Philosopher wrote:Its important to note that this is in a professional and medical study, and it is not suggesting that if a depressed person takes mushrooms it will help. IME it really helps me, at least for a couple months, which is very long for such a small amount of substance. But if you are feeling depressed and take mushrooms it can really magnify this feeling during a trip, this has also happened to me and it makes one incredibly sad. Someone depressed should definitely have a sitter, because they may come to find a very dangerous conclusion. Mushrooms really help one see reality more clearly, and for someone who is depressed it can really exacerbate their feelings of hopelessness. On a high dose they may even feel they are spiritually dead, or a cosmic mistake. You know the feeling you get when you realize how small you really are, this realization makes it much easier to do something without thinking about its real consequences in normal life.
I had the opposite effect. I was in a state of despair at the time, I was feeling suicidal and depressed, I had cyanide in a shopping cart for 3 weeks contemplating if death was the only way out, dark it sounds but I have learnt to be open and honest now.
Even whilst eating them, with all my problems, my migraines, my TMJ(clicky jaw), irregular heartbeat, stupid amounts of daily sugar as well and stress, but as it started to kick in I could feel myself feeling heavier and wondering if I would ever wake up. I had immediate migraine relief, cured my TMJ, had 0 migraines for 3 weeks and not one problem with my stomach. It was life changing as I said before.
I noticed alot of stomach contraptions during the trip and buzzing like my brain was being rewired, as well as these temporary waves through my body.
My personal experience is the complete opposite of yours but for readers here, you can see how unreliable the emotional roller-coaster can be and there are so many elements to consider but I honestly think that respect, love and courage will give you a beautiful trip. This is not about getting high of your nuts, it is about learning the space between us and the universe, about ourselves, our past, love and consciousness.
You have to trust your instinct more than anything, research well before doing anything, I spent months researching, it became an obsession, I even had more available gifts but refused on the basis that they were not shamans. It was not ignorance but I believe the mental alchemy of a Shaman can change the energy of the mushroom itself, the after offers were from money making machines who cared only about money.
Peace and love