SWIM still gets tears in his eyes as he recants... the fact that he can bring almost ALL of his experiences back is such an amazing gift from his hyperspace teachers!! he has felt so much love when he breaks through both for and from his teachers....so much...
so, let's us go back in time to yesterday early afternoon. SWIM's set and setting was beautiful as usual and under the tongue goes ,025 THH for 20 minutes. T + 20mins he swishes for 5 more mins and swallows....T + 30 mins he is on his bed with a clearness of intent...surrender....meet all with love....
Breakthrough #1: T + 30mins - beautiful world...so familiar....the folding and opening sacred images and glyphs. as is always the case with THH for SWIM, there are "waves" of intensity where he goes deeper with each wave. now he is in a jungle and a beautiful female energy is all around him, through him, just plain "is" him....he is far gone beyond his body, sense of self...and yet, and yet....there is a gift of some sort of unexplicable awareness that feels like the most righteous union of ego-free self and everythingness...
...and then the monkey shows up....
such a beautiful little creature! friendly, mischievous, loving....a guide...a friend....a protector and a teacher. i love this monkey and he shows me this beautiful jungle within a beautiful drawn coach (wtf??) the message was not really relayed in obvious clarity...simply a feeling of love and beauty beyond description....and...as always..DEEEEEEP gratitude for such gentle wisdom.
the journey lasted about 10 minutes and SWIM was back but in both worlds (as THH has a way of enabling one to be). SWIM was giggling and hugging himself saying over and over again "thank you". this love is so profound. my fellow journeymen (and women) know what i'm talking about...
now here's where SWIM feels SUPER blessed by the spice. in his time working with the sacred spirit molecule, SWIM has become MUCH more easily able to breakthrough on smaller and smaller doses. the THH makes this even more amplified. as well....he can breakthrough MANY times in an hour....no need to wait around to "recharge his tolerance".
T + 45 mins he goes again. one deep lungful and he is blasted back to what could only be described as a crib or bed of sorts. very tall, beautiful clowns are standing over him with long streamers of colored, glyphed material...like kites....they are making butterflies and birds and beautiful shapes purely to lull and soothe SWIM. again, no direct message...simply a feeling of "you are loved. we are here to teach and love you."
obviously much more going on in this breakthrough but for the sake of getting to the "BIGGIE", i'll leave this one as is....
T+ 60 mins he feels so loved and so encouraged that he can't help but feel it to be a sign that they want him to feel safe enough to go further....he takes one ENORMOUS lungful (probably about a .03 hit)...
i'm getting choked up as i recall...
the folding, opening perfect imagery. clowns, elves, glyphs, sacred writing...everything with a border that reminds me of playing cards in a way (clubs, diamonds, spades, hearts) but is a sacred text in an alphabet i don't yet comprehend....it's opening and reopening, folding and collapsing only to open again...the colors are richer than this reality can understand. the predominant hue is a gold.....like the sunlight of gods heart shining on me. and there is no me. i'm am everything. it is beauty that could only be described as "greater than".
SWIM is in a place now that is like a sacred alter. everything has slowed now and suddenly comes to a complete stop. i'm am in all places and all things but i know...in as much as there is an "i" capable of knowing....that i am in "the timeless space". i am going to meet someone. and he appears. a beautiful being. mantid in appearance with such a benevolence....such a loving energy. i am in so much gratitude all i can emit from my being is "thank you...thank you....i love you...".
"in the place where you exist..are there any concerns you have with your physical structure?", it asks....and though i don't really know what a physical structure is in that space...a higher awareness says without words, "my lungs. i worry for the safety of my lungs and heart."
this is where i get emotional- no sooner do i say this...and three of these beautiful beings appear over what i assume to be my "body". they begin to pour light directly into my "chest" cavity. they are healing me. they have come here to "work" on me and heal me.
somehow there is a connection to my body on the bed and it becomes apparent to me in my timeless place that i can breathe better, deeper, more "spiritually" than ever before. they have made me "better". i am grateful beyond words...beyond anything...i am filled with love.
"we are going to create you now", they then say. "who are you?" "what do you stand for?"....and instantly i am shown EVERYTHING that is. EVERYTHING. they are going to reconstruct me and i am to choose FROM EVERYTHING THAT IS, what i am to be. i see darkness. i see.....well....everything....
"I stand for LOVE and LIGHT", i say..and immediately i am filled with both things. again i proclaim "I STAND FOR LOVE AND LIGHT", and again even more is poured into me. ... until...i...AM... LOVE AND LIGHT! it feels....like...being...god....without ego...simply like i was part of something so much greater than myself and yet now i was given a "self" that would best serve this greater energy.
for the next hour, every time SWIM closed his eyes he would see one of his friends and they would tell him, "remember". and he swore he would never forget.....
....he NEVER will.
love and gratitude!
"Rise above the illusion of time and you will have tomorrow's
wisdom today."