Thanks for the kind notes
You should see a film called "Raw For Life", they give you all the information on how healthy it is to live on a raw, vegan diet, it actually can cure diabetes in many cases! I work in a produce department so I am sure where all of my food is coming from and I always buy the local stuff when I can (it tastes SO much better). I get to take home the free, outdated salads and the like as well- pretty good deal for a vegan!
I'm trying celibacy for a change and by no means do I want (at least at this stage) to do this indefinitely, it's a temporary experiment unless it develops into something deeper. I wanted to make the change because I know my past habit (based on environment and choice) of objectifying and dehumanizing women into some sexual material is gravely incorrect. How can I come to an overstanding of the human being if I am viewing one half as an object of sexual gratification? I've seen some good results in my behaviour and thoughts and have been watching and analyzing for signs of damage.
I overstand that to suppress a feeling only serves to strengthen it, so I am not dogmatically celibate. I'm just sort of "sex fasting" as a detox from old bad behaviours and an attitude that MUST be done away with. I really appreciate getting your perspective on the issue though, I usually can't see all facets of a subject myself so some input from others is highly valued. Thanks.
These recent self improvements have all been a move to balance, I am striving to balance the triad of mind/body/soul as best I can. I've been optimizing myself because I overstand change must come from within and my outer state was a mirror image of my inner soul-sickness. I guess I should have spoken in my intro about the intense anxiety and depression issues I struggled with during high school. I was quite violent and did terrible things, unthinkable to who I am now. That was a good lesson on how circumstance can shape a mind and make a person do things utterly inconceivable. Marijuana was the biggest help to me, it gave me a lift that I could not see to provide for myself. Presently, due to my increased awareness and effort these problems are almost completely dealt with. When I was ready, my teachers appeared
I'd like to go to Mexico next winter for an Iboga ceremony that I'm hoping will wash away the vestigial anxiety and intermittent depression I still medicate when necessary. I believe in cures, not medicine whenever possible- so that's the plan.
I have big plans to help and heal the planet and it's sentient denizens, but I must first be healed myself to be a healer
Thanks for the attention amigo!
I'll throw in some interests in this intro too, been a while since I've done one, but I feel like it's nice to get yourself under the magnifying glass
I love: photography, writing, learning, being OUTside, creating culture, observing culture, cultivating life (vivaria, plants), psychonautics, thinking, and other things of this nature.
"Without change, something sleeps inside us and seldom awakens. The sleeper must awaken." ~Duke Leto Atreides
Yet, all is ever well.
"People are really doing the best they can, given their level of awareness." ~Deepak Chopra