Let me start by saying I have relatively no experience with drugs, I have had some very intense MDMA experiences, one fairly nice trip on acid and have smoked marijuana, eaten it and consumed it in various different ways. Mephedrome, Cocain, Speed, I have tried at least once on various occasions.

Yesterday I tried DMT, after watching The Spirit Molecule documentary and finding out about the drug severeal years ago, I did a lot of research, asked a lot of people about it, spent a long time trying to 'prepare' myself for what was the most profound, unexplainable experience I have ever had in my life so far.

the DMT we had, had unfortunately been left in a friends pocket over night and melted, we cut up the tinfoil it had been in and put this inside a glass pipe, giving us no clue as to how much of a dose we were taking, as we had a half gram I would assume the squares were somewhere between 50mg and 100mg each.

it was around 9:00pm GMT when we started the trip.

Initially, I smoked a big hit and didn't feel anything or at least didn't get a full on effect so, about 2 minutes later I hit another square and thats when the magic happened.

What I saw can only be described as reality breaking apart around me, we had some reggae playing in the background, the room literally fell apart, my friends disppeared, my body vanished, every kind of possible shape, colour, form, object, whatever they were I cannot even begin to describe in words, I saw shapes and colour I never thought could possibly exist, sounds I had never heard before, I was flying faster and faster into a vortex.

I thought for a brief second I had died and had to remind myself to breathe, I saw green and yellow computer mesh like infrastructure, like I could see the very fabric holding the room together, particles and stars, galaxies all over the room, light flowing in every possible direction, through me, through the couch I was laid on.

The trip then intensified, it felt like the universe was teaching me a lesson of how little I actually knew, was began as bliss became terror, absolute undescribable terror, as if the universe was saying 'Oh you think you know something? Have some of this and then tell me what you know'

I saw a multi coloured flowing woman? Man? entity? whatever it was, it was grinning and laughing at me, poking fun, the entity put it's hand inside it's mouth and I saw it spiraling in on itself, again and again and again, the entity just laughed more and danced around me. I heard screams and laughter, like the sounds of a billion souls crying out in pain, I knew at this point I was only terrified because I could not even begin to rationalise what I was seeing.

I realised I needed to find myself, find who I was and tell myself I can return at any time, I felt like I had been here before a billion trillion times, it felt like home, I felt my grandmother and all the people I had loved and lost then I felt it all at once, like an orgasm of indescribable magnitude. Time had stopped being relavent, it felt like I'd been in whatever place it was for a thousand years, still the laughter but it stopped being scary and became bliss. Instead of running in fear I embraced it and fell futher into the vortex.

After what seemed like an age reality started coming back together and I realised I could walk again, I could see my hands and my body, still flowing with light and energy, I turned on the light in the room and suddenly normality slammed back to earth, I could still see sacred geometry all around me in the walls, the ceiling, the floor but it gradually faded away.

I have concluded from this experience, that I was naive, I thought I knew something about the universe and what was, but nothing could have prepared me for that.

My addiction to cigarettes has almost vanished, I got home and hugged my brother, hugged my mother and hugged my friends before leaving, telling them I loved all of them, we are one, I am you, you are me, we are all together.

Honestly, there is so much I have missed in writing this experience but I have typed down as much as I possibly can remember or recall from it, it was a lesson for me and for me only, to learn to live a less selfish life and love unconditonally.

Happy for you,MysticO ! I consider you very lucky to achieve a real breackthrougth in the first atempt... I been making a lot of research and trying to learn as much as possible about DMT in the last year. Finnaly I extract succefully some Spice from MHRB and vap it about 10 times ...but universe don´t open to me yet....I´ll kept trying!!

PD In fact I gona load my pipe in a few minutes and try to launch again.... Cheers !!!

Awesome first post!

It must have been quite an amazing experience for your first time, have you integrated the things that you learnt into your daily life?

Also what was your setting? I have yet to delve into DMT, but i am feeling more than ever that i need to do it.

yeeeessss....incredible and ....how to say? TOTALNESS (does this word exist? I don´t know ) Its a real medicine to the one´s soul. All my efforts till this sacred moment have worth!! Happy to,in some way,share it with you MysticO. It was beautiful and healing. I vap 40 mg. Before that I seek a state of deep meditation.The deeper as I could. I also did some Reiki to my loaded pipe....Before ignite it I made a quik mental chek-list about the vap tek (remenber saying to myself---retain the smoke as much as you can--)and then...just happen. I beguin to feel the same feelings I had in my previous failed attempts ...same sounds (carrier wave?) and same CEV´s ..But then I feel something different , myself floating in a calm sea, with an indescribable sense of onesness. Everything comes very fast and is not easy for me to remember,but now I Know I can improve my trips...I also feel I lose my fear,the fear of the unknown,the fear of open a closed door.Although I've been in the hyperspace twice with 5-meo-DMT (sintetic one) I had the most profound desire of breakthrough on DMT,because I consider Spice to be more natural ,a gift from this beautiful world.After the coming down I feel in my soul and in my body a glorius sense of bless. I don´t regret,in fact I´m proud, to be in this path that life has show me . Thanks all of you Nexians, because you were and are an important part of these sublime experiences,I couldn't reach much of this without your help. Today,I began to wake-up. Cheers!!


PD .I will post this in the DMT Experiences threds too
PD 2: Excuse my limitated english....I´m expanding it!!!

Thank you guys, all of this means alot, I'm still coming to terms with it all and i've already applied so much of it to my life, I went to the pub this afternoon and actually stood with other people who were smoking, I even had a drink, my physical self wanted a smoke but the spiritual self or something else just said no, this is coming from trying so hard to quit smoking for years and years but I just don't feel like I need it anymore, I can't explain it.

The setting I was in, was my friends front room, honestly I don't think I could have changed the setting or prepared for anything like what that was, it was beyond comprehension, time, anything I have ever experienced... It might sound stupid but one question I was asked after was 'Did you ever realise how brave you are?' my answer was no.. I never realised how brave I was or how terrifying anything could be, there was a point where I wanted to scream out to make it stop, it was beyond horrifying, then I found peace.. I didn't seek it, I just told myself I could return and find the light, I still don't know.. it's so indescribable I can't even begin to rationalise it, so many things that once seemed important to me are now irrelavent.. even being a grammar nazi! it doesn't matter hahaha

I can honestly say I felt all the fear ride out of me, some fear still exists but I feel it's a fear of the unknown more than a fear of the self or fear of failure, it's made me appreciate how beautiful and simple life actually is, I never want to forget this place or the people I've met, I love each and everyone one of you, in whatever way you affect my life.

So you know, 5-MeO DMT has been found endogenously in humans in addition to DMT.

I knew that,but the 5-meo-DMT I get by now is a synthetic one and I was wishing to try a natural tryptamine....some day the stars will find me milking a toad in the Sonoran desert!!