Hello, I found this forum because of a friend and I have to relate my experience to others who are more well-versed in this subject matter.

First I want to say LOVE... We'll get back to that later though.

Two days ago, I had my first DMT experience ever.

Prior to that I'd done a small amount of shrooms twice and have always been a heavy weed smoker. Clearly I didn't have the right psychedelic "training" for this type of journey. But my curiosity for truth in this lifetime has left me questioning all concepts of reality since I was a young teenager. I got into theories about consciousness and third-eye perception rather heavily over the past year or so. I've had friends who've done DMT and told me how life-changing it can be. I felt I needed something to help me re-evaluate and refocus my life.

Boy was this it!

Let's get into the experience.

My (let's just call him) shaman brought this to me for free because he doesn't believe in selling an experience like this, which makes perfect sense to me now. We set the mood (lights dim, mood music, and comfortable seating) although none of that would matter in about 5 minutes. He held the bowl up to my lips and I took that first hit. A bit apprehensive because of my lack of experiences with psychedelics I literally have NO idea what to expect, although it's not like I would've ever known until I did it. He holds the bowl up again after I exhale and I repeat the hold in/exhale for my second hit.

The visuals don't start here, but I just know something is different. He goes to put the bowl up a 3rd time and as I start to inhale he dissolves into a black/dark purple figure and I think "what the fuck have I gotten myself into?"

From there I'm racing past intense light shapes and forms through deep void blackness. I fall deeper and deeper and deeper and deeper still. All hope is lost at this point. I was dying. All the while trying to fight the loss of my reality. I was refusing to let my earthly body and preconceptions go. And as you all know, you CANNOT beat the DMT spirit.

After I came back the only thing I could equate this falling to was to God sitting at a desk trying to write the perfect word but keeps failing and getting more frustrated. I'd write a word, but there was no logic in what I was writing. I also realized I was mad at losing because I somehow just knew I (We) created the program, so why the hell was I losing to it?

I was falling forever, I felt like I invented every language and symbol ever used during human existence. Which made my struggle to find logic that much harder. My friends (and marks on my face) later told me I was fighting this battle in this realm as well, my body was flailing, I was contorting in ways I've never been able to (I'm not flexible and never have been) and hitting my head and hands on walls screaming "I AM (my whole name) AND I WILL BEAT YOU."

All the while not realizing I was fighting this new reality WITH the rush of knowledge that came with being on that side. So all of my attempts to break free from the Spirit of DMT were, looking back, a series of abstract ideas that I couldn't even begin to fathom the complexity of with an earthly mind. At the deepest points, along with fighting the loss of reality AND now visions of negativity from my life (I've had a pretty fucked up life) I begin realizing something. I am god...

This pissed me off to an even higher degree. How could I lose if I am god? (Yes my ego was TOTALLY out of control and I thought I was a pretty humble person up to this point)


I begin angrily screaming "I AM GOD" in my head (and real life according to my clearly shaken sitters) but the more I scream I Am God and realize the knowledge I now have I begin feeling the fear leave. I also realized in this sense I=WE and WE is EVERYTHING. Confidence and power are now rapidly changing my landscape as they grow. That power finally took over when I gave in to the Spirit Molecule and fully believed I had died.

And what a rush of power it was.

But this power wasn't anything like earthly power. It doesn't corrupt because that power I see now was love. At this point I'm taken from the sense of falling into blackness to being suspended in black void which I believe was the center of our third dimension universe. And I am SO fucking (sorry) HAPPY. And I knew everything. But it wasn't like I had to think about it, it was just a constant stream of consciousness and information. I even recall some of the knowledge I believe I had while there. The fact this I knew everything because I was apart of everything gave me power, but that power was LOVE. Love for everything because I was apart of it, and since I was apart of everything my mind was clear and I had no reason to think.

The absence of thoughts was pure bliss.

