Hello everyone! I have enjoyed reading the informative posts and experience reports on the Nexus so far, and thought I'd like to share my first time experience.

Since acquiring some N,N-DMT I've tried a few different methods of vaporizing, and after several attempts I've finally found something that is working for me In my failed attempts I never got anything beyond a body high, ear ringing, and a feeling of drowsiness. The most recent attempt I finally got a step further. It's not my intention to blast off yet, but to just get used to the effects of the DMT first.

After getting the usual body high, couch lock, and ear ringing, there was a rush in my head that came on very quickly after my third hit from the pipe. I closed my eyes and in an instant it felt as if there was this white tunnel. It was something I could feel more than I could see, and right then I started to feel ego loss for the first time, and loss of any sense of time. I felt that if I approached that tunnel I would be there for hours, maybe days. I started to lose sense of who I was, where I was, or what time was. It was a very frightening feeling that I hadn't adjusted to accepting yet. In my loss of sense of time, a part of me was thinking, "I can't go in there! I'll be gone for too long and I have things to do later. I don't know when I'll be back." In reality I had plenty of time, but losing sense of time completely was a very strange feeling.

I still had a sense of "I", but it was fading. I know the golden rules of psychedelics are, "don't panic" and "don't fight it." I don't think I panicked, but I did start to fight it. I opened my eyes. The computer and desk in front of me had an alien, cell-shaded appearance. Colors were more intense. I looked down at my hands and it appeared as though they were covered with these little bright purple fuzzy looking spikes. I was trying to gather information quickly: "who am I?", "what time is it?" As I held my eyes open, the white tunnel feeling drifted away and I started to gain my sense of self back.

As the visuals disappeared, there was a feeling of elation and calmness, and I chuckled a bit. I was glad to return to reality safely.

So I would like to know how this relates to others' experiences here. Is it true that you can feel like you're gone for hours, come back, and find that you were only there for a few minutes? Had I followed that tunnel, would I perhaps have experienced breakthrough? It seems that pre-breakthrough the user still has some control, maybe? And I would guess that beyond that tunnel is where the roller coaster really begins...?

I will add that the time before this I did not get any visuals, but did experience that upward pulling feeling. I did not get that this time, but it's possible I was so overwhelmed I didn't notice. All in all it was an amazing, but brief, experience. I keep thinking about going for it again soon, but not until I feel more ready to accept the possibility of not knowing who I am and losing all concept of time.

Sounds like you were almost there! yes the sense of time slowing always happens to me. It feels like hours, but in earth time it is only a matter of minutes. I just managed to breakthough for the first time last night. Many of my first experiences i didnt breakthrough cause i thought too much, and ended up fighting it with all the "what if's in my mind" Follow that tunnel next time when you reach the end there is nothing but everything. When you enter the tunnel dont think about it. let it take you where it wants to you will not be disappointed. Don't worry you wiil be back in time whatever it is that you need to do!

Thanks for the response. I will keep your words in mind next time I gather the courage for another go at it.

Agree it does sound like you were almost there! I had a similar trip where I was falling into a fractal tunnel of sorts, it began to get intense and I opened my eyes and looked down at my hands which were overlaid in colour, except as I watched my hands and vision dissolved into hyperspace with my eyes open . I suppose that is when I broke through so yes I think there is some control prior but it is lost after that point.

Interestingly I didn't get a sense of time distortion, I get it all the time with LSD but it felt like there was no time to even think about it. I found when I tried to think or make sense of it it created friction whereas when I finally just let it happen it was smooth from there. All the best with future travels I think the two most important things are to let go but also know you will come back safe and sooner than you think!