I'll probably have to do this in a few posts cause my ps3 is stupid .


So I have heard the spice calling me the past couple weeks and I have been ignoring it, but today it demanded my attention somehow. I've had about 5 breakthroughs and they were all awesome. I just tried it in silence for the first time and I heard some crazy sounds.

I remember getting to a place with lots of people, like a gathering of some sort. I remember thinking " i'm home " . Something told me that this was a specific place in hyperspace where not everyone is welcome.

I remember getting there, then its kind of a blur. It seems I interacted with multiple spirits, but it's mostly a blur. The next thing I remember was a feeling of, " sorry, but you have to go now, and we'll be taking your memory of this as well " Then I feel like someone did the thing from the movie Men in Black where they use that memory eraser gizmo. It was a feeling of wherever I was and whatever I experienced was some secret thing that these spirits . . .

. . . spirits wanted to be kept a secret. It still left me glowing and awestruck and amazed. The breakthrough before my last one was almost identical to this experience. I feel like it was such a powerful experience and I don't even know what happened. What I am certain of, I felt like I had finally made it home. But also had the feeling coming out of it that if was allowed to remember where I was, I would spend every waking moment trying to get back there.

All my breakthroughs have been pure bliss, but I still get the fear just thinking about smoking it. Thats why I was ignoring the call for a couple weeks. But right when I got back this time I felt I needed to go again tonight. The only times i've smoked twice in one night was if I chickened out the first time and didn't take enough to break through, but I think I might launch again tonight . . .

WHOA

I expected to be going back to that same place, but it showed me something totally different.

I was everything, I didn't go to a place, there were no spirits, I was flooded with pure being. I remember opening my eyes at one point and didn't recognize my room at all, and then they closed again. I had no control of that though. It seemed like forever but I keep forgetting to look at the time before. When I finally realized I was in my room I heard myself saying " wtf!?" This wasn't filled with pure bliss and wasnt negative either, it just was.

There really are no words that could come close to describing that experience, except WHOA !!!

I almost want to do it again, but I will wait until I hear it calling me again . . .

Ahahahahahhaah! So nice...! You made me laugh. "Sorry, we'll be taking your memory of this as well!" Hahahahaha...

I believe the spiritual beings often know what is best for us, and certainly feel they watch over us. Perhaps you learnt something or saw something that you / we simply are not ready to learn?