This is long, and I'm sure that by the end you will all feel that I am quite, quite crazy. Please remember that this is my everyday life and that some of these things have been difficult to deal with. Please be patient.
I have some experience pertaining to DMT secretion which has led me to believe that it maybe possible though I am in no way totally convinced.
I have a condition which began about two years ago that causes me to see a kind of visual snow or interference, much like you would see on a badly tuned TV. That isn't to say my vision is bad, in fact over long distances I am able to pick out details that most couldn't. It is however always there and causes the world I perceive to almost vibrate.
I also see other things. A kind of electric field in the sky, bursts of light in the clouds at night, what I can only describe as UFOs and about twenty or more times a day, whenever I look at a digital clock or anywhere there are numbers, the numbers are in some pattern or another. 1234, 1551, 1111, 1221, you get the idea. I know a lot of you feel the so called 11:11 phenomena isn't real, all I can say is I wish I didn't believe in it. For a long time, because of all this I was convinced I was losing my mind.
I once saw a doctor about it, the visual effects that is, I don't really want to get checked into a psyche ward. Whilst he had heard of other people who had the condition he did not know what caused it. He was interested in any drugs I had been using and I told him that I quite regularly use cannabis. He told me to stop to see if that made a difference (it didn't), but that it was most likely a chemical imbalance in my brain.
The first time I tried DMT (quite recently) my visual snow vanished, I was amazed, it was like my eyes had become HD eyes and I had eagle vision. This was the only time that this happened.
Subsequent low dosage DMT experiences have also had an interesting effect on my visual snow. The interference now coalesces into beautiful patterns, and auras around people and some objects. This has made me wonder if perhaps my condition is indeed caused by a chemical imbalance, and that the imbalance is an increase in metabolic DMT.
Since I began my adventures with DMT the odd occurrences have only increased but the visual snow has remained constant. However now, if I concentrate I can create the patterns and auras I see while using DMT although very dimly. I have also been having strange psychic moments with my two year old daughter who I am almost convinced has at times read my mind.
This isn't something I can talk about to anyone apart from my wife in case they think I'm nuts, but it feels good to somehow get it out in the open. A big part of me feels that the most simple explanation is the correct one and there is just something wrong with my eyes and that I am in some way delusional. But there is another part of me that is really excited about Dec 21. Maybe, just maybe the snow will once again coalesce without the strange taste of heavenly vapors filling my lungs.
Changes come.
Keep your dignity.
Take the high road.
Take it like a man.