE-CONDITIONS
(mind)Set: Anxious (as is usually the case before I dive in)
(physical condition) Set: Slightly elevated heart rate but otherwise healthy
Setting (location): Living room
time of day: 19:00
recent drug use: none
last meal: 13:00 - cannot recall meal type but probably a lite lunch

PARTICIPANT
Gender: m
body weight: 68kg
known sensitivities: none
history of use: at the time, 2nd attempt

BIOASSAY
Substance(s): DMT (yellow)
Dose(s): about 40 mg
Method of administration: freebase


EFFECTS
Administration time: T=0:10
Duration: 15 minutes
First effects:
Peak: immediate peak
Come down: 15 minutes
Baseline:

Intensity (overall): 4
Evaluation / notes:

OPTIONAL
Pleasantness: 4
Unplesantness: 0
Visual Intensity: 4
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AFTER-EFFECTS
Hangover: 0
Afterglow: 3 - everything around me was perceived as brighter for a few days

2002, East Village Manhattan: My second experience with the spice

My first experience was quite terrifying. I had no idea what to expect. I was given a blind taste test if you will. Months later, I mustered up the courage to go in again. This time I had hopes that I would travel beyond the DMT room I had been stuck in during my first experience. My room mate, too was anxious and it did not help that we were all at the edge of our seats.

I went first. After my second breath, I shot back into the same DMT room. I remember thinking, "well... here I am again, what now?" As the effects gripped my mind with immediacy, a massive entity appeared to me. She looked like a crystalline humanoid/insectoid praying mantis with multiple arms. Although space is irrelevant, she was big enough to pick me up and carry me in her arms like a child.

At that moment, I felt absolutely and completely safe surrounded by the most pure LOVE I could ever feel. My first thoughts were "Kali?" She did not answer, but her absolute universal love and warmth glowed into the depths of all that I am. As she carried me from the room, I felt the sensation of floating safely through hyperspace. During our voyage, she invited her "children" to come to me. There were dozens of little versions of the Mother, about my size or smaller floating near me. They were excited to see me and each one took turns looking into my eyes and touching my chest, face and arms. Each time I was touched, I felt intense LOVE and warmth that made me feel that everything has, is and will ALWAYS be fine.

Soon after, the giggling insectoid children stopped touching me and flew downwards into a massive crystalline dome-like structure. I felt it was some sort of palace. Surrounding the palace was a cosmic garden as far as the eye could see. Her children, hundreds of them, were playing in their garden, examining each fractal leaf as they did to me, their attention manifesting the pulsing garden from nothingness. I looked around and the colors of the garden were vibrant. Emerald greens, purples, reds and what seemed to be a blue sky covering it all! The walls of the palace were otherworldly to say the least. The walls were made of a diamond structure with light blue and pink tinges of color reflecting and ever changing in fractal awareness.

The Mother gently caressed me and lay me down on a bed she had prepared for me. It was a very comfortable bed, warm and loving. Some of her children came to where I was lying. They seemed very curious and very happy to see me. They made gestures with their hands that invoked absolute calm in me, love and warmth permeating everything around through me. It was made known to me that I/WE ARE connected to all that is.

The Mother came to me, whispered that it was time to go back to where I came from. She gently picked me up and showed me the marvel of her palace. Her children wished me love and happiness as she whisked me up into hyperspace. I felt we were traveling at the speed of light. She held me in front of her and said "I showed you all this because you need to know that this love you feel right now is the love of all existences. Everything exists because of this love. You always felt it but have denied it for far too long." At that moment I remember saying "I don't want to go! I want to stay here with you!" and I opened my eyes. I was back in my East Village apartment. I really wanted to go back and almost immediately, the sensations were gone everything was back to waking reality. With this though, I felt a pull on the crown of my skull. I closed my eyes and I was BACK IN! The Mother was beneath me with her arm outstretched, holding mine. She kept me from floating back to my body and said "I brought you back because I want you to remember this LOVE. I want you to know it truly exists. I want you to share it with others. Remember all of this and share it all. We will see you again." And with that, she let go and we floated for a moment her and I. I really didn't want to come back, I was ready to leave my body behind. For the first time I was at peace with death... and with that thought, I opened my eyes and I was back in my body at home. I took a deep breath, what felt like my first breath ever.

That love still permeates through me to this day. I had no idea there could exist such a thing. I had no idea I could feel so safe and much a part of everything, all existences all at once. It was the most beautiful experience I have ever had, and THIS is why I am here. I need to share these experiences and learn from yours. It has taken me over a decade, but I am finally here. And I'm so happy I am

Damn. Beautiful.

I envy your experience, sounds amazing.

Thanks Sky! I realized that after I stopped "fighting" the fear and shock of the experiences and just let go and be swept away, they have ALL been this beautiful! The moment I fought, boom terrifying! Giving into the experience with the idea that everything is going to be just fine helps you get to that safe spot, sitting in the right seat at the movie theater with the best view and be taken INTO the movie.

Cheers and thanks for reading!

Haven't done it in a while because I can't stop fighting! I really gotta work on that. Any tips on just accepting? Everyone seems to be able to do it but I have a lot of trouble letting go.

http://www.skeptiko.com/...r-near-death-experience/
Check the interview maybe. I've never done DMT...it's coming.

Amazing

Truly a great, inspirational, and motivating report.

Thanks for sharing


Also, it was well written. I felt as if i could see it for myself

Hi, Archtypamine! Thanks for sharing that post. I read the entire interview and it is indeed fascinating. There's one mention here, where Dr. Eben Alexander states "A lot of people have come up to me and said, “Oh that sounds like a DMT experience, ”or“ That sounds like ketamine.” Not at all. That is not even in the right ballpark."

There's no mention in the interview if Dr. Eben Alexander has ever had any real world experience with DMT or Ayahuasca, because he completely disagrees that they are similar. I find that very unscientific Of course I can't say for sure that what he experienced is a lot like DMT. HE would need to experiment with DMT to make that determination himself. But if Dr. Eben Alexander has not experimented with DMT, then well... he can't be making these assumptions just like I can't be making the assumptions that it's JUST like DMT. Sounds very similar though

A lot of what he presents I myself have experienced completely. I KNOW infinity. Things he mentions are very much in line with what I've experienced with Ayahuasca. His point though, and I completely understand it, is that consciousness is not the brain. The brain is a conduit for consciousness to experience this reality which is why bringing back the knowledge from the "other side" is almost impossible. We don't have the neurological capabilities to fully translate and explain it.

I would agree with that assumption. I would also love to believe that the brain IS only a conduit, not the source of consciousness.

Thanks so much for sharing!

Thanks MagicGing! I truly appreciate you taking the time to read my post, enjoying it and complimenting my narrative. This is why I keep posting For the hope it may inspire and motivate the love that permeates all that is for people like you who inhabit the nexus!

Very nice wording and a beautiful report. Really inspirational.

Thank you Ymer, I am very happy to learn you felt it an inspiring read

I know that feeling bro. I still can`t believe that it happened to me.