Uhm... yeah... that's almost all I can say

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I'll try and put it into words anyway...
Let me start by saying method of delivery is key.. I've smoked enhanced leaf and bed of bud sandwich and although I thought I broke through, now humbly know otherwise. I quit messing around, built "the machine", bought a milligram scale, decent torch and did things right this time.. holy mother of all that is good and holy!!
So here's the trip report:
Smoked: 25mg in "the machine"
Setting: dimmed lights in my living room, silent, nervous, but excited.. good mood, solo.
First hit, I didn't hold the torch close enough, started getting a pattern in my field of vision, second hit, still a little shy with the flame but enough to kick things off... i shut my eyes and the geometry formed a flighting square "room" that kept forming and reforming, my right eye kept fluttering and every time it did a little light seeped in from a ceiling lamp, and the patterns kept emanating from that point of light and also at the same time flowing and pointing to my mouth.. I think it was telling me not to focus on my breathing so much..strange but no breakthrough.
Round 2: the light was distracting so i got up and turned it off and sat down thinking, there's got to be more left.. so I hit it again, wasn't shy with the torch and whoosh a thick wisp of white vapor and BINGO!
First was the electric vibrating buzz that was coming from a central point of a fractal pattern that got louder and louder and LOUDER.. to the point where I thought I couldn't take it and then boooom, the chaotic storm of dancing helixes and what i think people refer to as the "code" was all around me, time was gone and the intensity of the vision was .. well comprehensible. I was aware enough to keep telling myself, its cool, your good, you'll be back...eventually. It was awesome and overwhelming at the same time.. i sensed the mischievous "elves" behind all what was going on, the "hey look at this and this!" Was there like many have reported, but my god i had no idea!
I had several moments where I felt a primal and direct presence and connection to my 10 month old daughter (who of course was not there).. i truly felt her as part of me and at one point saw an icon of a baby within the code, it was a red outline of a baby and at that very moment the connection was so strong it was eerie, like we were one. The shit storm continued and all of a sudden I became aware of my breath... oh yeah... I'm still breathing, forgot about that.. and slowly things came back...
Crazy, humbled and scrambled... can't wait to ride it again!
As nutty as it was, it did feel ohh so familiar, just like when I've done salvia...like that space has always been there and so have I....
What an amazing and baffling molecule!
You can't do anything about yesterday, but you can do everything with tomorrow.
Everything I write on this forum is pure gibberish and fanciful nonsense!