Just wanted to say hey. I'm relatively new to dmt and recently extracted for personal use in order to travel well, into the abyssal frontier of dimensionless space, that is consciousness, where anything is possible. To boldly go where no man has gone before,Star Trek style. I first really became interested in trying dmt after watching the film Enter The Void.
A few months later, my close friend met someone who introduced dmt to him, and after hearing what he experienced, I decided it was time to mine for spice. Before that I never really took the time to do the proper research, despite knowing about it and what tryptamines are, and the profound experiences that they are associated with, i.e. Ibogaine and Ayahuasca. I am a Biochem major with some lab experience, so the extraction was actually almost as fun as using. Almost, but not really. I also feel fortunate to have found a great mhrb vendor. I used the stb tek, which included the Na2CO3 polar wash and MgSO4 to dry it.
I have only done it twice, and may of had a "semi breakthrough" trip on the second try. I had moments of being completely dissolved in hyperspace, but then would open my eyes and realize that I'm still me, and my ego would shake me for a few milliseconds and then I'd get lost again, sometimes into a void, where I couldn't even integrate or process what I was experiencing. I saw double helix's that looked like DNA, with what appeared to be codons along the steps of the ladder, like you'd see in a cell bio textbook.
I've been too scared to take a really big hit and hold it in until forgetting I blew it out, which would happen if only I'd held it in a little longer. I almost feel like I'm not pure enough to fully enjoy it, since I'm so out of touch with my spiritual side. I'm self-centered and too attached to the material world, but am starting to realize I'm just part of a greater collective, of some sort of profound universal type of energy field that is affecting other fields that we have no idea about.
Any advice on how to let go, for a more peaceful trip?