I first began to toke last night. I had never attempted psychedelics before. Dmt was the first and possibly only that I will ever consume, aside from herb. I had waited for 7 months before trying dmt. I cannot make it myself due to my living arrangements. It would be nothing but irresponsible to make this substance at my current residence. My friend managed to obtain some and we began to try it out. I knew that this was not a party “drug”. I was anxious because I wanted to explore myself and the world in a different perspective.
I've always been interested in the truth of this world. I had done extensive research on Dimitri before I was given this opportunity. As the first few tokes happened, I began to feel different. It was as if my body felt heavy and more full. I then felt one with everything. I felt enlightened in a sense. The words I spoke then were, “I feel like a God”.
Slowly, my vision began to change. I closed my eyes and then I saw a figure standing before me. It looked upon me with interest. I thought, “You know my plight”. “Please show me what I seek.” It took me. It ripped me out of my body and showed me something that I know so little about. I cannot explain it. As I began to go, I saw god. I saw a man blocking my path; behind him stood a god. He/She/It had no form, but at the same time, it held a consistent form. It existed within this strange realm that I was now in. It had the chest of knowledge. This is what I shall refer to it as. It was a solid white/gray chest that seemed enormous when comparing it to myself or the being that had ripped me from my body, but this “God” was even bigger.
This chest seemed to possess all knowledge within it. This is what I believe at least. I saw energy, knowledge, or something magnificent flow back into the chest as it closed. In front of this chest, stood the man that blocked my path. He seemed as if he were nothing more than the bodyguard of this entity. I feel as if I took some knowledge. I felt as if I were imparted with some knowledge from this being. This being is what we would call Mother-Nature. It was all soothing colors; Green, red, yellow. As I saw this being, it began to impart upon me the knowledge I have talked about. This “God” showed me the chest. It showed me everything I sought.
Of course, they knew I craved the knowledge that they possessed. I won’t let my desire for this knowledge drive me though. I won’t waste my life seeking only that. I believe this is what they wanted to show me based on what I saw. Live and be and you will learn all that they already know. This all occurred when I looked up and into the ceiling lights. My eyes were closed when this occurred. When this god left, I saw “energy?” Flow through and into the chest.
It was gone. What was left was a world of dark and blue. I saw a face that showed great interest in me. Contoured and created of nothing but flames. It was composed of black and blue. It felt extremely different from the other beings. It seemed like the opposite of them. Positive, negative, and neutral; These were all personified in the experience of this trip. I was neutral. Positive was shown through the form of the universe, a.k.a God. Negative was shown in this face of flames . This was all I saw before I began to come back to this realm of being.
I hope to come back once I have progressed in my journey of life. I feel as if I have gained so much. I think that the strangest occurrence was the fact that I felt like a God. I felt as if I were one? with the universe and all creation but something even more than that. It was the greatest(so far) experience of my life. As I come down, I realize there is something more to this earthly realm. There is another world. One we are limited on and cannot even fathom. It was truly unexplainable!
As a side note: These beings seemed corporeal. They existed in a form, but it was if they had no complete form. They would weave in and out of an outline-like body. I know that I did not have a complete breakthrough, but one day I hope to. It might also be important to note that these beings made me think of elves even if they had no true form as we know it.
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