Hi, it's my first post of sharing experiences and doubts.
I am a person always involved in art, in philosophy, in science, I am a singer, songwriter, but before all a person who needs to know, to open the curtains of what we call reality and maybe is different from what we think it is.
I tried to approach to DMT with knowledge and respect, and had some experiences. Some many many months ago, but I wasted it all (almost) smoking with a glass bubble kind of vaporizer, except a strange trip where I finally went to a place with people speaking to me and a very loud mechanical sound all everywhere.
This time I had a little 250mg batch of yellow DMT. After a few tests, I decided to smoke it with my vaporization device, it's like this (nt really this model but an analogous one):
http://www.vaporizer-sho...zeD2ZFqw/06294_400_2.jpgI thought it would work, it has no fire, it works by convection and with herbs is really great. I took more or less 60 mg, the temperature was 235°C, late at night (to be more relaxed and not far from sleep), on the bed. First experience with this device was really mindblowing: first it was like the reality cristallized into another, a little mechanical, I don't know how to explain, everything in the dark was painted with bright colours, babbleing in my ear like they came from hilarious alien gods (it's the closest word to what I felt, all segmented and broken, and then whirling mandalas and fractals (with some "stargate" experiences), and then a blank landscape, with me thinking (i remember it clearly) "Oh, so dying is like this", and all considered a frightening and "dark" experience, until I landed again on my bed.
The other night, after a few days of meditation, study in this site, but also of hard application on my work (I am finishing my studies at the university) and at the gym, I decided I wanted to try another breakthrough (or find that the first time it was not a breakthrough). I began with a lower dose to see what would happen, and then I increased the dose. But I think doses were too low: after the recrystallization moment (it's the only way I could describe it) all melted in a space of mental loops and deja vus, like I was OUT of time, and I thought "I am a dying person who lives again some moments of his life", but I found it pretty dissociative, and not DMT-like, or at least different from what I thought to find. The doses were about 30-50 mg each, I think it was too low, right? It is all I can remember, but it seemed endless...
I don't know when and IF I can experience it again, my batch is over and now I won't have any occasion to have some maybe for years, but in case, you more experienced travellers have some advices for me? bigger doses, different device, lower temperature, etc... I made long puffs that I held in my lungs etc, I don't have problems with this.
One thing is great: it filled me with positive energy, and it's like it wiped away a bit of my selfdestructive attitude, but I feel way far from what I need to know.
Thanks for all.