A question for all you fellow drug geeks out there. I have been enjoying psychedelics for 20 years now. Now that I feel established in my adult life, I have had a resurgence of psychedelic usage. My wife however rarely even drinks alcohol. Her only drug is caffeine. These realms I explore, are completely foreign to her. She has no interest in experimenting. I am totally ok with that, and our relationship works (yin and yang perhaps). I am curious if there are any others out there with similar situations?

When i first got into extracting dmt my partner was quite into exploring dmt with me. Her last experience which was a couple of years ago now put her off though. She met some undesirable entities and it kinda freaked her out and she puked also, she didn't look her best that night no damage done though and she doesn't mind if i fancy going to hyperspace nowadays. I wouldn't do it around her now as it would just be a distraction to me. It was cool while it lasted though.

i love exploring just about all entheogens. I'm especially keen on cactus and other p.e.a's. But i really cut my teeth on vaped dmt, then that led to a proper aya ceremony. My current gf. is super gun shy(only tried mushrooms once in her teens). She finally tried dmt with a friend she trusts and it was way too much for her. SH'es glad she did it but is in no hurry to try it again. But she does really like dosing low on the cactus(since she saw the positive results of me taking small doses)... who woulda thought?

My other friend that i've had the pleasure of co-mingling for a bit in the bed(just friends now) on the other hand LOVES eating heroic doses of entheogens. I'd love for my gf to do as i do, but somehow i think the yin-yang thing is kind of true. I don't know if i could trust myself with someone as gonzo as me.

yup.

Pretty much exactly the same. I'm probably a little older than you two though.

My g/f tried a low dose of my first batch of spice, she was then and still is on the fence about trying it again as she was uncertain of her first experience, she didn't breakthrough or anything, from what she said and how she reacted to it though just said basically she saw some colorful waves and felt kinda anxious/nervous, as an outsider though she seemed to be having a good time she was giggly and laughing when she wasn't tranced out. She occasionally partakes in marijuana/alcohol with me, which is semi rare now. But she likes learning about how the processes of extraction work and watching me do it, sometimes she helps me out like she seems to like helping me de shell vilca/yopo seeds she has fingernails and can usually get the inner seed out in one piece, unlike me who makes a huge mess and has to take like 5-10 mins per seed. I know I know I'm a failure. The first time she asked if she could help I was like just be super careful since they are so tiny a, small amount lost is a huge waste and she does her first 4 in a row perfect and I'm astonished.

She seems willing to trip sit me any time I ask as well, and understands my usage of these substances, even if not partaking she has assured me she is ok with me doing it, she has seen me do coke and doesn't really like that. (It doesn't effect me much I think in part that I have ADHD and a lot of stimulants like adderall just take the edge of my ADHD unless its a super potent batch of coke. However as it doesn't effect me much and is a waste I basically swore off coke for her, as there are much more useful things for me to do with my time, I would usually only use it with one particular friend who brought it over whenever playing call of duty though for long weekend nights.

All I know is I respect her lack of usage and she respects my choice to use, and as another poster mentioned this is a great yin and yang scenario.

This is something im extremely versed in.

Me and my lady have been together for the better part of 5 years. When I met her, she had done LSD on a couple of occasions, which made her question things, but that was it. She then met me, and several months later I was totally open with her and said basically "Listen, I would really like you to try something if and when your ready, and ill give you all the reading material to prepare yourself as much as possible, even though that wont matter" I let her read many experience reports, and alot of infomation on the nexus. She was definitely intrigued. She has had severe bouts with depression for years prior, and she was hoping that dmt could afford some new insight into underlying issues.

After my first extraction, I let her attempt it. She wanted to go 'all the way' she said. I told her that would not be wise, as she might not be prepared for a very deep experience. 30mg and 3 tokes later through the GVG, she was sprawled out on my lawn during a bright sunny day. That day will live in my memory. The twinkle in her eye, something I had not witnessed before, was back. She started jounreying regularly. I never jounryed fully while she partook, only because I KNEW to partake all the time would eventually lead to a slappin. Everyone goes through this honeymoon hphase. I even told her this. She neglected my advice, and one evening she took her entire dose in one massive hit. Now she would witness the true power of this experience. That journey was over a couple years ago. She rarely jounreys anymore, much like myself, although we've been talking of journeying very soon.

Then there's ayahuasca, which id say was and still is the most memorable in terms of experience. I had drunk aya a couple times before she decided to journey with me. I gave her the rundown, we prepped her bedrooms accordingly (candles, incense, soft melodic music, blankets). After drinking both brews, about 15 minutes after, I started to notice the effects were gaining momentum. I'll never forget, as I looked over at my ladys face and the expression of total shock and fear covered her face. "It's coming on really quick babe!! Please make it stop babe!! Please!! I don't want to do this!!" I kept myself somewhat composed and told her that she was just going to have to ride this out, it'll be over in a few hours, and everything will be ok, for shes in good hands. She immediately asked for the wastebasket, as she hurled this dark colored puke over n' over. After about 5 minutes of intense purging, I set up some pillows and someblankets and helped her over to the one side of the bed, which I covered her up and made sure she was comfortable.

