My first couple of journeys have been quite interesting and have been nothing like I would have expected.
In my first "breakthrough" (not really sure if it was a breakthrough). I was laying on a stone slab inside of a room, I watched myself separate from my body, then I began tumbling through a room which was almost like a funhouse. The main patterns were black and white checkers that where swirled together a bit later turning into yellow and green. I then became still and was laying horizontal when some type of entity came over me and poured something into my chest. It was like energy water or something. I felt warm and tingly inside and it was awesome. After the "energy water" was poured into me the entity left and I came back to reality.
In my other really strong experience I was let into a room by an entity. This reminded me of the "picture pattern puzzle door" that the shaman talked about in the spirit molecule documentary. The colors were all very solid and bold simple colors that were well defined, mainly yellow, purple, green, red and blue. Once I was led into this room I was shown these crazy symbols, I remember one almost resembling a menorah or a pitchfork of sorts. The groups of symbols were being rotated around in a circular motion, stopping at each one for me to see, almost like a viewmaster stereovision toy for kids. As it ended the door was closed and I came back to reality. There was more to it, but thats what i can remember mainly. It was very interesting to say the least.
In most of my trips it is very calm. I always get the feeling that I have reached the afterlife yet it is never told to me that I am there it is just known. I am never spoken to by any entities. Sometimes they feel almost sinister in a way but I never feel threatened nor are they threatening to me. It seems like they are mainly showing me things. I don't get any of the crazy kaleidoscope fractals that I hear about, mainly just well defined solid colored shapes and symbols that seem detailed yet not at the same time. It is tough to explain.
I hear a lot about people communicating with these entities and of them telling the most crazy insights and impossible information. I have never come across any of this. Am I not breaking through and are these just sub threshold trips? I have heard of a darker side and a lighter side in the world of dmt. Where would you think that my experiences fall into with what I have described?
My experiences have been absolutely fascinating but are nothing like what I was expecting, which I assume is normal for everyone. Would love to hear some thoughts
