I lost my ego. Ever since I felt strange, I don't know how to explain it I just feel like I perceive things differently now in my walking life. It wasn't a bad experience it was just really intense and I'm kind of scared to smoke again. Everybody says they smoke it then they forget about it in 3 days and like just go on with your life normally but I feel like I have seen something I can't forget......!!!! Is that normal does anyone else feel that way?????

I'm really like at a loss for words on how to describe it. All I know is since I have done it I have been in a state of tranquility like my A.D.D. is gone. And I have been reading more than I think I ever have in my life about all kinds of things. I'm just really out of trouble right now to figure out if this is as spiritual experience or if I'm just really high in my subconscious brain is talking to my conscious brain........

I've always heard everyone say smoking DMT is like inducing dreams so a couple of the things that have happened to me when I smoked I looked up in a dream dictionary....

I remember I kept hearing my full name:

To hear your name being called in your dream indicates that you are in touch and in tune with your spirituality. You need to be more aware of your own uniqueness and your individuality. Alternatively,your subconscious may be trying to get your attention about an important message that you are refusing to acknowledge in your waking life
Remember the drug on doing.... in the website that I use to look it up is about dreams and I think that definition is pretty ironic if not anything but just a coincidence still pretty interesting though. I guess the feeling I have if I have to choose words to describe it is that life is meaningless but I understand why it is me

Todays society is what is truly meaningless. An extremely materialistic soulless society.
You may need more visits you might need to approach it with more humility.
I had a trip in my car where i felt like i was at war with my ego/pride with the loss of control and displeasure i had with the nature of the trip and its dark nature.
I can honestly say it was pretty damn scary. But there are many other sides it will show you.
What was the trip like?

I personally had a pretty horrific accidental DMT experience which involved some pretty heavy ego loss, but also one of my very first encounters with mind expansion (LSD and orally consumed THC) which led to a pretty long and loopy experience of "the void" and ego loss.

I found the confrontation of ego loss to be a lot like standing on the edge of a cliff and being told to jump.
You are being told "Do it! just trust me!" but the ego voice in your head is saying "You will die".

Ego is a painful thing, and honestly I believe it's a defence mechanism to protect the physical body and the brain, the brain relies on having a conciousness inside it to function (although it may remain alive without one, it can only do so for a limited amount of time or with assistance and care like hospital). To me, the brain is kinda like the carrot on the end of a stick, the human body exists in a symbiotic relationship with the spirit / soul / consciousness and the brain's means of leading you in the right direction is via delivering emotions and different chemicals which somehow affect the self.

When the ego feels that the consciousness is leaving the body the brain feels threatened and to protect your body it induces feelings of fear (the fear of death) to try and prevent you from leaving it, this is the same way that the ego will reward you when you do something good for your body via means such as dopamine or endorphins.


In all honesty I still to this day feel as if I've opened a door that will now never close, but on the other hand I've experienced something only a handful of select human beings have, so I should feel blessed. And really, psychedelics helped me fight through years and years of depression, an existential crisis and have helped me combat my fear of death.

Irrespective of truth and what will actually happen, I kinda feel that DMT has allowed me to confront death in advance so on one hand, at least I think I know where I'll be going when that day finally comes and I can now live my life without fear and uncertainty.

the ego is a mask. Leave it off

Beautifully said Lithium.

No doubt lithium thanks for that !!!

Especially what you said about being on the edge. It's like you took the words right out of my brain I've been trying to explain that to my girlfriend...... I feel like I'm on the verge of something huge and important. I just feel like their secrets out there That are hidden in plain sight. I feel like I'm on a journey but I don't really know what I'm looking for......... It really just makes me realize how alone we are on this journey through this realm.....!

Good vibes tho!!!

Thanks guys/girls!!!