SWIM has been experimenting with the spice for many weeks now. Not everyday, as she gets extreme anxiety before smoking and has to build her courage, make sure she is in the right mind set before partaking. Only when she feels comfortable and confident with the spice is she able to finally take that first hit, and launch herself into the "DMT state of Mind". Then all fear is virtually wiped away.
Up until last night, all SWIM had ever experienced were amazing open and closed eyed hallucinations. SWIM takes a hit, waits to launch, enjoys the visuals, and smokes more when the visuals start to subside... The visuals have been the carpet flowing like water, the walls, the floor, the ceiling and books breathing, geometrical patterns spinning in everything... The world perfecting and vibrating, shaking with each slight movement of her head. One great hit took her to another level where SWIM could see individual particles of air floating around in the room. Like someone had taken a hand full of glitter and had blown it into the air! SWIM even hallucinated music! Too much more even for words to explain, and still not in hyperspace!
SWIM was confident and loving the visuals so much last night she just wanted to keep it flowing the way it had been. She loaded another bowl, took that last incredible hit, and was thrown into this vast open plane of "existence"!?! She left her body and was taken to a place she had never been, or somewhere she had always been, she couldn't tell the difference. She was not scared, because in this place there was no fear. No regret... A place where everything made perfect sense... Such as how this plane of existence connected to the physical plane. A place were time didn't exist! Nobody was telling SWIM these things, it was as if she had always known. She felt that she had become reunited with the collective conscious!?! Her physical life and the things she had done, and the people who have been involved in her life all felt like a dream. SWIM felt that this was a place of reflection, where she could think of people she had wronged in her current/last physical life. She felt no ill feelings by these thoughts, only how she could make it better "next time'?!?
Coming back to this reality was a bit of a shock for SWIM. Feeling her body again... Coming to the realization that she was really back. That this life was not just a dream but that it was all real... Floods of emotion swept over her. SWIM grabbed her boyfriends hand just to make sure he was real! SWIM was so happy to be back from what felt like death.
Feeling her hands, her face, hearing her own laughter, her breathing, touching the love of her life all felt like such a gift. She felt like she had been given another chance... She was quickly losing that sense of all knowing that she felt in hyperspace. Things were confusing again... Although confused, she still felt like she touched God. Or became one with God for a brief period of time. Or not time. Whichever one it is since in hyperspace, SWIM feels that time is not relevant.
SWIM looks forward to more trips, but only when she has been able to adequately process this one.
She will keep you posted on her progress!
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