hey everyone...
i am just going to share some experiences i have had with the use of entheogens:
i have only had one trip that i was not prepared for and that was the first time i tripped which was on liquid acid and so i will start there:
my cousin the age of 16 had just died of cancer and his brother and i were seeking some answers and so acid was decided to explore...i had just watched the first matrix movie and the ideas in that movie were still floating around in my head (probably not the best time for me to have tried it)...i pretty much experienced my own version of that movie...as the acid kicked in i went through an "ego" death experience where who i thought i was before pretty much melted and a new ego arose to replace it (it was not a nice feeling, it was way to much to take in and so all i could do was surrender to it and well die)...i remember this surge of kundalini energy going up my spine like one of those things you hit at the fair with a sledge hammer to win a prize...as the energy reached the top of my head the bell well off and i saw a brilliant white light...i remember going in and out of my body at times and then watching my life on the television as i was reviewing it...i was given the whole red pill, blue pill option afterwards and i chose that i did not want to remember what i had just experienced...i know a lot more happened than what i am writing...the details are kinda fuzzy now...i don't even like thinking about it as it took a couple of years to feel somewhat like myself again....one positive thing from this first experience was that i learned how powerful each thought really is and what it feels like to be a creator/destroyer...luckily i came across the Ra and seth material shortly after this experience which helped me immensely in my recovery and understanding of what had happened...it definitely got me seeking for some for answers you could say...i didn't do acid again for 7 years and i guess acid is just not for me as the experience again was not that great...the coming down on acid is just not a good time for me
i was 18 when i tried the liquid acid (i'm 29 now) and like 3 years later i decided to go on a pilgrimage to peru which included a week in the amazon with some ayahuasca sessions led by a local shaman singing his icaros...i feel like whatever i experienced on acid was completely healed with the help of ayahuasca...to be honest it was the most amazing and most revealing experience of my life...the ayahuasca visions started off with a blackhole forming in from of me and then kinda engulfing me...my eyes were closed at the time and then thousands of these beautiful devas started dancing in an interconnected egyptian dance that filled my entire vision...i watched this beautiful swastika dance for some time until it eventually faded and was replaced by something that i will never forget...i opened my eyes and looked at my twinkling golden light body and i could see an entire universe inside of me with bright white swirling galaxies and golden liquid light flowing in between all the galaxies that were making up my body....i was lying down next to a lady and we were like snuggled against each other and i could see the golden light flowing between our bodies which were both microcosms and then the golden light would come out the top of our heads like a fountain and gently fall back down to our feet like rain...a neverending torus of golden liquid light which also felt quite electric in nature
alex gray has a painting that is pretty close to the vision i saw while on ayahuasca:
now i forgot to mention that for the half hour prior to all the visions starting in the ayahuasca session i went through a full scale forgiving process of my life and everyone in it which made me feel very clean and pure and ready for what was ahead
alrite so that is basically what i got from ayahuasca...i have tried it back at home in the states with a couple friends since that time but it was nothing like being in the jungle with an experienced shaman to guide the trip...i do plan on going back to peru and exploring those realms a little deeper
i guess magic mushrooms would be next on the list...i have done mushrooms about a dozen times and i have always had a good time on them...language gets really silly and all i want to do is laugh and listen to/make music...i like how they come in waves and so you get little breaks within the trip...i usually eat them at music festivals as i find those environments to be complimentary to the magic mushrooms
3 summers ago at a festival i experienced my first drum circle while on shrooms...this is the second most amazing and revealing experience of my life...at the time i had a ruptured eardrum and the pain was getting quite intense as the swelling was moving down my cheek...my friends and i decided to lay down next to a drumming circle that that we had heard in the distance and then followed...i got so into the rhythm that my entire body started to tingle and vibrate at a higher rate...the air around us became charged and it felt like electric rain drops were falling on me again...i got on to my knees and put my ear onto mother earth and starting swaying back and forth to the beat and the pain was literally sucked out of me and all the pressure released and my ear was spontaneously healed back to normal...i was so thankful for the circle of people that were drumming...i have never felt such gratitude in my life...a circle full of smiles, i have never felt so much at home here on earth...after the drumming stopped i got up still vibrating at a very high rate and i started to spin...the spinning led me to this vortex in the earth where i could feel the energy going into the ground...at this point i was not making choices but being led by some higher power...i received these thoughts telling me to get 4 other people and connect hands around the vortex forming a pentagon and so i did and then we started to spin around...we got spinning really fast to the point that i thought we were about to take off in orbit so we stopped...after that i walked by some people and i would get pulled to certain individuals like i was a magnet and like we were meant to talk to each other about what just happened as if they had the next piece to the puzzle...i get pulled to this one guy and he immediately says my full name and i'm like "how'd you know that" and he's like "i don't know"...so yeah telepathy can be a little weird but that was basically the gist of that story...
peace,
mikey