EDIT: I do want to write a report, sorry about the other post, ego wasn't quite intact
Yesterday I had an incredible experience on one tab of prime lsd. It was way more potent than I had anticipated. Not a bad thing though, just wasn't expecting such a full psychedelic experience! Here goes..
T-1:30 Started to feel the first body feelings of the trip, slight tingling in the arms.
T-1:45 Pack my backpack full of goodies and start my walk towards some nature trails in the woods close-by. Listening to my ipod on the way there (electro house music playing) and I can hear the sound down to the particle! It was extremely enhanced, just walking with a big smile on my face enjoying myself, no visuals yet.
T-2:00 Get to the entrance of the trails, sense of perception really starting to change now. Every-time I look down the path I see it growing and growing, like it's much further than it really is. The woods look great, sunshine feels incredible on the body. My arms feel like I'm rolling on ecstasy. I rub them up and down and feel tingling on every particle of hair on my arms. I set down and take a break. Many pine needles litter the ground and I perceive them as being layered and layered and layered on top of each other. I find a bench nearby and take out my sketchpad, visuals are now becoming present. The wood path is moving, incredible patterns of light start swirling on the path and everything is enhanced and moving. I open my book and just stare at the blank page, admiring how much beauty is in a single blank piece of paper. Everlasting possibilities and I find a new found sense of respect for writers and artists. I never drew anything though, after just sitting there for a while I start to get up and walk the path again.
T-3:00 Starting to peak. Visuals everywhere. CEV visuals become three dimensional. I get the familiar feeling of being one with the universe and how incredible it is that everything is a part of it's infinite glory. I walk another path to a deserted island and there are few wood tables. I notice two other people on the island, who are laying down under a tree with there eyes closed. I laugh at myself because I know they are tripping and enjoying themselves too. I didn't ask or bother them, I could just tell. A few other people walk by at a very far distance away and I am shocked at how easily I can hear them. Sense of hearing is magnified by ten-fold. I see a beautiful big tree in the distance with another wood table near it and walk over there. Time starts to have no meaning. The wonders of hyperspace start to engulf me as my ego slips away.
T 3:30 In full peak now. I lay down on top of the table with the beautiful big tree right in front of me. This is the best part of the entire trip
The tree's branches are multiplying in front of me, two-fold, three-fold, four-fold. I perceive the tree as the tree of enlightenment and know I am in for a treat! I close my eyes and there I am again, the place I love so much. The place of infinite possibility. The place of everlasting love and oneness. My closed eye visuals start as a membrane with many tentacles, changing colors before my eyes. Waving around my vision and dancing. Everything looks like a matrix of light, it truly is incredible. I start crying from the warmness and welcoming of this place I am in. My CEV's start to change. I am now seeing planets fly past my vision and I am having a sub-out of body experience. Space and galaxies pass behind my closed eyes. I open my eyes to the tree again and start crying out of the beauty I have seen. I close my eyes again and the matrix of light makes a three dimensional circle that starts to grow. Tentacles of this matrix light sprout of out it and I see eyes and a mouth forming on it. It is an octopus, I perceive it as mischievous, and it laughed a bit in a taunting sort of way. Was it an entity? I believe so. It went away and now I am seeing everlasting tunnels of CEV's that have no end and that are moving very fast. I loved every second of it.
T 3:50 The clouds become dark as rain is coming, I decide to get up and head back towards my apartment. The walk was nice the way back, everything looks holographic and changes as a pass it. I struggle to not laugh as I walk down the sidewalk of my college and not make a fool of myself. Music still sounds incredible. I find love in the electro house music and enjoy every second of listening to it.
T 4:00 This is where things so south a bit :/ I am sorry to say that I let my anxiety take over a bit because I see my apartment complex manager who I have been in trouble with before driving her golf cart. I pray to myself that she does not stop and try to talk to me. I have an overwhelming sense of worry and when I got back to my room I was very anxious and sweating. I start to calm myself and take off all of my clothes because of profuse sweating. I lay down in bed and start embracing the rest of my peak when all of the sudden I hear rocks or mulch hit my third story window. Now I start to get more nervous and annoyed. I grab a benzo from my bathroom just in case. Someone is throwing things at my window, I am sure of it. (Now after the trip I still believe it happened and wasn't a hallucination. I actually heard the loud thumps and saw objects outside of the blinds hitting it and falling away). I then think that someone knows I am tripping and is messing with me. Then I hear a knock on my apartment door, and I freak out. I know it was fine now but I had a sense of deja vu because this was exactly what happened when I got caught smoking weed in my room and my apartment manager knocked on the door. I get off my bed again annoyed that I can't enjoy myself and put pants on and walk to the door, looking through the peephole, it is two of my best friends. I open the door and the greatest sense of relief washes over me. My friends ask if I'm alright because I looked like a nervous wreck. I tell them about how I was freaking out about my manger and someone throwing things at my window. They say it wasn't them but they knew I was taking acid today and who else would throw things at my window? I dismiss it because I just don't care and want to enjoy the rest of my time.
T: 5:30 My friends and I are in my room and I am laying in my bed enjoying the rest of my closed eyed visuals. My ego is still splitting and multiplying. I keep wondering who "I" am and am fully aware of the illusory aspect that is the ego. My posters are expanding and breathing and I am coming down from the peak effects but still having a good time. My friends are jamming on the guitar and playing oblivion on xbox and I'm now fully relaxed and enjoying their company.
T: 7:30? After a few hours of watching my visuals (which aren't that interesting to me anymore because once I'm down from the peak it's all I think about) we decide to go get some pizza. I'm still blabbing like an idiot and have a hard time with words. We get pizza and just enjoy each others company. I can't stop thinking about the ego and how detached I am from it! Even after the peak of the trip. It's still all scrambled. It's a good feeling though and I enjoy it very much.
T: 9:15 We are back at my apartment chilling again. I go off on the porch just to think about the ego more. I am obsessed with it. "I" am still not fully back to being "myself" and I sit there and ponder the point of the psychedelic experience, does it mean anything? Do I continue doing this and exploring the depths of the mind? (I always ask these questions on the come down).
T: 11:00 My friends leave my apartment. I am still hallucinating quite a bit. Words fall of computer and I can't focus on anything at all. My ego is slowly being pulled back together. I am surprised by the strength of the acid and how far it took me off of only one blotter. Amazing<3
T: 1:30 Trip is basically over. Throughout the whole day I have had this metallic feeling in my head, like a tremendous pressure that never went away and it just felt. like. metal. I don't know why, but it just seemed so metallic. Bleh, I have a headache from it and I just want to fall asleep so I take my xanex and off I go.
All and all it was an incredible day, I regret not staying in my place of happiness that was the natural woods to avoid the bad part of the trip, but hey, I never regret having any bad times once it's over and I always learn lots from those "bad" aspects.
From this experience though I really did understand how much I appreciate DMT and how fast your ego disintegrates and there you are, at the place that matters most. Hyperspace. It's kind of funny to sit back and watch your ego fight and fight and fight it's liberation though, but I feel like the fastest way there is the best way for me
Just a personal preference.
Thanks for reading my report! Love the nexus and it's people.
Peace, Love, Gratitude and safe travels~