I always considered myself open minded and "experienced". Followed the dead a little bit, explored mushrooms, lsd, grew my own ganga, try not to squish bugs if I can avoid it etc...
Then one day my oldest daughter has a friend over and I can't remember the conversation but I was asked if I'd ever heard of DMT. Nope, what's that. He takes out his phone and plays a video of Joe Rogan (I know, but we all get introduced somehow, and basically I like Joe, what I know of him at least...anyway...) talking about dmt. I was extremely curious from that moment on and started searching...searching..searching...first Erowid then something by Entropymancer...then a link here...then hours and hours and hours and hours of reading reading thinking reading days turned into weeks of learning into months constantly processing information and reading your stories and wisdom here then it was time (thank you again Noman and Entropymancer) So much magick to follow those words....

Then the night before last. My mind was ready to accept and I asked for permission to be shown. I sat myself down gathered up my things. The Mullien leaf i had chosen for these reasons...first someone here suggested it, secondly my learning led me to this

I felt that would be right for me.

I took my GVG (Also a suggestion from here that I cannot say enough times how good a desicion that advice was to follow, not hard to learn to use at all. Six screens and a bed of Mullien..... followed too the advice to get the blazer micro torch indeed another purchase well worth the cost...as an aside, the hard case for a mere 20 more was an investment you cannot go wrong with, it is a top notch case. I will never regret the money spent with those folks. They are first rate and ship out FAST. My 2 cents, get the little poker thing they sell too. Very handy and slick in it's own right.)so...
I took out my GVG and put a little bed of the mullien in the bowl piece and measured out 35mg spice put the ceramic cover on and went to my living room, sat on my favorite spot, took a few deep breaths, cleared my mind as best I could and asked for permission to be shown one more time. Trying to remember all the proper steps I did a litlle 4 second preheat blew out and put the flame back to the ceramic a few cm away per instructions and went for it.

I remember watching the GVG for a second thinking "am I going to see smoke" when poof there it was so I started to really get excited but nervous after hearing how harsh and plasticky it was going to taste. I was way surprised how pleasant it actually was once it was inside me. I had absolutely no idea what to expect so when that little 'shift' started to occur and the noise started that hum or whatever I was thinking here it comes and then there was before me like 4 or 6 pipes and hands and I blew out this massive hit. I was trying TRYING to remember I had to take another so I did and things were getting really different now I was really excited at all this change occuring I wasn't scared at all I was just welcoming it all in. I am sure I didn't hold the second hit as long as I wanted too. But I was starting to feel real funny and happy and then I remembered I was supposed to put the Genie down so as not to break it and then BLASTOFF! I was seeing things I am still trying to wrap my head around, those beautiful entities being near you those patterns, colors morphing changing breathing communicating definitely where I was supposed to be right then. I am sure I didn't at the time realize there was an entity like force near me until now reflecting on it, (after last nights venture more below) I was utterly amazed during those moments at the energy I was part of, feeling, near and then all too soon the journey home began. Very pleasant and interesting on its own. I do remember at one point when I was really travelling it did get briefly worrysome but I remembered to tell myself to go with it and would be over soon. With that self advice I was in a good space again and able to take it in in wonderment and not fear. I sat there a few minutes as they went by realizing where I had just been and when I felt in control of my extremities I got up went up stairs and told my girlfriend what a beautiful place I'd just gone. When she aked me to explain it I tried but feeble were my words compared to what I had been shown. I settled on telling her best I could but also told her I am pretty sure there are no human words that can convey.

The rest of the night I was in blissful bewilderment.

Then came last night. My eldest daughter wanted to see what someone looked like while traveling and volunteered to sit with me. I was a bit nervous of having company but once again the most magickal things happened and this is where I first was aware of an entity which led me to realize a presence had been near me on my first journey. Similar to the night before, prepared the mullien, 38mg and cleared my mind best I could, was able to take and hold 2 good hits, remembered to take the third but it was really coming on strong then, put the Genie down, blastoff. Images like never before seen by mind and a peaceful sort of what I percieved to be a female almost gesturing to an I don't know what of light and colors and vibrations and feelings, very good. Very similar duration and then after words I got to spend some time with my daughters, extremely enlightening.

