I honestly don't know why but I'm a bit afraid of going back into hyperspace. I've been fighting with my mind about it for a few days now. i even bought a pipe and have over a gram of freebase. I've blasted over 100 times and it's ironic to be afraid of something I've done so many times. Is the pleasure gone? What's the purpose. Everytime I go I am fascinated by the experience but it seems so jumbled up and rapid that it's hard to break down to interpret. Any suggestions?

Everyone comes back to the same thing. MAOI... It is supposed to relax you and then when you travel it slows things down and makes it more soft on you.
I have never tried it, but others sware by it...!

Another one is deep breathing meditation. There are tricks to meditate too.

Others say its your time when you feel right. It boils down to you and what you feel. Goodluck! We all have that worry hesitation though. Its like the plung in to the unknown. Almost like a cliff jump that you never get used to, it is always hard to take the leap. But maybe once you are off the cliff, it feels fantastic!

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My spice travel is slim to none as of now. Just one warp that sent me in to a room with a broken toy or something and every time I tried to put it back together it would break again. Maybe that toy was me, I was worried. I said "oh great, now my brain is broken. What is my family going to think. I am a vegetable now!". I guess it was a loop. I felt a bit mocked at, at the time. 10 mins of this was enough! But it was very warming and when I awoke from my open eyes exp. Warm vibrating headphones that I was holding in my hands (from ripping them off and clutching on to them during the trip).

The other thing I just thought of. Oral consumption. Pharma? You might try that!

Oh I would love to try oral. I don't know much about boiling down vines and MAOI inhibitors though. i might mess myself up. I wonder if you can use the MAOI's the doctors prescribe? I heard that they intensify mushrooms to almost doublw potency also. I have some I'm saving for a rainy day. i just always work and can never fing the right time to consume them. I need to research more on the MAOI's. i heard you have to be careful of foods consumed. Thanks for the input.

There is a lot of info in the "wiki" of nexus. Check it out. You might see what you are looking for.

I think you can do the oral thing with MHRB and MAOI. As for the food thing. Just dont eat when taking it. Pretty simple. But there are a bunch of things you can eat if you need to. Oral and food dont mix anyways, you might purge it out. Just give like 4 hours of no food. Have water only when food cravings happen. Some people might fast the whole day. Not quite sure on the fasting thing though. Wiki and listen to others in here. There is also a section with ayahuasca brew and different combos in making it.

Another thing is do mushrooms (or acid) and mid way through(this peak), then do DMT fb. It will most likely be easier to smoke it because you are high on shrooms and it will be more like you are willing to open up to the next level DMT will bring. Like a path you are on and you are welcoming it to send you to the moon jet speed!

Suck it up!!

Just do it!!

If you need to gain a bit of courage.........try taking a smaller dose to start, ie. 10-15mg...

That will usually eradicate my fears and apprehension....

Then its off to other worlds...........

Anxiety is not a bad thing, appreciate it for what it is. It's just you give the respect to the spice that it is due. It's the ego fearing its own death, and you just meditate which helps you detach from the ego and have a blast!

Everything you describe is completely normal with DMT

ayahuasca

also, low doses of 10x caapi changa help you to ease into the smoked experience again when you're getting some anxiety (which is entirely normal)..try a joint of this stuff. instead of accelerating to 10,000MPH in a split second (as it is with inhaling a breakthrough dose in one or two hits), you accelerate they're gradually and the whiplash isn't nearly as bad

Here's a pretty in depth thread about Pre-flight anxiety that may help

Pre-Dose Anxiety is so OverPowering!

Hmmm maybe its time for you to rethink your reasons for doing this..

Like a new strategy plan to focus on..

I only say this because you said "hundreds of times" which made me think...