Ok first thing I would like to make known is that this is referring to a trip I took via LSD, I know this section is made for DMT experiences but being a new member this is the only page I'm able to post where I felt this topic would fit. Anyways, at the time in my life that this occurred, I was taking LSD often, and was loving where it was taking me. I obtained 9 hits of blotter paper, 3 of which I gave to friends. As for the other 6, I took them all at once. I wasn't aware until the next day that this was supposedly the most potent LSD to hit my town in 3 years. An hour had passed by and the effects were becoming more than present. It started with the admiration of the night sky, stars, and universe with a friend. We had a deep discussion and things seemed to be going great as they always had, seeing as I had never had what most would call a bad trip before. We then went inside into a small room with a few other people, two of which were not under the effects of psychedelics. I sat in the bed admiring the swirling wallpaper and whatnot. At this point my girlfriend made a comment that shifted everything for me. She had never tripped and didn't understand the seed she had just planted. What she said was " I really wish you would have saved me some, whatever, I'm going outside, have fun." As I began rapidly ascending into a stronger trip, my mind sat on what she had said, and it brought upon feelings of uneasiness and worry. At this point I laid on my back and my ascension became descension, everyone left the room but me, and I was in the dark. Every bad emotion and feeling that a human can have punched me in the face at once, I had never felt so bad. Depression, pain, worry, worthlessness, and others, were overwhelming me. At this point I was curled up in the corner of the bed clinging to a pillow. People came in to check on me and as they stood and looked at me, though with good intention, I felt like a spectacle. I began to feel like a small animal in a cage being looked upon by much larger beings, I was afraid and nervous. I laid on my back. Someone at this point tried to lift me up by my arms, though they successfully lifted me, it felt to me like I was still lying down, and when they let go of me, the fall to the bed felt more like the bed dropped out from under me. I began falling... For 4 hours I fell through darkness, among me were the most horrifying things I had ever seen. I decided at this point, the LSD had killed me and I was descending into hell. I also decided my life had bren simular to the truman show, but worse, that my whole life was a movie for other peoples amusement, noone ever loved or cared about me, I was meaningless.... And dead. After 4 hours of sheer hell. I started being aware of my actual surroundings again. Everyone hovered over me and I heard talk of possibly calling am ambulance for me, which manifested into me hallucinating an EMT hovering over me, I looked down and my chest was open, I could see my heart. I blinked again and it was gone. I was back in reality, just half spun out, and I heard my friends mom saying to call an ambulance. I shot upright and, unable to talk, frantically shook my head no. Everyone asked "are you ok!?" I shook my head yes and motioned for a cigarette, my girlfriend was crying, holding onto me for dear life. As I came back into reality, I still couldn't speak. Finally I said one word "water." At this point I decided that even though it was the worst thing I had ever sent through, that it wasnt a bad trip, but just another experience that I made it through. I felt like, and still feel like, that I know what it is like to die. Anyways, I hope this dovumentation is found to be interesting to those who take the time to read it. Thank you. Peace Love and Happy Travels.

Sounds like quite an evening

i feel the moral of your story is always save your girlfriend a couple of tabs

Welcome thEorEtical and thank you for the nice write up

I respect your attitude towards the experience, not everyone would have interpret it in the same way.

Thank you for the kind words Dante. I was a little scared initially coming out of it, bit i just decided i would grow from it, just another experience to look back on.

Glad you made it and decided to heal your mind instead of damaging it like most get from these experiences. Good vibes your way man kudos too you.

Thank you d.rey, and good vibes to you as well =]

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A paragraph or two would have helped, but yes, I share your fervour for such experiences.

The first real LSD trip was bad for me. I had one other trip that was bunk (tab and a half). This one was different. My friend gave me two sugar cubes with liquid LSD on them. I tripped hard for 8 hours. Thousands of screaming demon faces where everywhere. On the stucco ceiling, the woodgrain cabinets, when I closed my eyes, outside on the trees. I thought everyone was plotting to kill me. Then we went to a friends house to watch some porn (big mistake) and The Shining (really big mistake). Right when I thought I couldn't maintain anymore, my conscious was floating through space. I was surrounded by stars. "This is what insanity must feel like?", I thought. Luckily my friend tapped me and asked if I was ok. That brought me back to my body.

It took all my strength not to become a drooling mental patient and to not let anyone know how close to the edge I was. I didn't want anyone to push me over (which i'm sure somebody would of tried).

So I feel you on the bad trip man. I haven't touched LSD since.

Wow thats one Hell of a story, pun intended I have never had an experience like that. I can't help but be reminded of a few times when I was tripping on mushrooms and things started to go bad then I stopped judging or attaching meaning to what was happening, Although I have never had such an overwhelming onslaught of negative emotions come over me. It's very noble and interesting how you look back at that experience, go you man, why be haunted by the experience, I would undoubtably prefer to be amazed and astonished by something so profound instead of being wounded by it. You have an amazing capability and insight, I only hope I can do as you have done if I ever encounter an experience like that in my journeys!!!!!!!!!!!! Amazing

Haha this exact thing happened to me about 5 years ago, when I was totally inexperienced and took mushrooms, and then ruined them with a silly huge line of ketamine. Fell into a grim hole of woe for many hours. I thought the world was ending.

Since then Ive never really had a bad trip though! Not to anywhere near the same extent anyway (yea there have been bewildering/sometimes terrifying DMT and Ayahuasca experiences, but that is to be expected ). Maybe that was just a kind of initiation. who knows...

Even went to a hospital last year, on my own, while tripping hard on acid, by accident. Was totally fine. Actually made the waiting room pretty interesting. 'What doesnt kill you makes, you stronger' (or various other cliches). It's true. Keeping your head in such situations takes some practice . Not that I'd do it next time I have to go to the hospital...

And yea, the moral of your story could be to share your stuff. But you know that anyway. These things happen for a reason I reckon.

Peace!

PS. Cheers for reminding me of my past experience that I can now reminisce about fondly

Looking back on the experience, knowing what I know now... I believe that what I experienced was raw ego death... And at that age with that mindset, i just wasn't ready for it, and I had never heard of it.


I appreciate everyone's positive feedback and encouragement though. Peace Love and Happy Travels.

These trips are the best man! This is pure purging - it happens only when you stare into the abyss.

I keep quoting this but:

"There is no coming to consciousness without pain. People will do anything, no matter how absurd, in order to avoid facing their own soul. One does not become enlightened by imagining figures of light, but by making the darkness conscious."
- Carl Jung

That's a pretty insightful quote autumn. I appreciate you sharing that with me.