Wow....
well I ended up falling into a false sense of security, smoking half of that Joint without
realizing I had smoked enough at half that amount...
I was focused on a poster in my room (Happy)... toke.. toke
then realized the poster was the only thing left in my reality (Shock) everything else was completely unfamiliar...
Closed my eyes (looking for safer place)
(SPIN)...... (FOLDING)... (SQUEEZED)...
Thoughts..Shit this has happened... (Crushed)... (Thoughts Fading)... (No control)
I'm here though... (Overlapping Textures)....
(10mins) of (controlled fear)
(Think I'd become the Grid I spoke of in earlier post)
Felt parts of myself slipping away until I was left with ONE final thought, which seemed to be crushed between infinity....................... ME!
This realization enabled me to open my eyes and look out my window...
ScenePurple Sky... No Stars... Fuzzy Shimmer on everything... Conscious trees
ThoughtsI should wait to die before I come back here, I don't have much control and this seems like purgatory, my arm kept feeling like it was changing shape and my skin had red/brown blotches all over..
Had clear thoughts about our world being here for a reason, I am unclear about why but am sure its to be enjoyed...
Coming downLaid back down (Happy to be back) closed eyes... cleared all thoughts in head.
and this popped in....
........
.........
..........
(My face felt sooo Warm)
"In order to seek enlightenment, One must focus on the task at hand"
because.....
I tried to push this sentence further but it hurt my head, like a barrier that would not give me the answers....
Final ThoughtsHave fun or Jump in head first.... focus on one task... don't accidentally do both.
I still believe this was a good thing... just took the harsher route... should have let myself get crushed for longer now that I think about it
"See- Do- Know- Share-
"Your Beginning To Believe"