When they went to bed and an hour or so had passed I decided to go again, getting more comfortable with the process I felt as though I was invited back again and went for another travel that was as interesting and mind blowing as the others maybe a wee bit more so. The rest of the details are I'm sure similar to everyone elses no real need to go into them as well here.

It was then I decided to wait another hour and go again. I felt like I was asking for permission to the right energy and was being granted with enthusiasm so as the hour passed and I put the mullien in I decided for a 50mg. Another one of the better choices I think I have been part of. The communication I felt and the number of varied energies or entities I interacted with on this journey were mind expanding. I felt welcomed and shown so many inexplicable things and felt so for lack of a better human word blessed to be given this time with them. I actually feel as though they were glad I was there and were studying me as well. The things I saw the machines or whatever those things are that we see were this time the most brilliant and baffling things I have ever encountered. So mystified and happy to be there seeing these things I was being shown, these feelings I was being given this acceptance and maybe this is weird but praise and gratitude too? Thats how it felt at least and still feels now after much reflection. How lucky are we mortals to be shown this?

How lucky am I to have all go so well and easy on this journey of finding and bringing forth the information and tools to go? How fortunate to blast off first try and subsequents? And have such a welcoming feeling...so much curiosity from me about them and them about me? I feel extremely fortunate to be gifted this by all of you and all of them. I fell extremely fortunate for the gifts this world has given me in my children and their health and happiness and the journey I've been allowed to have here on this spinning rock we call home. Tonight I will visit them again I hope if allowed.

Apologies for my random wording and poor story telling skills. My typing skils lack and I think way way faster than I can type, It's hard to keep the congruency of thought going with the picking of keys...

I hope the day has been kind to you and yours,
ray

Welcome to the Nexus!

Your typing skills are just fine Thanks for sharing some of the path that lead you hear and your first attempts with spice! Im glad its working well so far!

Are you considering doing oral DMT/ayahuasca too?

Is your daughter thinking of partaking this substance too?

Very nice report. Welcome to the nexus.

If I can offer a small suggestion, I think you'll find even better results if instead of using the leaf as a bed, you enhance it 1:1. It's a perfect carrier and works like a charm, every single time.

Try it without the leaf as well, with a disc of copper scrubber. Also very, very efficient if you follow Gibran2's specs. Because there's no inert material, your hits are completely concentrated. This means fewer lungfuls to clear the same amount. Fewer lungfuls mean your dose is breaking the blood brain barrier in a shorter amount of time, which results in more powerful breakthroughs.

In any case, I'm happy for you. This is a privilege indeed. Be forewarned though - if you continue on, you're almost certain to hit stormy seas eventually. It gets weirder as you go, and when it gets rough, you'd be amazed at how rough it can be.

I want a father like you!

I actually want to give my father DMT but he would be so shocked that I'm doing drugs that it's not worth it....

I want to give my father DMT, but I think he'll be so shocked, his heart will give out

I would give my father DMT, but I never had one!

It may sound goofy but I'm stoked to be part of the forum...lurked for so long reading everything I could get my eyes to take in never felt the need to ask a question because it seems that all of mine thus far have already been answered somewhere so just looking kept them showing up.

Last nights travel was even more comfortable and relaxed. Pre launch jitters were minimum the first and I had such a good time, second launch I sat for a good bit trying to be as humble as I could and felt like I was asking if it was ok to go again, felt like it was so wooosh. Absolutely mind bending.

The whole time during extraction it felt mysterious and wonderous, never having done anything like that. It just sorta flowed along like a gentle creek with no worries. No problems were encountered and it just worked. Was wondering why some run into snags, or don't actually follow the advice gifted here and strike out doing something they amalgamated from different sources. I guess it's the curious nature of humans.

Thanks for posing questions I'll try to answer them here:


Oral DMT/ayahuasca? Yes to both. Time permiting I will (I learned one thing as a medic, right now is what you have, the next minute, or second, maybe, but no guarantees, right?)
I was reading about the brew a little and am very interested in the oral injestion. I know with ganga consumables always just laid me out. I know it's not any correlation at all, and from what I've read it seems that I would be most happy with that route. Thank you for suggesting it.

