kinda long sorry! but please help!
So for the longest time now I have been wanting to break through on dmt. Multiple times I have extracted my own freebase crystals, and that waxy dmt acetate extracted using orange oil. Also I have tried other people's who have tried to blast me off. So far no success, and recently I am starting to feel like it will never happen.
I have tried 25mg,50mg,75mg,125,150,200mg recently I used about 100mg of some beautiful white crystals mixed with changa I had already made. It never looked so good!
Here is my latest trip report.
Setting: Bathroom, pitch black with blankets and pillows lying in my tub listening to a very peaceful solar quest song.
*also had a really close friend as a sitter outside the bathroom just incase I called for help. So I felt very Safe.
mindset: I was ready. I am not scared, and welcomed it with no doubts letting go and smiling. I also did about 20 minutes of meditating before hand so I was completely relaxed.
experience: I take my first hit, then my second (definitively coming in fast I feel it immediately) then my third hit, my fourth hit(why am I still here) I still just see blackness, but that lovely smell of dmt is everywhere now and I can barely hold the bowl. I hit it maybe 3 or 4 more times and I finally start getting some visuals. I could vaguely see patterns like Egyptian or something. I was still aware of my body and the bathroom, still able to move my foot and such. I felt like I was in a cathedral or something, but it was just soo...vague, I couldn't really see anything. No colors, just slight strands of light forming shapes that I could barely see. After I realized it wasn't going anywhere I was quick to hit the bowl again...and again to the point where I had to put it down. and just kinda of watch those patterns. I was suprised there was soooo much left and I have hit it constantly...eventually I just got up and turned on the lights. I felt amazing and yes i noticed things looked different and were breathing and such, but for the most part the same.
I tried once more in a room that had dim lights so I could still see. Same thing happened, except this time I felt like the message was getting to me that it did not want me to experience dmt breakthrough by a short 10 minute smoke, but instead through ayahuasca. Is it this maybe?
I have given some of the same batch to my girlfriend and she broke through crying of happiness, flying through a jungle full of color and love with all sorts of animals, swimming in the ocean underwater with the fish and traveling with lions for what she felt as 5 lifetimes of her own. She cryed and cryed of pure love she smiled and was telling me about how everything was soooo beautiful. And she only took 3 hits...I am so happy she had such an amazing experience but why am I left in the dark? with vague shapes I can't really see and no color or anything.
I ask for help, any advice ? I am not sure what to do I know not to burn and torch the dmt of course. I have tried using a vapor genie as well a bong, and a bowl. I feel like I have tried everything. I feel that now maybe I should just skip smoking and go straight to ayahuasca? any advice helps

Thanks for reading.