The next few hours I can't recollect all that much, for the experience was that intense, but as I started to come to I was laying on the bed next to my girl. Looking over at her face there was an expression of overwhelming astonishment and shock, mouth agape. And this part ill never forget...as I closed my eyes and grabbed her to bring her close, I noticed that the patterning that made her up, was dark, disorganized, chaotic, and soforth. I wanted to help her..I had the 'intent' of fixing her, because I 'LOVED' her. Right then as I thought that, I was propelled within her inner universe, witnessing this intricate pattering at work. I remember saying to her inner universe "babe, im here, im not going anywhere, and I love you" I said this is my mind with the utmost intent and honesty. AS I did so, the dark, drab, chaotic energy started to deconstruct almost instantaneously , dissolving away like salt in water. And as it all did so, my energy was becoming her energy, for it was seeping over into her light body. The dark colors erupted into this intense display of cosmic fireworks. Every color imaginable, coupled with every possible positive feeling and emotion. Right then I 'knew' I had fixed her..I had healed her.

I remember opening my eyes that instant and watching as this energy was just radiating from her face and body. She was like a new person. (and still is to this day). She still talks about how she was in this dark place, viewing these dark aspects of herself, then all of a sudden she felt this strong force overcome her and all the energy she was viewing, was starting to dissipate and slowly become bright, multi-colored, and positive. I told her about what I had done. She couldn't believe it.

FRom that point on, our relationship has grown tremendously, to new levels I never thought would be possible in a relationship. Half the time we will finish each others sentences or know what the other is thinking. It's absolutely crazy, but beautiful. Our symbiosis had intensified a millionfold. WE pretty much have synchronicities every day. The love we once shared, had become completely transparent and now we see this beautiful bond for what it truly is.

enough rambling. i could over kept typing, but that's in a nutshell

much love,
tat

I very much enjoyed reading that, in fact i had prickly skin at one point!

Thanks for sharing that TAt. I really enjoyed it.

thats a quality tale Tat and the type of magic we all need, much love to you and yours

I've been doing psychedelics since 1999 or so. The woman I am with now had never done a psychedelic in her life. She smokes weed and drinks a little, but that's it. Well, that used to be it. Part of our courtship was me telling her about the molecule and last week she did DMT for the first time with me. She did it three times that night and loved it (who doesn't love it????). Now she's anxious to do it again, and is talking about procuring MHRB and growing shrooms. Another convert to cause, ladies and gentlemen!

that was amazing Tat! thanks for sharing that

Honestly this is a good thing if you really think about it!

Are you on the uk?

no, but i am supported, and allowed to be open and honest without being labeled a crazy junkie/drug-addict.

so i am happy

i have gotten him to eat the occasional dried gram of cubies, but nothing more (and even that is fairly infrequent) than a strong body high and the giggles.

Nope (for various reasons)... but she´s OK with me exploring those realms. Fortunatelly, I should add.

My wife does not normally consume anything that you would qualify intoxicating, except the occasional drink of sloe gin during summer.. She used to take LSD at school apparently but this was waaaaaaay before I met her lol.. Her days of such things are well behind her as she puts it..

Funnily enough though, she has tried DMT twice.. Simply because of the realm of information available that shows how different it is to what is considered most other drugs and the potential healing benefits (seeing me quit many things has no doubt confirmed this in her mind).

While she has no interest in going down the specific DMT road I am, she does feel that even those two sessions has allowed her to gain a grip on her panic attacks and view them in a way she could never before.. I can see her having a couple more perhaps but they will be few and far between (and most likely very small in overall number)

The funniest part was when she came back from second journey.. She was all excited about how some tiger with a Jamaican accent had guided her through these feelings and how to overcome them.

I consider myself to be very fortunate in having a supportive wife who lets me do what I want (so long as I never lie, which is fair enough and not my style anyways)

Not to de-rail but thank you all very much. Im glad you enjoyed the read. <3

Much love,
tat

I should have commented on your post Tatt.. It is very inspiring, I can only hope that my wife and myself can gain such a connection someday. we are already very strong together but what you describe sounds (dare i say it) MAGICAL

Intriguing post, nice to see so many couples together journeying

I myself have a girlfriend, we are over 1year she is my first gf and i think i found the right one, however when it comes to drugs she is (though, mostly was) obsessed... It took me a few months of convincing that psychedelics are not the same as opiates as whenever i rolled a green or talked about anything else she thought i was a drug addict. In her family illegal (legal is all good...) drug is very bad and anyone who ever does anything illegal will end up a heroine addict..

I remember when i first got to this forum i didnt register for some time was just reading, and when she saw i had to explain who you-the forum members really are and ofc it took her a mere second to conclude dmt-nexus is a junkie website full of druggies... Took me some weeks to convince her and educate her in this matter high enough so she would understand the difference between addictive drugs and so on...

Now she tried weed and liked it, the irony of that but i doubt she will ever do anything higher.

To hear your experience, is moving. It is that closeness with your partner/lover, that can only be felt with THEM. Just as these medicines open personal perspective that can be difficult to see and feel in everyday life. They can help you see and feel the deep love and commitment to your partner. In a way that is inhibited by the grind of life's duties. It's in moments like yours Tat, that life is felt in all it's glory That my wife and I don't go there together, is a shame. I sometimes wish I could help her to feel all the positive aspects of these medical gifts. She gets pretty high on sober life though.