Hi
I just recently did ayahuasca for the first time with one of my friends he was looking over me during the trip, since he had done this before more then once I felt more comfortable having someone around to relate to if anything got out of hand (luckly for me it didn't: ).He gave me 10g of the brew in a shot glass and advised me this was a strong dose, having somewhat of a understanding of psychedelics and I have read a lot of books on shamans and the spirit world and recently this really useful forum that I felt confident enough on what I was about to embark. I did the diet I didn't eat anything at least 5hours before the trip restrain myself from any sexual intercourse (I did my homework to the best of my knowledge). I was serious about this and my friend told me to do a log for him to read and for me to remember, but I decided instead to post it here as before my experience I was reading a lot of first time experience but not a lot on ayahuasca so here's mine what I remember and in the hope to get some input as well as certain stuff I don't know what to make of it
i took the brew cold around 09:30pm about five minute after i took the brew my stomach as quick as a reflex started to purge (I almost missed the bucket) removing my headache that was starting to build up in a migraine instantly. My friend thinking this was to fast decide to give me another 5g diluted in warm water with instruction to slowly sip if my body tell me no more to stop so I proceeded to sip the brew for the next half hour. 3/4 down I had difficulty moving in sync with my body as it was getting heavier or more like I was in a dream. While I was awake my friend said he was going to step outside for a smoke I felt ok enough to follow him outside. When outside I purged once more but this time the effect where kicking in and I saw a really evil face in the puke puddle outside on my deck that I recognized even if this was my first time seeing it. I went back inside to lay down and closed my eyes at first his green like bubble was visible in the top left corner of my left eye then more colours were being seen it the bubble as it was expanding overwhelming me inside it my head was no longer attach to my neck like i could look in any direction making 360 degree rotation in all direction then detail get hazy. Like a dream but different I saw colours shapes but not overwhelming all over the place, plants appearing and dissolving, there was light that were hitting these crystals and making rainbows sort a like the pink floyd album. Then a huge tentacle busted out of the darkness where I was with the crystal it has huge like 25 story high not sure if it was from a squid the kraken or giant octopus as I couldn't see from were it was coming from but it was going for me I wast terrified by it more mesmerized by it as this was the most realistic vision I was getting so far its suction cups were pulsing and then my friend call me back and I open my eyes he check to see if I was ok then I closed my head again the tentacle was gone I was in a area that what felt like a waiting room for the spirit world with colours flying around and different vision all over the place as what I can describe as tiny bubbles like toys for kids at the dentist office I was getting the same feeling that that what they are, my friend spoke to me again asking what I was seeing I told him without opening my eyes this time that there wasn't much or something within those lines he then told me to try to with will of thought to navigate and to indicate my intention for this journey like before I took the brew. Before I took the brew my intention where to learn and explore and to improve myself within those same intention I requested with what I remember a humble request to be guided in this journey seeking my spiritual guide in a way I was afraid to be to demanding not wanting to bother them then a tunnel made out of clay sort a was brownish red and could see details of what seem like dirt lifting me up I told my friend and told me it was a good sign then after I only remember glims, like a room with candy pink and white boards with no celling with what looked like a chair that a cat was sitting on trying to complete the back board of the chair on all sides but every time it would complete all sides the first side that was compete in his sequence would erase making him trap in a loop in time and I watch him for what seems like years doing this wandering what he was trying to accomplish I then noticed I was in this loop with the cat and it stop and I felt dragged again this time while I was transported I was admiring the views of colours and then I looked at my right I saw a huge crimson red dragon that I was riding on his shoulder he looked terrifying but once again I felt no anger coming from him he just looked terrifying but then again that comes with being a dragon. he took me to a floating medieval castle that was floating we were coming from under the castle and through it was shining a really bright light that was shining from behind that almost made the castle impossible to see I wanted to go there but all I got was a voice that said not today and proceed away from the castle. I ended up in a really gray gloomy room with a samurai that was meditating with his katana in front of him I tried to interact with him but he was ignoring me this was another really realistic room no weird design or colours and pattern it almost felt real after I saw a girl in the same room or area with black hair covering her face and wearing a white robe without the evil from the ringu girl then I was lying down with her still there and hands came from everywhere they were trying to climb over me witch at first I wasn't willing but decided to let it happened as once again I wasn't scared. As they climbed over me they started to try to cover me and I could hear them saying this spot is still not covered quick we have to make sure its all covered after covering all I remember was a discussion with the same entitie that I'm not sure who it was I'm assuming it was the mother spirit speaking to me I don't remember the details of the discussion except that this was a test and I had to learn to be more grateful with life and what I had and what i was experiencing at the moment. During this trip me friend brougth me back a few times to check on me sometime I would just answer him sometimes I would open my eyes when I would I felt like I was back in a dream, like reality and dream had been switched i would follow him outside for a smoke which I couldn't do despite the lack of trying like it wouldn't allow me to completely inhale my cigarette during that time (they where scatter around the trip I just don't remember when what happen before which vision) while outside I kept seeing foreign language appearing in the cracks of my wall but the moment I would try to stare at them it would vanish also I was seeing a monk silhouette with a blue vertical bar on his forehead the rest being black like someone watching over me. Also I could see 15 seconds in the future almost I would see my friend 15 sec were he would be then vanish and I would see him walk were I saw him vanish like a was seeing ahead of the flow of time there is more but i cant remember at this moment.
Well that was my first experience with ayahuasca I loved the experience but I don't recommend for anyone to take this lightly as its pretty much like I just opened pandoras box in my mind and all the good came with the bad and since then I keep on feeling like i have a foot in both area incapable of returning completely back I don't mind it its just weird not sure if normal my friend says it is and did warn me about it. Hope you enjoy my first post feed back is appreciated to make me understand the vision im still pondering them in my mind to make sure i understand the full message and this was my first breakthrough experience and it can make you feel kinda crazy and can be alone if you cant relate to anyone else so sorry for long post and sorry for english its not my first language
Sketchman