Hey all, New to the forums! I just had to share this with some people because in all Honesty I've had such an amazing and profound journey that I have to tell people about it, and not many people outside of the know would really understand what I went through. Hopefully you can stand my long drawn out experience
I broke this down into a couple of parts, intro, first toke, first breakthrough,latest experience, and finally looking forward. So If you want to skip some of the more boring sections by all means!
Anyway I'd like to get right into it and start off with a bit of a background on my introduction to DMT.
INTRODUCTIONI got a guy I work with, he's a good guy, friendly, smart... loves to take drugs!. Tells me all his wild adventures on acid and how ripped he gets on pot, Great entertainment factor!
. One day he tells me about DMT, he tries to explain it like you would with anyone who doesn't know about it...of course I'm like WTF? he tells me you should try it, naturally I'm like NAH THANKS bro. after a couple of shifts working together he convinces me to look into it, so I do my research and I start getting curious and interested. I learn about the pineal gland and it's DMT producing ability and ayahuasca etc... and it was interesting because I am into this kind of thing...Astral projection, Lucid Dreaming, Higher dimensions etc...(But I haven't been able to AP or LD yet). Anyway so I end up making a small purchase of Changa to test the waters and here's where the story begins!
FIRST TOKEI live at home with my Mum so having time to myself for this kind of thing was seldom available, She can come home randomly from work so I had to be careful, she's anti- Everything! (I grew 1.5 lbs of cannabis one year in the back yard and I convinced her to let me grow it hahaha, then I convinced her I Destroyed it
) Anyway I end up holding onto this spice for a week or so before I got a chance to use it, every time I thought about it (knowing it's potential) I was slightly afraid! in all honesty I almost Couldn't take it because I didn't know what was going to happen! I know that every trip would be different and if taken with the wrong intentions it could be a bad experience.
Finally I get some time to try it, I sprinkle just a little into my pipe, (my mate told me it can Stink!) I kinda lean out the window and (this I laugh about later) take my first hit, I had no idea that it's onset was so sudden and intense, I almost fell over, I felt as though I lost a few seconds of time here and there, almost forgot to hold my breath and my body was vibrating and humming so I lay down and while my heart is racing I try to calm down and just observe myself instead of panicking.
My body felt strange, like it was trying to paralyze, like vertigo, like i didn't have any grounding...I can't explain it, I'm sure it's the same for most ppl? So I was staring at the ceiling, and the first thing I notice was this vibrating of my body and these two tones (like Binaurial Beats) and at the same time I could see this semi-transparent, pale coloured, fractal, kaleidoscopic patterns which seemed to flicker from left eye to right eye (as though your 3D TV was flickering slow enough to see each frame).
while I was observing this I came to the conclusion that it's like I was coming into Sync with the next reality, Slowly the vibrating tones got faster and higher in pitch and the flickering of patterns merged into the center of my vision and came into focus (let's call it the Take off). Meanwhile I noticed this 'hotspot' on my right cheek where all the energy of what I could see was converging onto and as I was staring at the ceiling I noticed that the edges (where the walls meet the ceiling) were emmiting lines of energy in a holographic like inverse pyramid that were pointing directly at my 'hotspot' I moved my head around and the holograph moved with me, still pointing at my cheeck, I was amazed, this was just a couple of minutes, it was brief but exactly what I wanted to do, I wanted to test the waters before I dived right in.
Now move on a week or so I did this again a little stronger but my First breakthrough was incredible and something special.
FIRST BREAKTHROUGH most of the information I stumpled upon usually say stuff like setting is better in a dim lit room with not much lighting and quiet music (if any) and my mate told me that if you go outside, colours are extremely vivid and vibrant. So on one sunny afternoon I decided to set up outside in the back yard under an umbrella and some soft meditating/relaxing music.
By now I had come accustomed to the onset so my state of mind was calm, I took as large a hit as I could out of my pipe and waited for the show to begin...This experience is a little hard to recall, I just remember specific parts but I'll do my best to explain.
Immediately after the take off I closed my eyes and I was immediately taken to this blacker than black infinite space with perfectly 2 Dimensional planes of symmetrical patterns of Red shapes with yellow shapes within them, spinning around a central point in the space along evenly spaced white lines, I was observing this almost subconsciously, like I was watching without me thinking about watching. I was in a dream like state, with no conscious awareness of time and reality, these shapes then turned inside out and the black void became an infinately large room of hyper coloured fractals and then I was observing a strange flesh coloured organ floating in space that would expand and contract as I breathed in an out. This was super High definition like Blueray would compare to DVD. With such precision and so much detail and colour.
I became aware of my breath. Breathed deeply and this organ started glowing red as it expanded, Then I became aware of the music and every single note was so harmonious to me and so uplifting it was like I was in a state of pure love.