My daughter is very intrigued by the spice. She was flat out scared about it before she watched. She told me it was actually really mellow to observe and that she wanted to laugh because I was smiling so much when I was 'not there'. She actually told me she could tell when I wasn't there anymore. I tried descibing what I saw / was seeing to her as I became more lucid and that made her giggle too.



I will search how to enhance the leaf today as well as getting a copper scrubber. Your advice makes really good sense.

Hopefully any rough seas can be calmed by my mantra, if not, well maybe I can be thankful it's a short ride? That may just be positive thinking on my behalf. But i hope that's how it pans out.

For the father comments, Thank you. I have always tried to be completely open and most importantly truthful with my children about all things. No santa clause or easter bunny lies, no little lies always telling them to be above all honest, they may still get in trouble but it will always be worse when lying is involved, you have to live with that guilt and the bond of trust being broken. I know I don't always necessarily get the whole truth but the relationship that has fostered with my kids even as they reached adulthood is really cool. There was never any like punishment for coming home puking drunk (which seriously only happened once or twice per kid) that hangover the next day and me laughing about it was more than enough to foster some responsibility. Plus i liked to take a picture of them on the bathroom floor passed out vomit in the can and show it to literally everybody I could with them standing next to me of course. I would randomly bust out the "family pictures" they would have the most embarassed look! That to me was what it was all about. I won't always be there to say NO, you have to make your own desicions I told them. I also think that demystified the whole drug scene to them so they weren't the kids that were having to go get blasted in defiance of their parents.

Hope y'all are having a good weekend, be careful, there's many unwise folks imbibing today and getting behind the wheel.

(edited to remove swim references, apologies, newbie mistake)

Welcome Rabies70
We have a lot in common, although im still on the reading learning stage.
Amazing to be able to share with your kids ! (errr maybe !!)

Had my kids late, I'll be 70 before my eldest is 22.

but i am happy to adopt Global, Autumnsphere.

Happy travels.

You sound like a cool guy Rabies70. I look forward to hearing more from you when you've got some new experiences under your belt.

Gowpen, I'm happy to be adopted

How old is your daughter? Just curious. I have a 19 yr old daughter but don't believe she has ever experimented with anything, as far as substances are concerned. I, on the other hand, started taking acid when I was 12......

Whoa! 12! How did that go?

I have a 3-year old son... Was just reading Strassman's book who's saying that kids born with a Cesarean have a harder time letting go on DMT. He was born with a C-section so this made me kinda sad... Although I'm not planning on taking him out in the wild any time soon, haha... You know there are 6-year olds in some of those aya rituals? Crazy... But I guess THEY will be more familiar with hyperspace... Sometimes I think this is where babies still are! Envy them, haha. I guess when he's 18 I'll take him on a trip with me. Will be fun!

My daughter is 19. She is experienced too. Mushrooms, LSD, doesn't care for ganja, another daughter does but isn't going to experience for a while. My adult sons are all experienced, but I'm not sure if they know of the spirit molecue yet. They live in other states and it hasn't come up in conversation, but thank you for reminding me, it will soon. She wants to meditate on it for a bit but is very excited about the wonders y'all have brought to us.

So many c sections so doctors didn't have to miss their tee times....so sad. Mind over matter though right?

Oops forgot, ganja, mushrooms and lsd came into my world when I was 14. 42 now. The years are just whizing by....

Uncle Knucles, The advice to try a copper scrubber disc and spice by itself was followed tonight. Best and most intense breakthrough yet. Just came back a bit ago. I thought the earlier journeys were wild but this last one....no words for this yet, but for very very good. Y'all have made this journey so much more fun. Much thanks.

So awesome.

By the way, it's not just the copper. You just start to understand hyperspace, to navigate through it better with time. But yeah, you're a brave one, Ray! Respect.

It's the copper.

Well done, rabies. You are certainly diving in head first.