i have been an avid psychedelic user for a couple years now, but my first loves are LSD and DMT, respectively. the first time i ever smoked dmt was in my car, parked in an empty cornfield with windmills surrounding me on the side of the highway in Iowa back to Minnesota.
my friends helped me vaporize it for my first time, i ignorantly vaped 110mg of 5-MEO-DMT my first time and had an extremely intense trip. after the first toke my vision was absolutely dominated by these vivid, BRIGHT white diagonal lines, like an astronomical rose trellice. i took four total tokes, despite not being able to see what was in front of my face, and on the last toke i literally left my body. my soul (atman) floated upwards out of the car, parallel with the windshield, and slowly turned around and i saw my body sprawled awkwardly in the driver's seat with my friends looking over at me intently. i slowly turned around and i looked up at the sky. this was so real, i could perceive wind and hear the soft chir chir of the windmills.
i was semi-alarmed but i didn't feel human, so i wasn't able to cognitively perceive alarm or fear, but my attention was taken to a portion of the sky, where it started warping open and i perceive a slight bulge in the blackness and sensed that something was coming. when it came back i snapped back to my body as if by a rubber band and an entity came in the car with me. he was in my face, and he was made out of color. his eyes were right in front of me, like the most vivid points of light and focus you could ever imagine.
i started screaming , i had never hallucinated except once before in my life , and this to this day was the most extreme 'hallucination' i could ever imagine. i contend to this day that what i met and saw was real in some otherworldly sense. he was speaking to me in my head, but it wasn't LANGUAGE, it was like he was jacked into the communication neurons in my mind and my brain was interpreting the information like a computer. it was something about like 'i'm here, i'm here and don't doubt it. don't play me off, you need to know this is possible. look at me, i'm right here'. and i was sobbing and crying and he was very stern and unremitting.
i sobbed and cried for the next hour of the drive, i tear up to this day when i remember it, but it was so incredible, and so spiritual. it changed my life forever, i quit the military right after i joined a few weeks after this experience, and never looked back. it moved my soul, my subtle wind now engages different aspects of reality. i love it, and i love this community, thank you for reading.