Shortly after this it's a little sketchy. I recall a presence, that presence started feeling very feminine and was embracing me from behind like mother, mother of all creation. I was warm in the chest and while I don't recall what I could see, the visions were slowly creeping around from the front of me to the left, naturally I wanted to keep holding onto them, I felt like this nurturing presence wanted me to turn around and embrace, so I basically rolled over away from the light and buried my eyes in the pillow, then the soft and most vibrant colours emerged from darkness and filled my vision. I felt like this was pure love and energy, when I awoke, I was all teary filled with joy and looking around the garden, everything so intensely vibrant and emitting fractal waves of energy. My cat was there looking at me, so playful and absent of negative thought. she looked so curious but ran away when I sat up. I rolled over and started to laugh and smile uncontrollably..
That's my first breakthrough! I couldn't have wanted anything more special. But the following was stranger still and just as impressive.
LATEST EXPERIENCEA couple of weeks later my mate told me about a new batch of changa his guy got a hold of, it had a mix of a few strains of plant material, including Caapi B and mimosa, with passion flower etc. They hadn't tried it but I was keen! I bought a satchel which saw me through about 5-8 solid hits! but these were damned intense! My latest experience expands over 2 days.
filling up my pipe I started to get nervous again, being a new, stronger and different variation from before I did feel a little apprehensive but I hardened up and took a decent hit. Instantly I started seeing solid neverending rainbow colours emitting out from whatever I was looking at, I looked at the curtain and it was now a technicolor curtain, I felt that it was too intense to look at so I looked at something else, as I moved my eyes towards another object the room came back, the instant I stoped moving my eyes the next object started emitting technicolor rainbows perfectly outwards from its edges in all directions.
Moments after the object disappeared into the vast endless space and then technicolor rainbows started emerging out of random dots in space, they swirled around and around and change direction and inverted, then suddenly they started swirling and formed into a skull and a spine, I was observing this from the side on.. The colours filled the skull but left a solid red outline of structure and started emitting from everywhere in the skull. Suddenly the skull snapped it's mouth shut and shot out a red bolt of colour or energy and it totally startled me! I thought Woah! ok it's just a skull...why is there a skull, is this death? is this, a warning?
I freaked out a little and started to get a little uncomfortable, a little claustrophobic. I didn't want this feeling but I was still aware of myself so I changed my train of thought and pushed aside the negativity I was associating and literally faced the light...as I turned my head towards the light coming in the window, my body started relaxing and filling with light energy (my eyes were closed the whole time) if I turned my head back to the shadow I felt claustrophobic again which was bizarre but I accepted the difference between light and dark energy and turned towards the light energy and I was instantly filled with hope and trust.
skipping along (cos i can't remember) I tried to make sense of this skull in my visions and I couldn't come to any conclusion why it was there, but it did scare me for some reason.
The following day I decided I would make up a crude bong which worked quite well, I was able to take a massive hit which took me under for about 30-40 minutes!
This time I was not laying down but chilling at my desk chair. Moments after I recall being completely confused and frightened of my surroundings, I felt like I was going to fall into the dark of which I was floating on, things looked kind of Muddled and distorted, this kind of felt like it was going to be a bad trip... I persevered since I had no choice but to keep going. I was breathing normally, maybe a little harder than normal...but suddenly I breathed out Smoke! Ash! Dust! like a Volcano Spewing out it's toxic cloud! I breathed in clean air, then breathed out this horrible cloud, it felt rough and like it was almost blocking my throat! so I blew out several times (like I was trying to blow out a huge flame) and it kept blasting out of my mouth with such intensity and density. I was annoyed! I just kept doing it like a retard and just lost control of my self just blowing, eventually blowing through my lips and spitting everywhere, and COMPLETELY Burst out into Laughter cos it was so stupid that I was doing that!
Instantly my breathing was clear...so clear it was like breathing light into my lungs and filling my body with warmth! with my eyes closed still sitting, I could feel the light coming through the window, I could hear a bird chirping and I felt like I was somewhere else, my room felt like it was expanding, turning inside out so that I was finally outside, I could feel the breeze on my face and I started visualizing a jungle like scene, and I'm sitting on my chair floating through the jungle and giggling, breathing in light and remembering the complete silence and peace of nature's innocence. I hugged myself and the love intensified! this went on for 15 minutes.
When I opened my eyes, everything was so beautiful, energy was flowing through everything like particles of light, different colours for different things. My cat walked in and her fur was pulsating with red "pixels" of energy flowing from her body outwards endlessly! she looked at me with so much pleasure, and when i picked her up her fur was softer than ever before and the pixels were insanely flowing outwards I can't explain it! I came down feeling so happy and blissful like never before. for 15 minutes. I felt euphoric, at peace with myself, somewhat cleansed and loved everything.
So that's my latest trip.
LOOKING FORWARDSince this last trip, my dreaming has completely changed, it's a little strange and I dont know how long it will last but since I did this on Thursday and Friday of last week, the past 3 Nights I have constantly dreamed that I'm smoking Changa and completely loosing all grounding, often waking up early in the morning feeling like I've just been through a washing machine, disorientated and vividly feeling like i'm high on DMT...it's just so weird but I still wake up feeling well rested. I think I'll have a break from DMT just till I feel like I've "calmed down"
Anyway That's my epic story, I hope this is was as good to read as it was to write, I had to get this off my chest it was killing me not telling anyone about it yet, my mate's awy on holiday so I can't vent it to him yet haha
Peace out
Astro84.