Lately Ive been feeling as if Ive been in a rut. Hours have been getting cut and this has been stressing me out to the point where Ive been blowing up in my own way. Ive been expressing this by doing everything that Is expected of me but being a little antisocial towards the chefs that I work under.Ive been wanting to dose the past few weeks but have not been able to muster up the balls to do so.

Today I decided that I needed to try and climb out of this rut with a little help. I went down to the local bong shop and got a gromit becuase I decided I wanted to make an oil burner bong. roughly 50mgs was loaded into the oil burner and melted. this song --> http://youtu.be/YV4TqLXkLRk was played and I started to milk the oil burner. The bong wasnt effiecient as I had hoped and I was only able to vape about half of the bowl before the bong was filled. I inhaled and held it in for as long as I could, as I went for the second hit, I was greatly feeling the effects but decided to keep going anyway.

Halfway through the second rip I notcied that I was lighting the oil burner and there was nothing left so I placed the pipe down. My head began to rush with a million questions, and thoughts. Thoughts and choices I have had/made in my life. I began to notice a giant geometric flower pulsating around me and the questions were still non stop. My question is...why is this internal dialogue stil there.

Ive smoked yellow 10-15 times before but usually this internal dialogue is overtaken by the carrier wave. the past two times I tries blasting off there was still internal dialogue , why?

I have not had this "thinking to myself" yet.

have you tried the sandwich method with your new bong? oil burners are hard to master.