This journey I decided to double my usual dose of x20 extract,I thought I would be able to clear it all in one shot but after taking the biggest puff of salvia to date there was an ember burning in the pipe and some salvia burning on one side of the bowl.So I just held the first one as long as I could and hit it again surely clearing it this time.Just before letting out the smoke from the second puff I could feel the salvia coming on.
Now I know in my mind that pipe is surely empty but as I let out the smoke from that last puff
I look down at the pipe in my hand and it is full of smoke.The salvia is coming on strong now
so I hit the pipe two more times and it was still full and I started laughing and tossed the pipe aside.
My trips always bring me to the same place when I first launch.I have the feeling that I died and everything is in black and white,mostly white plastic and checkered.Everything turning into blocks or columns.These are my usual open eyed visuals.And the overwhelming feeling everything is fake and I may be the only thing that is real. Its easy for me to get stuck in that space so I made sure this trip would be with closed eyes.
All the while I am reminding myself this is just the way salvia is, trying not to lose my identity for as long as possible.Once my eyes were closed I made it to another space complete with entities.This space also felt fake and I still had a feeling that I died.So feeling bold I just started asking questions and ranting.
Me"Oh so its this again everything is fake and im dead?Really you dont have anything new to show me?"
Some of the entities started laughing at me saying "look he thinks he is dead again,he dont know who he is.Who are you?".
By this time I still had a sense of identity but couldnt remember my name.I tried to say "I am.....and everytime I would try to get a mental image of myself,I would split into 4 or more beings and I didnt know which one I was.I made it simple for me and just said "I am god."The beings agreed and were happy that I understood.
But I didnt understand how all that could work so I started asking myself alot of deep questions about what was before god and the universe or was there a before all that?I kept on pushing with all these questions until I myself somehow got out of all reality.I was bodyless in a void and reality was a red orb with slices in it directly in front of me.These slices were of different realities and I was desperately trying to get back into any of the realities I could,at this point I didnt even care if I went to the right one.
When I was in the void I tried to breathe but couldnt, tried to turn around but there was nowhere to turn even tried to die I managed to melt myself but I still existed.
I watched how the orb was spinning and moving and managed to get it to slow down enough to get a good look at the slices.I got into a few of the slices but they would dissolve.Then I noticed some little people living on one of the slices they recognized me and were trying to help me return.I asked "how do I get back?"They told me "dont worry about what you learned just be you".I wasnt sure how but he helped me make it back into the reality orb.
At some point during this journey one of the entities gave me a gift one that I have only received from DMT it touched my soul and I seen a blue/white light and it was amazing.
This was by far the best salvia trip I have ever had.