I have had many a journeys with my friend Dmt. Some good, some bad, some amazing and some terrifying. Nothing could have prepared me for what I just experienced this evening. I loaded up a 25mg dose into the gvg and proceeded to meditate and attempt to clear my head of the burdens of daily life. After nearly a half hour of meditating I was ready and cleared the 25mg in one hit. Within ten seconds I was being loaded into a cannon by entities and being blasted out of the cannon at light speed.
I hear a sound.. BANG!! All of a sudden I am sitting in a dark room of purple and brown energy sources swirling in from the outside towards me, over me and through me at the same time. I can no longer see entities but I can feel the presence of them. I suddenly get the urge to do something I have never done in any of times I tripped. I through my hands in the air straight above my head and looked up in a motion I can only describe as totally and completely alien. It actually creeps me out kinda thinking about it now. When I looked up I could see a beautiful blue female energy source but not a solid figure.
I looked up into the vast blue worm hole of infinite love and could feel the energy flowing at great speed from above down into my Crown Chakra all the way down through the rest of the Chakras. As I looked up and saw my hands they appeared elongated and as a silouette. I could feel the energy that is flowing through my body with my hands as I reach above into the energy source. The feeling is very similar to a magnetic field. If you have ever tried to force two magnets together on the opposite poles you know what I am talking about. I was completely humbled by the power and sheer love being cast down upon me.
So incredibly taken by the experience was I, that I started saying I love you.. I love you, I love you, I love you. The energy replied and shared my sentiments. "Don't go!" I said.. "Don't go, I don't want you to leave yet!!"... Shouting as tears are running from my eyes. I know the trip is coming to an end soon. I reach out one last time. "Take me with you, I am ready to come back home now!" - I said.. "You are not ready yet!" - it replied. "The time is drawing near, hold strong for I am always here"! - it said as I lost final contact and began my journey back to my bed where I lay.
This is by far the single most profound experience I have had with DMT yet. I can't say really what happened with 100% certainty but I believe I may have had contact with my higher being. It's also just as possible that I just smoked some dmt and nothing happened outside of my personal conciousness.. Aside from the active imagination ones mind can create that is. I put this experience in First steps because I feel like I have just had my first experience all over again.
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"I was going to make a machine, but after reading here in the Nexus, everyone makes it sound like trying to smoke spice without a VG is like trying to have sex without fully formed genitals..." -- Pup Tentacle.
**Believe this guy at your own risk**