Greetings, fellow travelers.
English is not my first language, so apologies if i don't make sense - come to think of it, I don't think I have a first language anymore. I have been a frequent visitor of the nexus and have only been able to successfully extract the magic couple of times with the help of some experienced and big heated travelers, specifically, Phlux and Ice_House. Not only them, but all the material that i have read has helped me in so many countless ways = Thank you.
I discovered the nexus randomly, i think i was trying to look for some psychedelic art for my next tat and some how ended up at the nexus. Reaally liked the way this forum was communicating so I decided to join.
After several unsuccessful extractions, i finally extracted a usable batch of goodies. Needless to say, as soon as i started the tek, i felt so engaged and in love with all the textures, colors and smells. Maybe it was a deeper need for something meaningful, but i found my self literally meditating while working with the spice.
My first trip wasn't out of the ordinary, in fact, I was too nervous and excited at the same time, to let go on the first few attempts. Gradually i discovered a part of me, like a fellow Nexican puts it, 'which couldn't be destroyed'.
I got more and more comfortable with that part. After using the spice, it was as if my reebot button had been pressed and everything was okay again.
I haven't done anymore extractions and its been 2 months. I didn't feel the need, only because i could feel it's presence all the time. I don't know if i am making any sense to you all, but it's as if the doors and mirrors of perceptions have been wiped out. Everything is quiet clear and vivid - everything.
In order to be post-specific, i wont talk much about the experience, however, i would like to thank each and every one of you for being who you are. I feel connected to you all and can relate to you in so many ways. I would like to thank you for sharing your knowledge and experiences. For being honest and for sharing the love.
Couple of years from now, I wouldn't have imagined my self being who I am today, considering i was raised up as a conservative Muslim - but i am glad of the now. Glad to be part of this and the whole. Glad to be me. . .
Thank you for reminding me of who I am - a smiley face for most of the part
Love and Light!
Observing in Silence!
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