As I sit in void with no care for leaving, staying, or anything but contentedness in being one with everything, the ohm starts. Low at first but it builds up until it erupts and I scream I AM GOD a final time as the universe manifest from a huge explosion of light. Planets and stars fly in every direction from this explosion, which made no sound but the ohm, and I begin flying full speed towards earth, which I believe was flying forward through time and I feel I met the earth at this point in time. I saw creation to now in the blink of an eye. That's when I snap back into my body sitting on the floor and projectile vomit into my lap as soon as I'm back into my body.

I saw creation.

And I know now that we are all god.

And love is the alpha and omega of every emotion. All emotions stem from love. From fear (lack of love) to happiness (presence of love)

Things I "saw" (I loosely say saw because I didn't actually see these thing, I just knew them while in that state of oneness because I had complete omniscience, briefly.

We created dinosaurs because we were to cocky to make humans first and have a being on earth that could figure out how to traverse that realm

I know Thot "built" the pyramids (either set the plan into motion or did it himself)

And I know the purpose of the spirit known as Jesus. He came to remind us of our consciousness during a very dark time for humanity.

Fucking crazy I know. I don't know if this is considered a breakthrough, but I'm sure you can imagine how much this was to take in for a (essentially) first time psychedelic user.

I loved it though. I also saw visions of my success in what I'm pursuing in life and met people who I used to know and realized they were here to put me on the right path to get to where I've always wanted to be.

This experience was what I needed in my life more than anything. I have always been a pretty dark person, I see now. I've never been a genuine lover but now I understand that all there is is love. And how essential it is to our connection with the universe

DMT took me to hell, then when I finally decided to accept what it had to teach me I was in heaven. And I have faith in a lot more, and realize a lot I thought was important really just isn't. Life is now a beautiful thing. I was able to share my friends first DMT experience the next day and was elated to share such a sacred and life changing experience with someone I LOVE.

We live in a beautiful place and I love you all, thanks for taking the time out to discuss with me.

Amazing report, thanks for sharing!! sounds mindblowing to say the least

Thanks for the replies guys. I was really interested in hearing some thoughts from people more experienced with this type of thing but the length of my story probably scared people away from it. I'm still trying to piece this all together, I just know for some reason my journey felt like a missing piece of the puzzle. The piece and connection to everything.

I can totally relate to the whole love revelation thing. Up until the past few months, when dmt came to me, I was always letting the world get to me. I would think about all the destruction and hate and ignorance, and it would bring me down. I was always so quick to think most people are assholes (many are sadly, but now I see that they just need to see the light within themselves, and they can overcome the battle they're having within). Anyway, I didn't really talk to new people much unless they started the conversation and I was always feeling isolated from the world if that makes sense.

Then after some dmt trips I've realized it too. LOVE! Seriously. Many people would think it's cliche hippie talk, but it's true. Now I try to see the light in things. When I see someone being ignorant, such as throwing a plastic bottle in the trash or just being a jerk to an innocent college professor (happened last week in class), I don't get as mad. I still do, but I realize that they just need to find the love and then they'll realize their mistakes. It's really been a powerful growing process. LOVE

Awesome report!It excites me, knowing that reality of love/oneness etc truly can exist through these gateways. Its always cool to hear someone 'gets it'. I don't understand what it is but something somewhere always rings true about it. It seems all of the hallucinagenics and DMT, have such a profound power in the shaping of our values and conditioning when used correctly.
Kudos to all who do truly try too challenge there identities and belief systems, with whatever route they take.

Thank you for this!


Yes, WE ARE GOD. (the mormons were right!)

We perpetuate this reality because God is singular and a part of (himself?) is lonely as hell, so were essentially a "game" or a "thought" from within this essence. Until you become comfortable dealing with the void, you will be reborn (human or some other form?)


It makes sense, thor built the pyramids with "thors hammer?" ....

Dinosaurs , that makes sense to, they helped fill oil deposits somehow, and acted as "carriers" (think bumble bees) so the earth could evolve better. Plants and whatnot.


Earth is a purification zone, we come here for the ups and downs, the ride. Its fun! (it can be !) Love is the only thing that will set you free. This (we are god) truth is not for everyone. Some cant handle it.

We create our own reality as we go along, and we are far more powerful than we know

Intense