This forum is exactly what I am looking for. I have so many questions, I am a fairly new traveler and need a community like this to help me along my journeys!

I am very new to dmt, although I have been smoking it for over a year. I find the only time I have ever had enough courage to actually try and break through is when on MDMA. I respect dmt enormously, I'm not scared of it but I completely respect it's power.

MDMA puts me in the perfect mindset, the only time I feel enough courage to take on an experience like this. I have never experienced something so beautiful in my entire life. I was literally in tears after my first real experience.

I have never been so thankful, the love I felt was unexplainable. I have so many questions.

Every experience I've had, I've never lost my sense of self. I am always completely aware of who I am and able to think very clearly. I always smoke alone in complete darkness listening to OTT - Queen of All Everything blasting as loud as possible in my ears. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HnhuZ_p-dbQ

I've done this 3 times now, every time I was on MDMA. I've tried smoking completely sober and I just can't do it. I have so much fear, I just don't have the courage.

I have so many questions and would love to share my experiences with the community. I still can not believe what I have experienced. I have never been so thankful in my entire life.

I am very happy I have found the nexus.

Welcome to the Nexus!

When we refer to our level of existence and in subjects such as extractions and ways of using dmt and related substances, this community is indeed very special for helping us answering our questions and devising ways of answering questions we cant yet. But one thing you'll find is that when it comes to deeper questions regarding the dmt experience, there are always more questions coming up than questions answered. Thats part of its beauty, the whole mistery behind the experiences, how absurd and metaphysically challenging, and any attempt to answer or explain is incredibly poor compared to the phenomenon itself.

Regarding not having the courage to smoke DMT, thats a pretty common feeling. Many talk about the "pre-flight anxiety" or similar. To a certain level thats very good, it shows respect, and it makes you be more prudent about using it, not smoking in bad setting or similar.

Its also in a way interesting because we humans do give more value for harder things, for things we have to work for. So the fact that one has to have a very strong mind set and dedication to keep hitting that pipe or bong again and again even when the world is already all transformed around you, until you really breakthrough and you're no longer yourself and have no idea that you are a person that just smoked dmt. I think a propper vaporization method (such as GVG and torch lighter) will make all the difference in the world in helping you reach that breakthrough stage too.

The transformation from being straight to hyperspace with smoked dmt is very abrupt. I've found that smoked dmt + harmalas (or smoking towards the end of an oral dmt+maois experience),or low-mid dose of mushrooms and smoking dmt post-peak can help a lot with making the transition smoother, the comedown longer and easier to integrate the experience. With mushrooms Ive found there is a specially amazing synergy.

By the way, I suggest trying sometime to smoke it in full silence. Ive often had VERY strong sounds, as important as the visuals themselves in the experience.

Anyways, hope to hear more from you in the future. Do check the links in the welcome pm you received, if you havent yet, there are links to very important resources here in the nexus where a lot of your potential questions can be answered. Cheers

Welcome to the Nexus! As always, endlessness has offered some excellent points and advice.

SWIM receives some of the most beautiful music she has ever heard, during her breakthroughs. She's planning on trying out some different sound experiments now that she's a bit more weathered, but music always detracted from the journey for her.