So im not too sure where im going with this , lets see :

We all have fluctuations in our levels of inspiration, rates of thought and levels of daily ponderance/contemplation.
Sometimes they are sky high, and we feel like we are making progress in our "expansion of consciousness" or whatever it is that you've titled what could simply be called life.

And sometimes it hits rock bottom , and you realize what it must be like to be stupid(assuming im not normally? ), wandering around with no thoughts flowing, without feeling inspired i suppose. What makes it worst when , is when you cant explain why.
I think its often caused by not knowing what you want to answer,or do.

And call me an escapist, but psycho actives can be a welcome break from this, a catalyst for thought and change . Stasis shattering stimulus.

But last time I did some (mescaline) i spent the whole trip being blown away ,in a sensory manner, but the confusion was so much so that cognition just dropped off, and i could squeeze one thought out, of any significance , nothing profound, nothing enlightening

Now look ,im not saying i think universal wisdom is held inside a cactus but ive come to expect more than what i got last time.

I spent the day and a half afterwards still just confused, and trying to decipher what had happened, and where it had gone to.
I then vocalized it will a friend ,and that helped a bit.

I didnt come to a conclusion, but one thought i had was , maybe i cant go there (into wonderland) to get thinking done , i can go there to get stimulus and come out with it, and use that up in the sober world. Like i go in to get food, but cant eat it in there, i have to bring it out amd snack on it over the next couple of weeks



There's no question in there really, but i was just wondering if you have the same dillema , or just have any comments. I wanna hear anytihng u have to say

If you read all of that , thanks so much

something which may relate

last cactus experience was staunch - twas about a week or 2 ago.
it put me down - for 12 hours streight - flatout defrag - almost meaningless - but it was good for me
a friend applied to much of himself and crap he has read to the experience - he fscked out a bit
another friend - same view as me - loved it
another - plain defrag and he was happy.

not a normal experience at all - like vague with no direction - i couldnt even talk or anything - utterly useless.

im 100% happy about it tho - i am stronger and better because of it.
i know each time is 100% different to the last

I don't think you have to necessarily learn anything useful in the real world from every psychedelic experience. I've used psychedelics specifically before to solve problems and sometimes it flows sometimes it doesn't.