Difficult Changa Journey

I smoked some changa in the bath yesterday and I experienced quite a difficult experience... I was approached by this entity for the earth, there was this beautiful rainbow interwoven tapestry (The fabric of life and reality) dancing before my eyes. The entity showed me all the pain and suffering our earth is being bombarded by day in and day out, feeling this amount of pain and destruction was intensely difficult for me. Tears rolled down my cheeks as it was all too much to bear, I had immense feelings of guilt pour over me as I am not in the front lines of environmental protection making a powerful impact and bringing about change in a meaningful way.

It is something that I feel I was born to do, my life purpose. When I was six years old I was going to my mom and telling her that I want to save the whales from the whalers who are slaughtering them and that I need to go and protect the amazon rainforest from the people who are destroying one of the most biodiverse places on our planet.

This message of being a warrior for the earth has been communicated to me many times, I'm in a bit of a rock and a hard place as I want to change things in the world with all my heart but for some reason I'm only getting opportunities with small environmental organisations that aren't willing or wanting to really go out there and make a real difference.

Changa is amazing and truly beautiful, I am eternally grateful for the opportunity to be able to work with such a precious entheogen. Sadly each day that goes by, species are being wiped out and environmental ecosystems completely destroyed and my heart grows more and more heart sore with each passing day...


Much Peace and Compassion

It makes my heart swell too Aegle.

Thank you for sharing.

Dimitrius

No worries, maybe if there are enough heart swells we can create a heart wave to crash over society and bring about true change...


Much Peace and Understanding

I think these experiences are difficult but perhaps very good to go through in the long run.

I'm sure we have all experienced the feeling of being connected to the earth, the feeling of a more symbiotic relationship with the earth, the relationship is already symbiotic in an unbalanced way, but balance seems to be something that naturally happens by itself, there's not much to 'do' about it, i find it happens naturally with the correct perspective, as when you are fully aware of something you feel it & experience it,then action naturally responds by itself.

Don't kick yourself for not being so active trying to save the world, finding peace in yourself can also be just as potent at changing the environment. Beings that find peace in themselves radiate it to all around them and live in that fully symbiotic relationship with everything, including the wars, pollution etc, which allows a deeper healing of it. I find if you make peace with it then there is less resistance & you can see that everything is simply balancing by itself naturally, you can become aware of the harmony within the chaos and the more you see the harmony, the more you are a kind of conductor for that harmony.

I feel like any powerful realization stays with your mind/body and radiates itself to all those around you without you even being conscious of it, some minds will be closed off from it, kinda 'calcified' in a way, but some will absorb the presence of that realization & it will seep into their minds & they may realize the same thing through a reosnance, so it spreads by itself... i wouldn't give yourself a heavy job to carry out just yet, the experience of realization has taken place and the winds of that will naturally carry you onwards & upwards...

Well said Chronic.

Chronic

Thank you for your more than kind words and sound advice i greatly appreciate it. So true i need to work on finding peace within myself, its just difficult sometimes as i have always been really sensitive and i find it hard to deal with all the suffering and pain in the world. Especially when it involves the destruction of whole ecosystems and the complete decimation of so many species.

I'm planning on going on a retreat of 10 days of silence and hopefully during the retreat ill be able to find some peace within myself. Indeed we learn so much from our difficult entheogen experiences, i am deeply grateful to be able to experience such journeys as they do make me stronger within my core and far more aware of the true nature of things. Awareness is key...


Much Peace and Sunshine

Changa can reveal things that you think you should be doing in your subconscious, in a similar way to how dreams can.

I had a sub breakthrough experience last night that gave me a sense of loss, or guilt at not seeking and following through on my lifes purpose. The experience stripped away some of the bullshit I have surrounded myself with to create the illusion of success. It was not a particularly strong experience which I'm glad about, as it wasn't exactly pleasant.

You're lucky if you know what your calling is. I have no idea. I think so long as you are following that calling with all your heart, you should feel no guilt about not being successful. I hope things work out better for you in the future.

1664

Indeed changa has an incredible ability to bring out deep thoughts and meaning within ones life, changa has reaffirmed my life purpose intensely... I think we all have a gift to give to the world, i hope that you discover your life's purpose. I'm sure you will when the time is right though, as life has an uncanny synchronicity when it comes to the timing of realisations. Why thank you, though i find i learn so much from my difficult experiences. Also thank you for sharing your sub breakthrough experience, i wish you peaceful journeys my friend.


Much Peace and Happiness

this is one of my favorite trip reports...

This trip report was reposted with permission on
http://changaevolution.b...p/bioassys-of-note.html

Thank you Aegle!