Its been over half a year since I last posted here, and I gotta say I miss the nexus's insight.

I just smoked some herb and after some high thoughts, I kind of thought back to my dmt trips. I have always noticed a pattern with them. The "entities" that I meet have always been the ones who control my reality, call them god if you will. But whats puzzling to me about these entities is that they always come across as motherly (only fatherly when the experience is intense) figures. As if i had known them my whole existence for they had created me. But I had forgot about them. Its as if every time I smoked dmt they would scold me me for smoking it, or encourage me to push harder. It wasn't as if I had just made some random connection that they felt like my parents, they DROVE the information into me as if I was a newborn baby and I just instinctively understood that they were my parents.

I know there is a plan for me, I don't know if its god, computer hackers, my parents in the afterlife, aliens. I just know this universe is not just conceived by random chance. I have read many other trip reports how people saw "the goddess" and "motherlike entities" and I know that many of you have experienced this. But I think if I was "god" and I wanted to contact a human being, I would appear as his or her mother to drive the point across seriously. To show that -I- am in charge and -I- will always look out for him/her. I believe that I have come in contact with god numerous times on LSD/Mushrooms/DMT and that not only have I come into contact with them. I have ran into them once again as I have an infinite number of times. They have always been there and they are so familiar and loving, they are my REAL parents. The ones who created it all, with love. For us to learn and grow just like they have until we reach the next level of life.

I have taken a long break on psychedelics. My recent DMT trips have just been my parents scolding/scaring/yelling at me for seeing too much. I believe that they have shown me the next level and that I need to stop before I go too far. After about 5 NIGHTMARE trips from the DMT I have finally taken their advice. My life has not been easy since, I am graduating from college next semester and I have only been able to look at the negative side of life recently and not been able to see this incredible gift I have been given like I have been shown before by and why I can never forget psychedelics. But I do hope to soon be able to pull myself out of this hole and get back to normal. I just wanted to share these thoughts with you tonight on christmas eve and I was hoping some of you could relate to this.

Thanks for reading,

Giver of Will

I was checking the Nexus, getting my fix for the day, and wasn't really in the posting mood, but of course this place has a way of changing your mind fast. First off, in my experience, which includes Shrooms, lsd, and 3 DMT experiences (1 Breakthrough) I haven't had any contact with entities.

From what it sounds like you are in an extended integration period. Time to reflect on your experiences and return to your balance. Introspection and intuition are two things to keep strong, as well as social interaction and being a little outgoing. Keep up a healthy lifestyle and try and restore your natural rhythms.

I have been reading a book about Earthing http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XumPQLTzPWI < This guy Co-wrote with an electrical engineer and another writer. Tuning in with the electrical circuit we live on is one sure way to restore balance to our systems. Our cells become energized with our "Mothers" energy. The Sun is our "Fathers" energy. NEg- Pos+ = Balance... By balancing your circadian rhythms, your outlook will change. Water, Earth, Fresh Air, Sunlight, Sleep, Music, Conversation, Crying, Laughing, Art, Etc. Push yourself and try to help other where and when you can. Giving another person your attention is one the the best gifts you can give (FREE)

I see your already utilizing Cannabis. Anti-Inflammatory just like Earthing, regulates your system into Homeostasis, and can uplift the spirit when used correctly.

Keep posting man, even if its minor everyday stuff, we love reading about others experiences and insights. Much love and balance brother. Check out the Nights SKY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aquR8-o6ZAc

Thank you, Kronas.

It discourages me that nobody else on this forum has any insight or comments on this subject. I would greatly appreciate anyone's feedback even if the feedback is negative. I would enjoy to hear my fellow nexus member's opinions.

Much love to you all,

Giver

Hi giver of will,

Welcome back to the Nexus

I was wondering why you´ve taken a long break... you wrote about? Was this break caused by your bad trips on DMT? I also have had a shattering DMT experience relatively recently (I simply smoked too much while MAO inhibited, and got Hyperslaped ). After that I thought "never again"... In fact I haven´t smoked Spice since then, but I know that I will again, eventually. However, after this "bad" trip, I had some absolutely amazing experiences with oral DMT (Pharmahuasca). I realised that I maybe should stick to "slower" entheogens for a while.

Do you have any experience with Aya/Pharma? For me, "slow DMT" has been always a very healing experience for precisely that what you were writing about: to be able to look at the positive side of my life...

I hope you´ll get better soon, I wish you all the best.

Thank you Michal, I have taken a long break because psychedelics have been telling me to for a long time now and I just never took the hint until I started getting slapped in the face by them, and not just DMT either. My last dmt trip, the moment it hit my lungs my head started talking to me (it always seems to talk to me in this really proper British accent, its very strange to me). It told me that I need to stop at once before I see something that I dont want to see/am not ment to see yet. I finally took the voices advice and it has been almost half a year since I have touched a psychedelic.

I have not tried Aya/Pharma (I cant find the stuff anywhere) but it is my next ideal substance to try. The DMT trip is so insanely fast and intense I usually forget most parts of it, I would love to experience it in a slower manner.