So my package arrived tonight, and though I was originally planning on waiting until after the weekend to try.. I felt very moved to try tonight. And since I've heard so much about starting with vine only brews, or at least starting small and working up, I decided I would try my first light batch tonight.. There were certainly effects, but it was much less than I was expecting.. People are certainly right about batches misfiring. Though mine was certainly active.. It was not what I was expecting. I was a little bummed at how light the effects were, but it's a learning experience, and as always, with the intelligence these plant teachers have, I'm sure I got exactly what I needed at this point in my life.. So here's what I did.
My chacruna won't arrive until later, but today I received a little over 100g yellow B. Caapi, and about 25g Mimosa. I've read about so many different preparations.. Most recipes call for several hours or cooking, about 3 hours for each wash, repeating about 3 times.. However I've read so many experience reports where people only brewed for about 15 minutes and had mindblowing effects.. So I didn't place so much emphasis on the amount of time I spent brewing, and tried to just pay attention to the plants themselves.
I took slightly less than 50g of the Caapi vine, pounded with a hammer, and placed the shredded pieces in a pot. I shredded the Mimosa as best I could by hand, and was left with many small strips and chips of it, which I placed about 4g of in another pot. For the Mimosa I added just enough water to cover it, 250ml, and a teaspoon of vinegar. I started the burner underneath, brought it to where it was bubbling just a bit underneath, and then took off some of the heat and let it simmer. I did the same with the Caapi in the other pot, but it needed a bit more water - 500ml.
These simmered for a little over an hour, until the water level was much lower (are you supposed to leave the pots uncovered? I did). I got two more pots and used a T-shirt to strain the liquid through into them. Added water and vinegar again to the original pots, and repeated the process. I did three washes of the Mimosa and two of the Caapi. I also reduced the amount of liquid in the new pots. I was left with much less liquid than I was expecting though.. Both drinks ended up being less than a shot's worth.
I have the feeling that my technique could have been much better, and I really want to learn more about brewing before I give this another go.. It just didn't quite feel right. I had the nagging thought in the back of my head that I cooked it too long, not long enough, too hot, not hot enough.. Not enough water, not enough vinegar. Too much.. Reduced it too much.. Cooked out the actives.. These were all worries of mine.
Anyway, after the drinks were ready I went outside, made a nice place to lay down with some blankets.. Had some water to rinse it down with, and a bucked for the purge.. I drank the Caapi brew first, waited 10 minutes, and then downed the Mimosa. They didn't taste good, but I got them down ok.. For the first 25 minutes or so I felt like I was going to throw up, but that eventually left.. And I didn't feel nausea again at all.. A little gas, but nothing to write home about.. Also.. I didn't purge. Not once. I had read a lot about the effects really kicking in after the purge, so I kept waiting for it, and got worried when it didn't come.. I was actually very hungry most of the time.
It was definitely active though. After about an hour there were definite effects. My thinking was slightly altered. I did notice some visual changes.. Not what I was expecting from any amount of DMT though, from what I've read. Colors were slightly brighter, and I was sensitive to light changes.. but that's about it. Things did look 'different', and some visual effects were definitely there, but hard to put my finger on.
There was a definite body energy to the experience. It was actually quite pleasant. I spent a lot of time thinking about life, and my connection to the universe. Smiled quite a bit. Felt like dancing. Danced a little bit. But really, that was about it..
The effects have almost worn off completely now. I'm sure I'll be realizing more as the next few days go by. Even though it was a very subtle experience I know I'll still need time to integrate.
I guess that's about all I can say about it now.. I'm filled with questions about my brewing technique and the lack of effects I was expecting. I know I got something out of it, maybe more than I realize, but it's hard to put my finger on right now. I did ask the vine to be gentle on me, maybe that's part of it. I was very nervous about using Mimosa and being overwhelmed by the DMT, which certainly didn't happen. And I think I'll need to resist the urge to raise my dose by too much next time.
I do feel quite bursting at the seams to talk about it right now.. but words aren't exactly flowing out of me right now. So I'll leave it at that for tonight. Will be reporting back though. Any feedback is greatly appreciated. Thanks all!
Embrace this moment, remember: We are eternal. All this pain is an illusion.