I will start by saying that this was my first run-in with DMT, let alone any hallucinogenic drug. I have never taken acid or done shrooms (many of my friends have, multiple times), and to be honest, I was pretty ill-informed about what DMT actually was. I have done salvia a handful of times, and I must say that SALVIA IS COMPLETE SHIT. I hated everything about it; most of all, I hated the after feeling, which I can only describe as being cold, hot, wet, and sandy all at the same time for a good hour or two. Other than that, I am a pretty avid ganja smoker.
The very few things I did know about DMT was that is was going to be intense and that I most likely was not going to be able to control it. I always told myself that when the time came for me to take a hallucinogenic, setting would be everything. I didn't want to be in the dark or with random people; essentially, I wanted to be comfortable, more than anything.
Me and two of my really good friends took a walk down to an old sand quarry near my house. In a bag, we had a blanket to lay on (I knew if I got all sandy it would freak me out), some bottles of water to stay hydrated, and a little bit of ganj.
I knew vaporizing it was the best way to go, but I didn't want my only friend with a portable vaporizor (VaporGenie, I highly recommend checking them out) to know about me doing DMT. So our best option was to take my mini bong (only about 6 inches tall) along.
We packed the bong up about halfway with ganj, and the rest with some DMT. I had no idea what was "a lot" or "not so much", but it looked about to be about what you could fit onto the tip of a house key or something like that. Anyways, I of course let my other friend go first (The one who had brought the DMT had done it plenty of times. It was my other friend's first time with DMT, but he had taken acid and shrooms before on multiple occasions), and I watched his reactions.
All he said was that it was pretty intense pretty fast, and he kept laughing and trying to tell us what he was seeing. I knew that when I was to go, I wouldn't want to be talking the whole time or trying to explain what I was seeing, I just wanted it to take me.
The bong was being packed up for me, and I was of course nervous as hell and shaking a bit. I pulled out my iPhone and headphones. I had never "tripped" or anything before (Salvia doesn't count, at least not in my eyes), but I had always envisioned my experience to include music, specifically Anoushka Shankar. So I got myself ready, I had my headphones in, and I started the song Beloved by Anoushka Shankar, which is one of my absolute favories. Right at about a minute ish in, the percussion picks up, and my friend handed me the bong. I laughed to myself, torched the entire bong, and cleared it in one, slow rip.
I passed the bong behind me while I held the smoke in, and as soon as I blew the smoke out it had felt like everything I had ever imagined tripping being like. The music, above anything else, was the best part of the experience. Without it, I felt like I would've gotten lost and not have been so comfortable with the fact that I was now flying through space and time at a million times the speed of light all while comfortably floating on a cloud. The song ended right as I was coming down, slowly bringing me back to my body and back to what I used to know as "reality".
I say that it was an ineffable experience, only because I cannot exactly put into words what I had seen that day. I could sit here and type about it for hours, but it will never do it any justice. All I can say is that I have never seen anything as beautiful as that day. I felt so pure, so enlightened, my open eyes have been opened even further. I get goosebumps just thinking about it, especially if I listen to Beloved by Anoushka Shankar. I have pretty much burned that song and those visuals into my brain.
So, with no prior knowledge of DMT, no prior experiences with hallucinogenics, two really close friends, and a beautiful environment, I had an amazing experience that I will NEVER forget. I told myself beforehand that I was ready; I was ready for a new chapter in my life, well, ready to turn the page, if you will. I can now see that if you are not 100% ready, or are having any second thoughts, you're most likely not ready.
So after talking to many friends, I am dying to know what LSD and shrooms are like, only because I keep hearing that DMT is more intense than either of the two.
DMT made me really sit back and look on what this life of mine is all about. I still don't know much about it, and I have no idea when/if I'll ever need to do it again. My 10 minutes into another realm was enough for me to think about for years. I applaud DMT, it truly is a
beautiful thing.
Do I look like a reasonable man to you, or a peppermint nightmare?